wow.

that 'wow' was for myself. whahaaha. i wasn't as tired as i thought i would be, after having less than 10hours of sleep for the past 4 days combined. could still push myself to work out at california fitness today with kelvin sir and james. hehe. it was fun! i tried the boxercising class or something like that, before that did my run on the treadmill, and some other conditioning exercise. ultimate work out day. wahh, now im thinking of getting that lifetime membership. the atmosphere inside seem to psyche me up. hehe. plus, the classes are fun. they have pilates, yoga, some dance class like hip hop and latino jazz..and lots more others. hehe..anyway i still have 1mth before the free pass expires. hmm, they hav branches in the states, and some other asia countries, but they just dun have it in perth!! ugh! will see how, think im gonna be quite busy this Dec. YCYP youthcamp, Big Move and taekwondo chalet coming up...'Magic of Love' during the xmas period, and FCBC's xmas bash. all exciting stuffs!

and yesh...meeting up with all of you guys! wonder if i still wanna work part time now..seem a lil packed..and i do want some time to just rest and relax, do my readings for next semester AND just some leisure reading...

*yawn* gonna rest now..maybe watch some anime before i sleep. haha. anyway hair's still wet. tomorrow, going pulau ubin for trial run of camp games and stuffs. gonna be HOT i think.

greetings - from land near the equator.

so im back for approximately 6 hours now. still able to adapt to the humidity, not too bad. after i set foot into my house for like an hour, friends from liquids (cafe where i use to work part time) jio-ed me to a bar at Club street. apparently today is the bar's opening day...think the owner is my cafe boss's friend. anyway i didnt drink, stayed for awhile and they decided to go kbox. good idea too, cos i wasn't very keen on staying at that place for long. seem a lil dodgy to me. so the whole lot trooped down to paradiz centre. i wasnt quite in the mood for ktv either. haa. wanted to have a chat with one or two of the friends from liq, but both places were too noisy to do any catching up. and while i was at ktv, kelvin called me...and scolded me, cos i didnt call him after i touched down. sigh, im starting to feel the hectic pace here in Singapore already. didnt even get to rest properly. in less than 4hrs time, i have to wake up, go sin ming road to get my bike's insurance and road tax and all (my dad...RARHH!! i dunno how he lost them...create more problems for me). ugh. so if i don't do them tomorrow...i can't ride my bike (cos then it'll be illegal). RARHH!! then after...kelvin wants me to go california fitness with him. i obliged, wondering though if i have the energy to even do a proper workout. after all those which i'll proceed to FCBC, yeah...i miss FCBC!! looking forward to that. can't wait to see all my dearie sis... think i'll be tired, but i guess i'll feel recharged once i step into the doors of FCBC! hehe.

sobs. less than 4hrs of sleep. goodbye for now.

darling! when are we meeting!? i miss you guys! for now though..me get my beauty sleep first.

rarh!

extremely hot day. i'd rather summer than winter though. can look forward to my jogs in the evenings at least. jogging jogging jogging.. arGh, my knees are starting to ache again. i feel like a 22year old cooped in an ah ma's body. all those sports injuries, and aching joints when it gets too cold..ugh! anyway, i think its just the weather making me all grouchy. rarrrrrrrhhhh. im gonna get some ice-cream now.

changed the layout of my blog. got this from www.blogskins.com you guys can go check it out..this site has blogskins for lots of different themes. didnt bother to surf at that site for long though, i thought this was pretty nice, so just adopted it and made some very minor changes. =)

nothing much to blog about these few days. most of my friends have sat for at least 1 or 2 of their papers, and im still waiting for my one and only paper on the 24th. not complaining about how that one paper has to fall on the 2nd last day of the exam period; still thankful for all that has happened this semester and how well things turned out to be in the end. can't help reiterating the fact - how great is our God, who always makes a way out for us no matter what crisis we meet with. as i've experienced personally many times this year, His timing was and is impeccable; never early never late, always showing up at the right moment, wanting only the BEST for us. He reveals His presence, love, strength and specific guidance, creating a path through the most painful wilderness.

Thank You Lord.

"The Lord is righteous in all his ways and loving toward all he has made. The Lord is near to all who call on him to all who call on him in truth. He fulfils the desires of those who fear him, he hears their cry and saves them. The Lord watches over all who love him but all the wicked he will destroy. My mouth will speak in praise of the Lord. Let every creature praise his holy name for ever and ever." -Psalm 145: 17-21

many reasons to praise Him [and be thankful]

Dear God, I have so many reasons to praise you. In the face of trial and hardship I have your promises to re-awaken my hope. In the moment of victory I have you to thank for my abilities. In the boredom of the routine, I have great joys in your surprises. Thank you God for being so great and for Your grace. Thank You for loving me, just as i am. In Jesus name. Amen.

shopping!

YEAH!!!

alright, yet another terrible collaging. but thats not the point here!!

i've finally got myself a coffee maker!! yiipppeeee doooooo! and it came with a blender! good stuff! cost me AUD$240. not too bad i would think. then after i had to go shop for 'accessories'. lOl. got 2 latte cups and a frothing jug. haa! oooh then i saw this cute coffee mug set and i got one of those too. it was actually tagged at $20, but when i paid for it, the lady said it was some x'mas box set and was on some sort of sale..so in the end paid only $14 for the set of 4 mugs.

hmm. then i got myself a pair Aasics! yay! yet another reason to force myself to be consistent in my runs. haha.

tomorrow, i shall try my first homemade cup of cappucino. mmmmmmmmm!!!!
coffee anyone!? lolz.

yeah bobo, i can almost see you jumping around, doing a lil dance waiting for your mocha! haa. come come, bring along your hersheys choc syrup and i'll make you a nice cuppa. *grins*

-bliss-

gadget itch, again.

1) Coffee maker/Expresso machine
2) HDD view cam
3) Heart rate monitor
4) Nokia 8800
5) External Hard disk drive

oooooh...I WANT I WANT I WANT I WANT!!
lustful creature i am.

FUN FUN FUN with photoshop!

i can almost visualize bobo shaking her head at this awful job done. lol. i'll try harder another day! stay tuned for more photos....and, hopefully better collaging.

my first try at collage! me with mei'en (left), cheryl (right).

madness!

Hello there my faithful readers! lol. so its about time i introduce to you guys a few of the frequently mentioned names in my blog.

first up - ellie - featuring as the running witch in this video.
taken during our mini halloween party [read: JUNK FOOD and horror movies night].

"mmmmm.. numnumnumnum" (Woodford, 2005).

im still alive.

classes have officially ended, so the mugging bug has come a-hopping along. this semester seems to fly by quite fast. 3 more weeks to the end. now that the dates are drawing near, im not so sure if im really looking forward to going back Singapore. haa. yeah -sweats- maybe its just the break i need, but i don't know what to expect when i return to SG. oh boy.

havent been exactly busy, just a case of bochupness. went a few places, met a few people .. and for the most part its just studying in the library with deb and ellie. anyway it's all good.

wish i have more to say. but thats all for now. just a short note to say, "yeah im still alive." =)

New Feature!

Haven't been posting for a few days. I've been studying. =) Honest!!
well.....not 24/7. BUT at least exam preparations are well underway.

Alright, so what's this NEW FEATURE about. may i please direct your attention, once again to the sidebar on your right [in case some of you dunno your left/right. Right is this way -> ]. thank you very much.

lolz, ok ok, dun bash me up when u see me. anyway i've been trying to find out how to put background music on my blog for quite sometime now. i still can't get it to autoplay, best I could do is to place a player on the sidebar..for you guys to click and listen. anyway i thought this is a pretty cool idea, rather than have the music on suddenly when the page loads, kinda irritating at times [I'm sure you all agree with me, right!?]. anyway, i don't care..you'll have to agree with me..it's my blog. lolz.

I will try to get the song changed, once every week [hence the header 'Pick of the Week'], that is if I don't get too lazy. haha.

[out of curiosity though, i stilll wanna know how to get music autoplay when page loads. so if any of you know, drop me a message. haha. thank you thank you.]

gotta thank Chee Chiu for introducing this castpost to me. but hey...i figured out how this work, got it on my blog, aligned it properly and stuffs... all by myself. *smug look*

alright...its not all perfect, my meropet header got mis-aligned in the process. and i can't figure out how to align it properly. actually wanted to pretend I didnt see it or that it was just supposed to be that way, but our dear bobo simply has to point that out to me. rarhhh! anyway...looks good mis-aligned also. err...right? we'll leave that for now. -_-" THANKS BOBO!

anyway.....

enjoy the music.

attack of the killer pets

ugh! i've received news that janeyz pet has grown as big as hachiko! oh no...! attacks of the killer big-feet-meropets.

need. to feed kon more!

so today i've handed in my last assignment for this sem! *WHOOOOOOOOOOPEEE DOOO*
then i went garbo with my mum to shop a lil and finally satisfy my craving for boost juice. haha. nice.

up next, print out all my stat notes. start studying tomorrow. rough draft of my timetable from now till semester ends, study and make time to jog at least thrice a week. i feel like a big blob of fats now. not too goood. -_-" other than that, its just that i really miss my runs. makes me feel good about myself. i think its that feeling of pushing your body to the limits, and that kinda triggers something in my brain. more than often it brings a whole new perspective to 'disturbing' situations that im facing and my life. well they did say that exercising makes a person happier. =)

done.

done with my research proposal, don't know why though, don't seem especially happy or excited. somehow not satisfied with the quality of this assignment. or maybe im just too tired today. well alright, thats the last for this semester. up next - devise a study plan for exam preparation. although there's only 1 paper to take, gotta make sure i cover every single concept there is to grasp.

few issues weighing on my mind, some of which needs immediate attention. but i just...don't wanna think about it right now. instead my mind's wandering off to somewhere it shouldnt be. need to re-align my focus again.

anyhow, i think i should sleep.

-out-

yet another rambling moment

-sleeeeeepy-

but still.......just can't resist an entry before i sleeep, so Kon will growww. and grow he shall......haaa. [ok, so i lied! main reason's cos hair is still wet...grrrrr, i have this bad habit of having to wash my hair everytime i bathe no matter how late it is. irritating.]

just came back from deb's place. i seem to be hanging out at her place and library very often these few days. and i reckon wld be so till this semester ends. then i'll be back back back to haunt most of you guys in SG. yippeee dooo~! start counting down. muahahaha.

my research proposal still needs abit of editing, i think i'll be able to complete by tomorrow evening, have it nicely printed out and stuff.. ~whoala~ that will then be the end of rushy assignment period for this semester~! *grins*

today's dinner was fantabulous, together with Su and Ellie, we whipped up a few dishes. [warning: wear a bib before reading on lest you drool onto ur shirt] so we had...chicken herbal soup, sweet and sour pooork (i have been ellie-fied, help!), brinjal (yucks to purple vege, but apparently they love it), and a dish of GREENS (thank God). oh alright, maybe the list/dishes wasn't enough to make you drool, but still, it was n i c e. =)

ooh yeah huh, yesterday cz (campus zone) murdoch & kardy combined to celebrate a few October babies's birthday. took quite a number of photos. wld try and post a few up soon. gotta get them from my friend. sadly, my sony T1 has been super duper under-utilised this semester. either i was lazy or i'd porrrget[compirmmed, ellie-piication complete.] to bring it out.

well...what to say, stressful period, but still managed to squeeze in fun and laughter. God's really been good, and i mean really goooooooooood. after all the downs and more downs this semester, everything just smoothed out in the end and i've finally made peace with my warped up inner being, all by God's grace. Praise God.

ooh, i can't resist this, but Ellie is porrr you. i think me and deb's should help u cure your case of fruit-o-phobia. haa. first off, before we use the desensitization technique, you'll have to want that phobia cured yourself. so, before you sleep ebrynight..will yourself using this -

repeat after me -

fruits are food.
fruits are good.
i love fruits.

fruits are food.
fruits are good.
i love fruits.

hmmmmmmmmmm. yumz. X10

oooh im so gonna get bashed~~ haa, no right ellie? -peace-

alright enough from me porrr the day. its getting kinda disturbing reading my entries isnt it.

goodnight everyone.

-bliss-

Everybody, meet Kon!

Ladies and gentlemen, I hereby introduce a newly added member of this site - Kon. hahaa. ok, in case most of you are still wondering who kon is; its a new blogpet that i've adopted (with the help of bobo *ops* i meant debbie). cos seriously, i know nuts about all those RSS feed thingy and certainly do not understand a word of Jap [from the signup process to the adding of friends and all those in between...its all in Jap!]. kinda sad cos i simply have no idea what the conversation is about. *dismayed look*

debbie i need a crash course in jap! haha. at least enough for me to understand what kon and hachiko's [deb's blogpet] crapping about.

ooh yea..anyway one might ask why i adopt a pet that speaks jap then..haa, cos apparently they don't have the english version for it, and im jus bored la [hey, im in perth ok], also, out of curiosity, im jus interested to see how big my pet can grow and what it'll turn out to be like.

so the more i blog, the bigger it'll grow. i have a feeling its gonna stay the same until my assignments are all over, or maybe not. haa.

well yeah, i'll try to figure it out myself when i have the time. next up, gonna try and add suli.

ooh yeah..i named my blogpet after Kon from Bleach! haa. just finished episode 52 at deb's place...so tomorrow after a hard day of work at the library[betting to complete my proposal], i can unwind with episode 53 [b4 i left deb's place jus now, was still in the process of downloading]. haa. hoooray to anime!

for now though, goodnight. =)

apt.

i think this new site name, fits me just fine. i really am dazed. to the extent that i am hurting myself - physically.

to start with, last night in the middle of sleep, i knocked my head against the wall. then this morning when i closed the bathroom door, i dunno how, but my toes went underneath the vent.
then after, i knocked my knee onto the wall and got bruised as a result. thennnn right about 5 minutes ago, i flipped my hands around to sort of stretch abit, the tip of my fingers hit my table lamp.

dazed, i am. blur. stressed. injury-prone day. [insert watever reason]

back to work it is.

Official Apology

SORRY peeps! haaha. anyway i got a few 'hum tums' from you guys already [first up was ah xin...lolz...small, cute....and fierce]. know that some of you linked me up to ur site. this IS gonna be the final change [i promise! well... at least for the near future] lOl.

oks doks, laters.

just a quick one

so what's this corny blog URL (for-the-benefit-of-ppl-in-sv.blogspot.com) about...one might wonder. well its dedicated specially to my dearest friends staying in Student Village, namely, SPSS Guru - Suli & Ellie - THE ONE to seek for all who wants their inner-pilipino unleashed.
well, cos the old blog url ended with 2 dash(jing--), and somehow school server forbidded viewing due to that, and obviously the corniness in me resurfaced after being in the company of these fine individuals, hence the present url.

yesh sireee, these guys are a crazy bunch. felt glooomy whole of today as i tried to do all my assignments. but things certainly turned for the better after i met up with ellie, suli and debbie in the compt lab to go over the SPSS exam questions. not only did i feel more confident of the lab test for this coming wed, totally enjoyed basking myself in the company of these people. u guys rawk! for a moment there, i wasn't fretting over deadlines and stuffs..

anyway for the rest of you guys, im sorry u'll have to bear with this url for a while. haa. i'll change it soon. maybe tomorrow. lol.

well now, its back to rushing my research proposal. =)

oh btw, SPSS = Statistical Package for Social Sciences

[quote]

The supreme happiness of life is the conviction that we are loved.

-Victor Hugo

God is good.

Everything just changes so fast. Only God is constant. He is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow. His love never fails.

God's been good. He's been with me. Even though i'm not faithful, He is. Even when i cant feel Him sometimes, He's here just by me.

*smiles

Why I'm still here at 5.37am...

progress too slow for my own liking. grrrr. work seems neverending. grrrrrrrrrrrrr....

argghhhhh.

enough said.

nothing more, nothing less. its just.......

S T R E S S

attitude with altitude!

i love this!

=]

FINALLY [i love caps, haa, so fun and useful. lol], my eye not hurting as much anymore. it still hurts occasionally and i still get that blurry vision, but its all good. i can start getting into full swing for my assignments. and its right about time..THANK GOD. Initially doc said need at least 2 weeks, so i guess i have to be really thankful i can stare at the screen for half a day now, look at my food without yelping in pain..and all.

so im in quite a good mood, for now. don't know how long this good mood is gonna last, maybe it will end tomorrow when reality smacks me right on the cheek. haa. ooohh that 60% assignment, I have to get at least a D for it. well..not just that assignment, I kinda expect this grade for all my work, ah well..

kinda excited about having to rush my assignments and mugging for exams, i don't know why though. i don't think i have been nerdified to that extent, might just be the sub-conscious thought of getting it all done and heading back to SG soon after.

sick of being sick!

this has had to be one of the most exasperating week[it has been THAT long] of my life. knowing i have loads of work to complete, yet i can do nothing but eat and sleep. argh! i can't even eat properly [cos even taking a look at the food makes me yelp in pain], and im so sick of being able to do nothing but sleep and sleep. and how can i sleep at ease when all those datelines are drawing so near.

my eye is not getting any better. today the pain in my eye gave me a terrible headache. worst off than migraine. i had throbbing pain at the temple and throbbing pain IN the eye.
oh gosh. i feel so........arghhhh!!! blarrdee.........

and i had a friend who commented that she couldnt feel my stress and wish instead that she was the one down with viral infection [so she neednt do any work]. gawd......come on man, there's nothing more to be thankful about than a healthy body. i love my work and im committed to give a hundred percent to my studies.

when is all these gonna end. i have no more time to lose!! oh man.....i can't afford to jus scrap through...i can't afford to fail! i can't. i dun want to. Lord help me.

You're all I need.

Thank You Father, for all that I'm going through now..I thank You for each and every challenge that is placed right before me. For it is with all these that I can experience Your love, Your mercy and Your grace, for it is through all these circumstance that I learn and I grow. I will embrace all; not by might nor power, but by Your Spirit..I shall overcome all obstacles, and may all glory go to You.

Lord You're all I need. Thank You for meeting me and giving me that special assurance.

drained.

Yay. Thank God I found a place to move out end of this semester. Deb's old place, but sadly she won't be my housemate; either she's moving out or returning to SG after graduation. Anyway, I wonder what my new housemates would be like, but anyone would be better than the present housemates, this I'm absolutely sure of.

Well, ok...tutor allowed extension of deadline for my research proposal. Thank God for that. Not that its anything worth being happy about, but sigh, better than nothing la. Hope I can do my research properly and *fingers crossed* still able to do some critical thinking and analysis.

So I'm about halfway through one of my assignments. 2 more to go.

I guess I won't be checking in for quite awhile now. Time to buckle up, it's gonna be mad rush for the rest of this week. Hopefully the next entry would be something like "Yay..I've completed my assignments..." something like that..ah well...

thats all for now folks.

arGh!

Just came back from the docs. [I'll spare you guys the agony of my rantings just on trying to see a doc, that in itself is a whole story to tell, and I don't have time for that]. Spent Aud$45.85...with no medication whatsoever. I was told that it was some kinda viral infection, plain unlucky..no medicine for this. So how? BE patient...in about 2 or 3 weeks time...I'll be ok.

*takes a deep breath*

arGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

insane....2 weeks!!!? this pain and discomfort...what about my assignments!? no doubt he gave me 2 weeks MC....but still..I have to complete my assignments somehow....and with exams round the corner.

*sobs*

God help me.

Feeling much better after popping 2 panadols...at least I can face the screen with both eyes open now. My left eye felt as though all the nerves ruptured or something just now, tears kept oozing out...arr..bloody. I felt like a vampire for a moment, totally dreaded light. I hope this doesnt happen again tomorrow when I wake. terrible.

Anyway I slept the whole day, and I think I'm going to sleep again soon...just felt bored, so I thought I'll crap a few words here. hmm, wanna thank ah goh and stef for dropping by and buying me fish porridge. thought i wanna blog about perth royal show too, but not quite in the mood now.

arGh....I've got SO MUCH to do during this 1 week break (3 assignments, 2 of them worth 30% each and another worth 60%...shucks), and its not helping that I started this hols by being sick. Things certainly don't look pretty at this point in time. Im scared. shitless. and there's nothing out there to hold on to. I guess thats what my faith is for.

ahhh crap....!!

I'm sick.

I've got sore eyes.

My [left] eye hurts.

My head hurts.

grrrr........!!!!

thats all for now. bye.

Our God is an awesome God

so...im not really in the best of mood now..due to certain reasons....
still, i just feel like saying..

I LOVE MY GOD!

my prayer for today.

Father, make in me a right heart that knows You then lives aright for You. Help me live the way You want, help me trust wholeheartedly in Your loving plans for me and let me understand the cost of obedience. Father enable me by Your Spirit to make choices which are wise and avoid sinning against You again. Amen.

not a bad day afterall

this afternoon when I came bac from school, kena headache again...dunno why keep getting these bouts of headaches recently.... went to take a nap and forced myself to wake up at around 3pm...cos I promised Kelvin sir that I wld go curtin find him, take some photos with him (convocation). Anyway...after I drove all the way to curtin, I couldnt find him, so in the end waited somewhere and read my notes.....1hr later he finally called me...and tat was after his photo taking session.....$%%^#$^%....shld hav continued with my nap. but ok, to make up for it, he did buy me a curtin uni t-shirt[and he did suggest to throw in another curtin uni jacket, or something like tat], red color somemore, my favourite color! hehe....but i told him, i don't even have any Murdoch Uni t-shirt, seemed strange for me to wear something with Curtin Uni printed on it...haa...but ok, I accepted the t shirt anyway..since it was red.....lets hope the wording will come off after I wash it or something....lolz...jus joking!!... [ok, not funny... come on...its 235am now, wat do u expect from me at tis kinda time huh].

...anyway..drove him bac to my place, cos i wanted to do my work, and he needed to study for his last paper... I shld have known...sigh, he NAGGED.. and we talked about taekwondo, club stuffs, abt people, abt everything under the sun 90% [conservative approximation] of the time we were at my place.....remaining 10% consisted of transition time for settling down to do work and err, finally abit of serious reading....therefore effective work done, was almost as good as ZERO.

hmm, although it sounds like im complaining....but actually no la..really enjoyed his company. missed those taekwondo training days. tough training, but i love it! he kept on yakking at it until i feel so motivated to go bac for training again...yeshhh...I feeeeel like im gonna make a comeback!! I WILL..haa..im not gonna let this passion of mine die off [plus, I miss those flat-tummy and not-so-chubby-face days]...think I've taken a long enough break. waahaha. but err...sigh, still gotta be stucked in perth for 2years....no chance to go for nationals until im settled back in Singapore. Hav to train consistently, get bac in shape and all first....anyway..national tourney always held during august - the time when im still rushing assignments like mad...tragic! Can only hear stories abt my frens training hard and improving each day, only me....growing fatter n fatter each day here. -_-" ....seems like its almost raining everyday again now...if not i actually feel quite motivated to do jogging n some circuit training on my own ~~ nvmind...where there's a will..there's gonna be a way. haa...maybe i can do some strengthening exercise in my room...control kicks n stuffs huh......hehe. well that was what i did last time when i was so mad abt tkd, trained everyday and every minute i could..did stretching while i was watching tv...haa..those were the days. I guess, i really love the feeling of being really passionate abt something...sort of gives more meaning to life. life without passion...hmm..unthinkable...sounds kinda sad to me, anyway i do believe passion drives one to great heights.

anyway.....even before i did all those training....brought kelvin sir out for supper again.
hmm, although i seem to hav lost interest in talking these days..and nv really hav much comments or views about anything anymore.....but while i was with kelvin sir jus now, seem to never run out of stuffs to tok abt...i guess when it comes to taekwondo, we jus have neverending stuffs to talk abt, and also cos he was so super crap la.....haa...for a moment there, i was happy. for a moment there, life was good, in perth. haa. =)

I know my way around!

yay! I succesfully drove myself to Acacia hotel at northbridge, then after I brought Kelvin sir and his frenz to city garden for dinner...then after drove them to King's park.....all these WITHOUT losing my way. Yeapz! proud of myself..wahaha. *kodak moment*

I know some (if not most) people are gonna have that 'what!?!' expression on their face after reading this, and I should sort of feel ashamed rather than proud (been here for more than a year)...haa, but ok..I admit im a loser with navigating around Perth and all...hey, at least I made improvement!

So dear friends in SG, don't have to worry...come come...haha..I will bring you all around when you're in Perth. quick come find me! I know my way now. =p

oh yeah, gotta give credits to ah goh..haa..I bombed his HP quite alot of times to ask the route and all before I set off...so errr..thanks dude. lolz

我要控制我自己，不会让谁看见我哭泣..
装作我不关心你， 不愿想起你...
心痛得无法呼吸....

.....就向流星许个心愿，让你知道我爱你

[no mood for title]

arr...I've got a bloody headache today..throbbing pain. It's been quite sometime since the last one, almost forgot wat a headache feels like, but after this, I think the sensation will remain in my memory for quite sometime.

anyway haven't been in the mood to blog for a long time..as u can see, lately my posts are jus some short notes....one or two pictures.......basically nothing interesting happened.. and my thoughts seem to be in a whirl again. Oh well... I've made it a point not to blog abt that particular issue again.

today was the footy finals (Sydney swans vs WCE)....never had an interest in it, but well, since its the finals jus curious who wld win the championship (tho i wldnt even find the slightest joy even if west coast eagles won... ). My alliance wld nv be with anything to do with West Aust...lolz...
anyway sydney won 58 - 54. *hooray* lolz...... caught a few glimpse of the match as I was reading my research materials, still feel that its jus a violent senseless sport. haaa....... but i guess if you don't do the sport urself, you'll never know the 'fun' or difficulty it entails.

well, as im typing now, my tkd instructor is on the way to airport..heading for perth in a few hours time. think if time permits, might meet him tmr for dinner or something. came at a rightly time too...perth royal show is on this week, can just bring him there. haa...I've been here for almost 2yrs...and I still don't know my way around perth... Eunice (my pri sch fren) would also be in perth this coming monday....she asked if i had a car, i said yes, but I 'forgot' to tell her i hav no sense of direction whatsoever..haaha. anyway doesnt matter i guess...her boyfren is studying here, so i reckon don't need me to bring her around..heheh. ooh yea..she asked me to go paintball with her on 1st Oct, i've been wanting to try it for quite sometime now. great opportunity, and i think it'll be great to see an old friend here...sigh, i miss my frens in SG so much. It so happened that FCC cell planned for a trip to Araleun on 1st Oct...hmm....too bad, thought it wld be a good oppotunity to do a little bonding with them, but neahh.....I wanna meet my pri sch fren.

havent been to cell/FCC for quite sometime already..feel like being a hermit. sigh.
ok la, tmr after service, i must come back and do work. i must i must i must...work is piling up so high i can't even see the tip of it......

new look

So I figured I have no color sense. For all who faithfully visits my blog, SORRY for torturing your eyes previously. Though I still feel........the colour combi was kinda cool..... *okok, I can hear ppl screaming already* bye for now =p

lost.....oblivious in life's bemusing mazes..

....

dilemna

if i don't have music playing, i get bored of my work.... if i have music playing, i can't concentrate on what i need to write... what's the middle ground for this for the optimal working environment???? u'd think after 16 years of schooling, i'd have figured this out by now...

Precious Lord, Take my hand.

through the storm
through the night
lead me on to the light...

I'm not back to 100% yet....but I'm on my way.

take my hand precious Lord..
Lead me home.

Lord please grant me....

LOST:

one brain, medium-sized, grayish-pink, wrinkled. Right hemisphere slightly more developed. Believed to have been lost 2 months back. Contains important information, like where my favourite red jacket is, where I last left my tungsten T3 (my artificial backup brain), how to spell words I normally could spell in my sleep, and most of my friends' birthdays. If found, please return immediately.

busy! stress!

It would be good if I was really busy, but ohh no, I've been busy feeling stressed that im not stressed -_-" if it makes any sense to u....but it does to me. haa.

this semester, I've got a feeling that I'm drifting off..way off...maybe worked too hard previous semesters, feeling sort of burnt out now, which is really bad, cos I've got 2years more ahead of me, and the coursework is not gonna get any easier, especially during 4th year (hopefully I'll be doing my honours program). *shivers* frankly, kind of afraid for what's coming up..wondering if im able to handle and all...or worse, wondering if im able to get there at all, what if I just trip and fall flat on my face, did badly for one of the units which is gonna affect entry into honours...or something like that... arrr..no no no...shall not think so negatively. gonna let tomorrow worry for itself. Having said that, I SHOULD really get a grip on myself and start studying really really really hard and consistently already. Lord please grant me the strength and perseverance to run this race!! Let me not just start off well then end poorly; Lord enable me by Your Spirit to end this particular race You have set for me with a big bang, an end that will glorify Your name.

There's a Postgrad info night coming up, 20th sept for Clinical Psych, 28th sept for Organizational psych. Personally im more interested in clinical...but well, will go take a look and see what Murdoch has to offer... Anyway, i dun think i wanna stay in murdoch/perth for another 4years doing masters & Phd together.....! 8years total in murdoch!?!?!?! THATS INSANE! and the thought of me studying non-stop........Jing the Geek/Nerd...don't sound appealing to me lei. Well well well...will see about that. See what God has in store for me..and I shall just trust in Him wholly.

B.O.R.E.D

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY
1) Nona
2) Jing
3) ah-ooooi (pronounced weeeeee)

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD
simi lai eh???

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE
1. Chinese
2. Peranakan
3. -

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU
1. Coakroaches that fly
2. Big black unleashed dogs
3. err..hmm......

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS
1. Food!!!
2. Bible
3. anything that can play music..my ipod/laptop....

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW
1. Striped t-shirt
2. checkered boxers
3. hairband (irritating..hair getting longer..feel like chopping them off)

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS

wahh...alot leii........

1. Christian artists like Hillsong, Planetshakers, Jars of Clay, Don Moen...
2. err..bands like err...U2.. Oasis..Greenday..Coldplay..matchbox twenty..bon jovi.. goo goo dolls...earth wind & fire..
3. err....david tao, jay chou, bryan adams, michael buble, john mayer, robbie williams....

dun ask me to name them all..haa....very long list....

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE SONGS (current faves)

hmm recently..been playing..

1. Bebe and Cece Winans - El Shaddai
2. Don Moen - God will make a way
3. Bryan White - God gave me you

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP
1. God-centered
2. Communication
3. don't like it dull...so err, FUN!?

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE
1. i like reading
2. i like sports
3. i like chatting on msn

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU
1. smile
2. eyes
3. of good height

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES
1. listening to music
2. watching movies/tv programs
3. doing some sports.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW
1. EAT!!!
2. go back to Singapore
3. do anything but my work!

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING/ HAVE CONSIDERED
1. Clinical Psychologist
2. Police Officer
3. Zoo Keeper (training animals, feeding..)

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION
1. United States
2. Many parts of Europe
3. any place with a nice beach and good seafood. haa.

THREE KIDS NAMES YOU LIKE
never thought of it.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. know God more
2. impact people's life...in a positive way of cos. and what better way than to bring them into His Kingdom =)
3. fall in love, get married, have kids =p

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY
1. When i wanna do something, i just do it. don't have to wait till someone accompanies me.
2. Decisive
3. Most of my likes/hobbies are quite boyish (love gadgets, sports, cars, bikes...)


THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL
1. emotional
2. likes romantic r/s
3. hmm, and maybe i cry quite easily

THREE FEMALE CELEBRITY CRUSHES
1. Sammi Cheng
2. Sammi Cheng
3. Sammi Cheng!!!

THREE MALE CELEBRITY CRUSHES
1. Takeshi Kaneshiro a.k.a Jin Cheng Wu
2. Brad Pitt (use to...not really now)
3. Johnny Depp (not much of a crush...jus well...find him quite cool)

THREE PEOPLE THAT I WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW
1. darling
2. axileon
3. mirabel

Captivated by You

How could I live without You..

Now I come right before You with my hands lifted up, and my heart humbly bowed at Your work on The Cross..

for Your love is higher than the heavens, its deeper than the sea..All I want is You in my life, no one else can satisfy my soul, only You Lord. Only You.

Lord, its all about you...You have captured my heart once again.

ehh!? photos!?

paiseh..dunno how this thing work...cant seem to upload the photos..hav i become an IT cuckoo~~?? ohhh no........will do it at a later time n date, lazy to figure it out now. heh..~ sorry folks~

back in perth!

hii guyz, im back in perth, and finally im blogging again. been a week since im back..and im missing SG again..missing my frenz, FCBC..dear sisters in FCBC....my room..ehh..everything la. haa...had a great time back, tho its a short 2 weeks, but had a really really great time. =)

tis 1 week, got so busy with admin stuffs, and jus cant help but to complain..aust admin really sucks big time~ bleaah. anyway ah, now i got to grad end of 2007 instead of 2006~ *SOBS* one more year here....~~ but aint tt pissed anymore, cos i guess God's asking me to work in a lower gear...shall jus savour every moment i have in perth than...not that its bad here, but i jus miss home~~~!! anyway im taking things fine now..actually...better than fine! ...hee..

today went FCC, had a good time worshipping, and fellowshipping as well...after lunch they had a cake to celebrate birthdays of all July babies, and Hazel got us a book each. i had one as well~ so sweet of her~ but ehh..no promise that i will read it anytime soon....heh... *ops*

hmm. these days stuffs dun seem to be gg especially smooth for me, esp knowing that i hav to grad 1 year later and all the admin problems i hav to settle in between. but still lots of stuffs to thank God for...especially witnessing how our awesome Father is working in a good fren's life right now....and i pray for lilian to hav a burning desire in her heart to know God more, and really settle down in either FCBC or any church that she feels comfortable in. In all things that we do, remember to seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all good things will be added onto you..take care dear fren, so proud of u, i see strength n resilence in u right now! will continue praying toge with u =)

hmm, funny eh, altho its onli a week..i feel as tho i've been back for abt half a semester or something..been flipping my txtbooks..reading n trying to start some research early...dunno if i shld even be so stressed..i guess i dunno how to pace myself lei...or i overly kancheong. anyway..with that said, jus wanna try as my best to do my work with a heart of excellence..

ooh okz la, end tis post with a few photos taken in sg..celebrated bday toge with lilian (our bdays are jus 3 days apart).....at one of the kopi tiam in jurong east (sg flavoured b'day celebration!?)...with darling and tps...with a mango strudel as replacement for cake, compliments of our dear fren tps who has been working part time at ritz for 5years. haaa! i jus cant stop making fun of her...lolz..

God is glorified when my heart is satisfied

"Integrity is the glue that holds our way of life together"

talking about FINES......suddenly thought of posting another entry.
Quite sometime back was talking about my 'series of unfortunate events'. First I had aunty pei calling to tell me amidst all my stress that I got a $350 fine with 6 demerit points, but before she told me, i actuallie knew i got caught on speeding camera at southstreet already. then it was like..wah....once i tio 12 demerit points, my driving license wld get revoked le... Wen actually said he wld help me take the 6 demerit points since it was his car that i drove, and also cos he's going back SG to serve NS soon....so deducting 6 points probably wldnt matter much to him. on the other hand if the southstreet fine i got another 6 points....i wld hav to say byebye not only to my car license...guess gotta sell off my car already also....

but then the sunday before this happened, pastor preached on INTEGRITY...and right at that moment when i was faced with the decision, i just felt....okz, in a dilemna alrady....cos my parents are most prob going to kill me if i had to sell off the car and stuffs and it wld be super troublesome without a car here.. wldnt hurt wen anyway since he already suggested helping me....but then it just didn't felt right..and i reckon it wasnt just by chance that pastor had to preach on integrity that very sunday...felt that God is already speaking~ so i had to grit my teeth, and reject the offer by wen..... was thinking wait till the other notice reach, then i'll call my mum and tell her the news..

But really PRAISE GOD....He really honoured the decision i made. the southstreet notice came..and i got only 3 demerits points for that~ *PHEWZ* scraped through again...din hav to sell off my car, dun hav to go thru the process of breaking all these news to my parents...and tmr i can still drive down to campsite...haa......thank GOd! but of cos, i still gotta bear the consequences of having to pay $500 in total! I promise im not going to speed again~~ lolz

Praise God....God is good all the time, and all the time God is good. Amen.

shall end now with this:
Dr. Billy Graham emphasized that "Integrity is the glue that holds our way of life together". He encouraged Christians to strive to keep our integrity intact because if this quality is embraced and in place, other character traits such as loyalty, diligence and good work ethics will follow.

Shopping - GOOD INVESTMENTS

yesterday did quite abit of shopping with Joey and YJ at koorong...spent $85.36. should be quite worth it..hee...one of the better investments i had for quite sometime i think...keke. bought a life application bible, bible dictionary, 2 other christian books, 1 poster and 1 car decal....hee...wah....then met some of the ppl from YA cell, pooled resources and got a 20% discount...if not gotta spend more~ spent quite a good time browsing at books and stuffs...tho i guess at dinner time, most of us were hungry....had to go off for dinner...if not i think not enuf time spent there lei....prefer browsing around in bookstores more than shopping...shopping really bores me, unless i hav something to buy. actuallie really love reading....but cldnt really afford the time during school term. guess im those kind of person who really dunno how to relax when facing stress...gotta learn. always thought that if i hav the time, wld rather pick up my unit readers, textbooks, search for more articles and jus mug..cant enjoy other books at that time also. now that its the hols.....no more heavy load, totally enjoy immersing myself in books...and of cos during this period of time, really jus wanna enjoy more time spending alone with Him, feeling His sweet sweet presence...

went dinner at saigon, food there not bad...oh that reminds me, still owe joey money for that meal....cos when its time to pay.....I RAN OFF~ lOl......no la...haa..went to buy bubble tea with Eu Lynn and YJ. hmm, poor YJ, got new car, got slapped with a $100 parking fine yesterday....actually i jus wanted to scare her, in the end realise there's really a parking fine there...*ops....anyway i gotta pay my busselton $350 fine today la....jus got it yesterday before i went out~ *sigh...........$500 *heartache. YJ was saying..with the fine I paid, can buy more than half of her car already... think i shld jus sell off my car and get a bicycle instead..if not i'll go broke soon. everyday gotta eat bread in future....

okz yippee...tmr im gg to FCC camp..so guess wldnt be updating this for quite sometime already, cos after camp, i'll be back for a day....den 30th - HELLO SYDNEY, HILLSONG CONFERENCE HERE I COME! wooohhooooooooooo!

after exams

Its been 2 days after my last paper...hee~ finally...this hectic semester is over. first paper i had was tough for me, made loads of careless mistakes as well~ but well put that behind me....continued to study harder for my 2nd paper..the one where i had to prepare 8 essays...God really super duper blessed me to the max on this..... cos i had to prepare 8, then 4 would come out during the exams, i had to do 3...got quite worried cos there was so much concepts to remember...so much details and stuffs to memorise.......in the end i prepared 7, focused on 4 and jus drilled those 4 into my mind.....den during exams, when i had the first glance at the questions, jus cant help smiling n really thank God at that exact same moment...all four that i focused on, came out for the exams! before that i was still worried like..wat if the other 4 that i did not prepare well came out...den i wld be goner........but *PHEWZ* big big big sigh of relieve......2hours paper, went on writing at full speed non-stop...hands nearly cramp.....but wah....it was worth it man...

anyway now its time to chill.....last 2 days...packed my room, vacumm every nook n cranny...went and watch 'Mr and Mrs Smith' with amanda and Gabz....crap show........bleah. if i knew it wld hav jus watched madasgascar.

today tried to practice playing abit of guitar...borrowed it from joey...think i wanna get back SG and get an acoustic guitar....wanna learn lei..strum and worship abit at my own time....if i played better, really wldnt mind helping out in cell.

cooked porridge for lunch and dinner today....sigh, its been such a long time since i last cooked, and when i took a look at my sack of rice...from a 10KG pack...im left with onli less than a bowl!.....i really dun understand why my housemates hav to do tis kinda thing....den i checked, my oyster sauce also gone liow......even the bottle also gone. really dunno wat to do with this kinda housemates leiiiii.....dunno wat else missing man.........cannot recall wat i had in the 1st place anyway....until i hav the need for it...but oh well.... dunno how to handle this issue...dun wanna argue with them, asked them they denied also....dun wanna brew more trouble la...also dun wanna spoil my mood..its hols now!......maybe i can choose to think my oyster sauce and rice jus evaporated. sighh....

think im going to move house soon la....Deb says her housemate moving off, maybe i'll jus move in with her, wish i cld be housemates with her again...she's the best housemate i have since i reached perth. super neat and tidy person..can cook well also..haa....confirm no problem if i stay with her man.....maybe somedays when she's in the mood to bake cake...i still can hav a nibble. lOl.....so pray pray i got a place to stay la.......but i still hav bond in this house lei....gotta bring tis to my landlord's attention soon. anyway they're jus money grabbing a**h****....always wanna collect rent earlier.....then if house has any problem, and u told him abt it...he'll say "there's nothing we cld do abt it"..then giv u tat kinda fake smile........ sianz.

now im so super duper looking forward to the FCC camp...and HILLSONG CONFERENCE!!! then soon after i'll be back in SG to meet my beloved frenz....haa~! hmm....i got my viewcam over....but then today i realise it dun seem to be working lei...like spoil liow..wah abit sad. dunno wat happened to it.....

ohhhhhhhh welll............nothing's gonna bring me down now...shall keep myself cheerful. =)

bonkers

my mind is totally saturated with heaps of psychological definitions, terms, explanations...endless psychological theories..grand theories, theories that support each other's claims and worst of all, conflicting theories...........blah~ maxed out.

What makes something a science is not WHAT is studied, but HOW it is studied. Did not know that psychology is so scientific... came to know only after i started on it. sigh. what makes it tougher is that, its so difficult to control for validity and reliability of the study, because of pre-existing differences in human. People differ genetically, on personality, character, moulded differently by different environment, social life...upbringing....and how can we forget abt the ever controversial topic of nature vs nurture...... it's much more complex for a scientist/psychologist to study human, than for a scientist to study whales in the ocean. at least the mindset of a whale aint that complex and varied...... (correct me if im wrong).


The modern method of science is most profound in its simplicity; in fact the beauty of this simplicity is the foundation of its profoundness. Yet is this the most optimal method available to mankind in its quest to unravel nature?


theories theories theories....................oh well, back to mugging. did i mention........im going bonkers already~~~ after reading through the never ending acticles, textbooks, lecture notes, supplementary books from library.... wonder how much information had actually been retained. but i guess retained enough of what i've learnt to write all these crap....

A B C's to live by

Although things are not perfect

Because of trial or pain

Continue in thanksgiving

Do not begin to blame

Even when the times are hard

Fierce winds are bound to blow

God is forever able

Hold on to what you know

Imagine life without His love

Joy would cease to be

Keep thanking Him for all the things

Love imparts to thee

Move out of "Camp Complaining"

No weapon that is known

On earth can yield the power

Praise can do alone

Quit looking at the future

Redeem the time at hand

Start every day with worship

To "thank" is a command

Until we see Him coming

Victorious in the sky

We'll run the race with gratitude

Xalting God most high

Yes, there'll be good times and yes some will be bad, but...

Zion waits in glory...where none are ever sad!"

I AM Too blessed to be stressed!"

The shortest distance between a problem and a solution is the distance between your knees and the floor.

The one who kneels to the Lord can stand up to anything.

Love and peace be with you forever, Amen.

when the going gets tough, the tough gets goin!

hmm okz la..not as tough as the title sounds.... been busy and stressed these few days. out studying with suli and debbie whole day...at least made progress with my essay question preparations. out of the 8..hav summarised 4........but ermz, yet to do any memorisation n stuffs. -_-"

anyway, forced to cure myself of OCD for checking emails...msning....when im out..haa....
brain abit dead now..reached saturation point....... why am i still up here then? hmm.....OCD i guess...........

yeah.....stormy night again..shall go snuggle in bed now. ciaoz.

series of u n f o r t u n a t e event

sigh! altho this might not be the unluckiest day i've ever been thru...but it jus seems like so many situations are trying to pull me down.. firstly, am still trying very hard not to think abt some personal problems that im struggling with, 2ndly, trying real hard to focus on exams, thirdly, woke up this morn to realise there was this power surge thing, laptap and all other electrical appliances were not working (thot for a moment, shit...there goes my labtop..which is a freaking scary thot...)...had to find the whole damn house for the main switch (which was actuallie located in the garage)...den aunty pei called to tell me, i've been slapped with a $350 speeding fine when we went busselton (whereby i onli drove a freaking hour for the whole damn 3-day trip, on the way back somemore). AND im still awaiting another speeding fine to arrive that i got on southstreet~ so that might amount to maybe $600 worth of fine!!!? AND deduction of points. to top this all up...im still having a freaking sore throat now....

now i gotta pretend as if nothing happen......and jus focus on the damned exams............

double irritation! argh!

wat an unproductive day...had been TRYING to study...im falling sick! help...~~ *sobs... my throat is killing me...and some how the pain got to my right ear as well....so both my throat n ear are killing me...double irritation. plus this rainy weather's making me real sleepy....jus feel like snuggling in bed. pray doubly doubly hard.........oh God dun let me fall sick now!

hmmm.........wonder if ice-cream's gonna help with my condition....

-_-"

Human learning?

The funny circle of human learning:

reality --> simplified theoretical framework --> complex theoretical framework --> more complex theoretical framework --> ........ --> reality

in between: life has passed

effective work done: zero

Letter to a fool

Dear Fool,

I saw you yesterday as you began your daily chores. You awoke without praying. As a matter of fact, you didn't even bless your meals or pray before going to bed last night. You are so unthankful. I like that about you! I cannot tell you how glad I am that you have not changed your way of living. Fool, you are mine. As a matter of fact, I hate you, because I hate God. I am only using you to get even with God. He kicked me out of heaven and I'm going to use you as long as possible to pay Him back.

You see, Fool, GOD LOVES YOU and HE has great plans in store for you. But you have yielded your life to me and I'm going to make your life a living hell.. This will really hurt God, thanks to you. I'm really showing Him who's boss in your life. We have been watching dirty movies, cursing people out, partying, stealing, lying, being hypocritical, fornicating, overeating, telling dirty jokes, gossiping, back-stabbing people and disrespecting those in leadership positions.

NO respect for the church, bad attitudes... Come on, Fool, let's burn together forever. I've got some hot plans for us. You are so gullible, I laugh at you. When you are tempted to sin, you give in. HA, HA, HA! You make me sick. Sin is beginning to take its toll on your life.


Well, Fool, I have to let you go for now. I'll be back in a couple of seconds to tempt you again. If you were smart, you would run somewhere, confess your sins, live for God with what little bit of life that you have left. It's not my nature to warn anyone, but to be your age and still sinning, it's becoming a bit ridiculous. Don't get me wrong, I still hate you... It's just that you'd make a better fool for Christ.

Your partner in crime,
SATAN

This semester has been a trying period for me, but indeed, it is through all these obstacles and storms that God moulds our character, and thru all these that God's greatness, mercy and His faithfulness become really evident..

This semester seemed especially tough, but somehow or other, managed to maintain the kind of results that i've always wanted. Praise God for that...

my lab report was actually handed over to program chair cos of plagiarism, felt lousy to the max when i knew about this, cos i felt i've let external factors affect my focus on work, handed in sloppishly, did not bother to take a 2nd look at it and stuffs..... plus i had other problems which really brought my morale and self-esteem down to the lowest point.....i thought to myself, oh great...plagiarism for the unit that's gonna be a pre-requisite to all other units that i wld be taking next semester....im gonna fail and stuffs......then i really felt terrible at that point, cos i seem to fail at almost all aspects of my life... but then after all these negatives thoughts, i began to pray, and submit all to God, if all these should happen and that I would really fail, I'll humble myself to accept the failure, and continue to work harder, for by faith, everything would fall in place as long as I seek Him, cos i believe He promises rain in the desert for those who seek Him with all their hearts.. James 1:2 Consider it all joy when you encounter various trials knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance, and let endurance has it's perfect result, that you may become perfect and complete, lacking in nothing. I WILL continue to hav faith in Him, for He is greater than any problems that I'll ever meet...If God is able to bring me to a situation, He'll definitely see me through it.... and He'll never let me bear more than i can take.. all those that i've been through, i believe are just setbacks, and NOT failures...and I'll learn to persevere to the end.

.....i went to see the program chair, and thank God....she actually said i did quite a good job with my lab report, jus a few details i had to take note and be careful about...did not penalise me nor asked me redo my assignment, even gave me distinction for it.....felt so super thankful and relieved.

but well, not a time to be complacent, for what's considered excellence yesterday, wld jus be mediocre tomorrow.. and I pray that I'll continue to hav a humble heart and look to Him always, in ALL situations...continue to pray for faith to reach a new and higher level...

He is the alpha and the omega, the author of my life and destiny, He has seen it all and He says ALL things happened for the good of those who love Him.

Just as He promised,

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

When I Say..."I am a Christian"

When I say..."I am a Christian"

I'm not shouting "I am saved"

I'm whispering "I get lost!"

"That is why I chose this way."

When I say..."I am a Christian"

I don't speak of this with pride.

I'm confessing that I stumble

and need someone to be my guide.

When I say..."I am a Christian"

I'm not trying to be strong.

I'm professing that I'm weak

and pray for strength to carry on.

When I say..."I am a Christian"

I'm not bragging of success.

I'm admitting I have failed

and cannot ever pay the debt.

When I say..."I am a Christian"

I'm not claiming to be perfect,

my flaws are too visible but

God believes I'm worth it.

When I say..."I am a Christian"

I still feel the sting of pain

I have my share of heartaches

which is why I seek His name.

When I say..."I am a Christian"

I do not wish to judge.

I have no authority.

I only know I'm loved.

Poem from my angel

My angel gave me this lil poem, printed nicely on a cute lil piece of paper. haa.
I've been blessed, so that I could bless others......sharing it with u guys now. =p

I wrote your name on sand, it got washed

I wrote your name in air, it was blown away, then

I wrote your name on my heart and I got heart attack.

God saw me hungry, he created pizza

He saw me thirsty, He created pepsi

He saw me in the dark, He created light

He saw me without problems, He created YOU.

Twinkle twinkle little star

You should know what you are

And once you know what you are

Mental hospital is not so far.

The rain makes all things beautiful, the grass and flowers too

If rain makes all things beautiful. why doesn't it rain on you?

Roses are red, violets are blue

Monkeys like you should be kept in zoo

Don't feel so angry you will find me there too

Not in the cage but laughing at you.

When your life is in the darkness,

pray to God ask Him to free you from darkness

And if after you pray and you are still in darkness,

please pay your ELECTRICITY BILL!

breakthrough

ok, well i dunno if this cld be considered as a breakthrough in mindset, but well I guess, its really by God's grace....I've finally sort out my thoughts.

Friday's combined cell was good, enjoyed the worship, fellowshipping, the food...and most of all feeling God's presence...
During worship, could really feel God speaking right into my heart, and i couldnt help it but jus break into tears...submitting to Him all that was in my heart and mind at that moment...the thoughts that had been plaguing my mind and issues that i jus couldnt find answers to.....

realised that, i guess, its not so much abt how i feel..whether how insensitive ppl are when dealing with problems or how im wrongly pressurized...but rather, God may be dealing with me in the area of submitting to authority...I guess all things happen for a reason, and watever it is, I should do wat is right on my part, to submit and allow God to come in, and that I should have faith that He would set things right eventually. Jesus was wrongly accused yet without even justifying for himself, He submitted to the roman ruler...

suddenly just felt ashamed for realising all these so late...but better late than never. I pray to be a renewed person in the Lord..put the past behind me, and i jus so want to declare again that Jesus Christ, is my Lord and saviour...Father, I love You, and all the people that You have put across my path...thank you Father for everything...

Drifted apart..drift away

tired, wish i could jus breakaway from everything in this world..

human relations are so complex, dun understand at all.

if only my tiredness could stop the hurt from creeping in..

忘记是暂时的，回忆是永远的...

Video Games

Got a lil bored, and was playing these sega games Deb burned for me on a disc...pretty cool. haa..was quite excited when she passed it to me tat day..was playing Sonic the hedgehog...its beens ages since i last had my hands on that game. but the thing is im a lil dumb when playing with keyboard~~ performed much better with a controller.....quite inclined to get one now. haa..but i guess better not. lol...after exams..maybe i'll get one...the disc oso had games like street fighter 2 and errr..contra hard corps! keke..old games, but yea i likeeeeeeee.

Anyway its staggering how much progress video games have made even in my short life...When i was a kid (real young..not tt im old now), Nintendo Entertainment system was it as far as video games went for years b4 super nintendo came out. Now, though..it seems like every two years they've doubled wat they can do and made the last model handheld. excitingggg yea. heh..

getting it off my chest

as i lay on my bed, thinking abt some stuffs....cant help but to pop rite out...and write this.

I NEED TO HAVE MY STAND, to keep myself from gg insane. hearing ppl's views, and what they felt is best for me....all those crap. i cant sway to and fro forever, trying to adjust my thinking to yours, or even force myself to agree with your ways of thinking....i shld noe wats best for me, cos onli i noe wats gg thru my mind. making myself insane from ppl chipping in their views or trying to meddle with my life when they even hardly know me indepth...this in itself....is crazy. no offence to my fellow cell member/pastor in sg, but i have my own stand. forcing me to face a situation at YOUR timing, when im up at my neck with loads of work to do, i cant get my head round to not thinking that u guys are being totally insensitive. at least wait till im back in sg, when it wun affect my sch work, but no...u think it isnt a point to consider at all. nmind....wat pisses me off is gg straight to 'trying to handle MY problem' when YOU dun even noe wats really going on or even try to talk to me about it first..... at least if u wanna handle this issue, show some respect by having a talk with me face to face 1st.......rather than an email and a few sms......gosh. -_-"

im not even saying i'll walk back to wat i use to be, or i wanna avoid this issue forever...but well...nvmind. guess it doesnt matter as much anymore.


ok, i've said my piece...got it off my chest. gdnite

finally, feeling better

*stretches
jus bathed..feeling fresh...actually, felt good on the whole today. peiling had ice-cream craving jus now, den together with jos, we drove to baskin robbins...had a cone each. chatted for awhile on stuffs...catch up a lil...altho the 'session' wasnt long..but it felt good. jos was ever so bubbly n cheery, den with peiling's laughter which i felt was quite infectious....i jus sort of think to myself all these really made a living world. thank God for these frens... *hugs* love ya all. altho i did not talk much, but still enjoyed this short drive out. sort of a lil treat after cooping up at home for so long...

ooh anyway...as im typing now, my dear 'frenly housemates' are slamming the doors again...without fail everynite. unless of cos they're out....but they'll do it once they get back from their outings.... its been like...few months since the ugly episode we had, but din noe they cld persist so well in all these stuffs.......i mean...couldnt they jus get a life..n MOVE ON...
actually i don't get all worked up anymore when they do all these silly stints....but rather from a third person point of view, i jus felt amused at how they cld grip on so tightly to all these...as if they really have nothing much better to do.... jus few days ago, they had the alarm clock sounding after all of them happily left by the front door, and i was stucked at home hearing the 'ringgggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg'....anyway jus had to pop over to peiling's place for awhile to refrain myself from getting nitemares associated with alarm clocks ringing.

but well, through this....seemed to have toned down my temper by alot already...in a sense...gotta thank them, or rather, thank God for having use this to teach me how to handle matters in a level headed manner in future. have always been very direct and also not very good at handling situations.....and i hope i've learnt to cope better now.

oh and before ending, chatted with weiying jus now, she told me abt this new internet time thing...i dunno if its exactly new...or im jus a swakoo now....haa..thot it was quite cool maybe u guys wanna check it out. i jus glanced thru...and saw lots of err....stuffs...but in the end, i onli grapsed the part abt 1 day having 1000 beats..... lol.... url's below. check it out if ur bored....haa =p

gg to rest now....tmr's gg to be a brand new day~! keep myself fresh to study for exams. =D

http://www.timeanddate.com/time/internettime.html

today i got back my 4000 word drugs essay...and miraculously got a D for it...thank God.....

did my last presentation today for this semester, handed in all my assignments already...so its time to really start going all out for exams preparation.

time to have a break from all those issues that are plaguing my mind....

FOCUS!

im doin this for YOUR own good...

how many times hav we heard ppl say...im doin tis for ur own good...they're doin tis for ur own good....we're doin this for ur own good...blah blah blah........

and how many times does it really sink into us at that point of time? or rather, at the end of it....will i/we really feel..."yeapz, it was true..they did it for my/our own good....?"

in due time...will i really feel...it was for my own good? or was it jus some ppl trying to meddle with my life, giving their 2 cents worth of thots without really looking into the problem.......n jus leaving me to figure out the rest by myself...

i wonder....

anyway, seem to hav lost myself and my own stand on lots of things, seemed to have lost any sense of discernment....dunno wats wrong or right anymore. hope to find myself back soon.

Say Cheese

okz, as expected.....aunty pei flew my kite, had to drive to fcc myself....but that isnt the bad part.....the thing is i got caught on the speeed camera...darn!! was driving at 100kph at south street......speed limit was 70kph....but aiya....such a big & wide road with no cars infront...dunno how to stay at 70..... -_-" argghz!!! there i was driving on a bright sunny sunday morning, and suddenly....i saw this even brighter flash......darn...to the max. thot it was already a lil rainy in my heart....den still gotta meet with tis kinda thing...little drizzle became huge downpour..

I hope they run out of films.....got flash no negatives. there goes my err....100 or 200 bucks...? blah..........

anyway..as always..God is good. Ps Benny preached today...and the message spoke right into my heart...dun think i wanna go into details....but thot i wanna share this..
written by Thomas Carlisle:

And Jonah stalked to his shaded rest

And Waited for God

to come and to his way of thinking.

God is still waiting for a whole host of Jonah's

in their comfortable homes

to come and to his way of loving.

okz, im gg to start studying soon.

Barry Manilow....anyone?

went to blue duck at cotttlesloe to celebrate Stef's birthday today...sort of a 2nd Japonica+slater court's outing..haa.....anyway been a long time since i last went out and hang ard with frens i guess. quite nice a place..dining with seaview. tho its already dark jus now...guess it wld be really cool during the day/sunset...ate some lamb with cous cous thingy.....food was ok.

was supposed to go Keith's place toge with peiling..jos and gang...but then got back home, suddenly my heart felt heavy again, so in the end...flew their kite *ops...sorry aunty pei. u gotta be there amongst all the couples urself. haa.....and i hope u dun fly my kite tmr horr...gotta go fcc and err...study toge aft tt.

cldnt bring myself to go out la..suddenly jus felt like doin nothing and be sitting at the beach now instead...i guess i shldnt be and i really shld not, but still felt like reminiscing the times we've spent toge.....

okz, suddenly in the mood for barry manilow...

"You know I can't smile without you...

can't smile without you...

I can't laugh and I can't sing..

Im finding it hard to do anything.

You see i feel sad when you're sad

Feel glad when you're glad..

If you only knew wat im going thru..

I just cant smile wihout you..

You came along just like a song and brighten my day

who would have believe that you were part of a dream

now it all seems light years away......"

even if i smiled or laughed now...it still seemed sort of hollow within me..cant seem to feel real joy or laughter anymore.........and i ask myself, when is all these going to end......and i still 'don't appreciate' and i guess never will....for your decision to handle matters in such a way......

neither will i understand why the so called 'mum & sister'....wld be so insensitive to my situation now.....

Who Am I

Who am I?

That the Lord of all the earth,

Would care to know my name,

Would care to feel my hurt,

Who am I?

That the Bright and Morning Star,

Would choose to light the way,

For my ever wandering heart,

Not because of who I am,

But because of what You've done,

Not because of what I've done,

But because of who You are,

I am a flower quickly fading,

Here today and gone tomorrow,

A wave tossed in the ocean,

A vapor in the wind,

Still You hear me when I'm calling,

Lord, You catch me when I'm falling,

And You've told me who I am..

I am Yours.

Who am I?

That the eyes that see my sin,

Would look on me with love,

and watch me rise again,

Who am I?

That the voice that calmed the sea,

Would call out through the rain,

And calm the storm in me,

Not because of who I am,

But because of what You've done,

Not because of what I've done,

But because of who You are, Lord,

You catch me when I'm falling,

And You've told me who I am...

I am Yours,

I am Yours.

I am Yours,

Whom shall I fear?

Whom shall I fear?

'Cause I am Yours, I am Yours.

2nd last day

oh okiz, think i shld start blogging proper. haa. my mum's in perth for like almost 3 weeks, she's gg back tmr (we nearly thot it was today..thank God i checked..blur mum..haa..anyway i love my mum lots~!! hee..)....and i looked at the weather report....oh crap, its gg to be a stormy weather tmr...duhz. Perth airport....sorta sucks big time..or am i too spoilt jus by being a singaporean? no shelter for dropping off...gotta pay Aud$3 jus for the trolley....blah blah.....wats with the airport tax man....cant they at least hav sheltered carpark or walkways.....hmm..am i the only one complaining abt this......haa -_-"

tried to bring my mum to hyatt's buffet for a few times, but always did not had the time/chance...tis aft noon thot it'll be good, cos i handed in my lab report n stuffs alrady...but i called in ...it was fully booked. oh well..tough luck...next time den. in the end, went sunday everyday for lunch (ooh i met Joshua there...haa)..i ate teriyaki chicken...mum had teriyaki fish...haa..and we shared smoked salmon sushi. yea the serving was huge...n being the typical singaporean tat i was...dun wanna waste oso mah, so dabao left over home. haa...

came back..slacked the whole day....watch holland village vcd with her....den went winthrop did some groceries with aunty pei...realised been a loooong time since i last saw her, altho she lives jus next to me....i shld start stepping outta my room more i guess..haa... anyway came back...watch somemore vcds with mum.....lol...wat a day..super slack. but i guess gotta take a breather let my mind rest for awhile after all those assignments, and err.....those 'nitemare episodes' i had......have....actuallie...having......still having.....

really dun feel like taking back my essay n lab report...cant imagine wat kinda results i wld get...tis is my worst ever semester(even tho its jus my third)........arghz...can jus hope for the best now~ and try my best for the exams..i guess...

i've always had high expectations of myself n my studies since i 1st came to perth...but then...lost focus somewhere..somehow...~ and i really must pull myself toge...back...fast~ Lord pls help me!

anyway after my mum leave for sg tmr, gonna start studying hard already...I MUST! i gotta!

ooh yea...today my fren suggested i shld keep a journal, recording wat i've learnt for the day..wat God spoke to me abt...wat i've prayed abt...and which request was answered by God n sutffs.....guess...i shld try huh....Men tend to be forgetful, and sometimes we jus forget how God had been faithful to us...anyway even when we're faithless...He is always faithful.. during pri/sec sch..i jus hated it when teachers ask us to keep journals/diaries.....but okz...for my sweet sweet Daddy...I'll try...haa....at least I'll start one.....haa..and I pray tat He convicts me to keep it up. =)

realised these days....tat i shld not wait for Him to draw near to us...but rather seek Him more with a willing and eager heart...this is wat I pray for now....

okz dokz....tats all for now...haa...maybe when im bored tonite, i'll write more. gg to conc watching vcd with mama now. =p