The language of (Flowers) Colours

Blue: A unique colour for flowers. It represents tranquillity, depth, harmony, loyalty, security, and wealth.

Pink: Signifies fresh beginnings, friendship, sweetness of youth and maturity. Pale pinks suggest femininity, while bright pinks stand for friendship and romance.

Purple: Often used to denote royalty, power, wisdom, luxury, and evokes feelings of romance and nostalgia.

Red: The colour of love, desire, passion, fun, pulse-quickening excitement, and a traditional gesture of romance.

Yellow: Signifies joy, hope, happiness, wealth, prestige and is a symbol of courage and friendship.

White: Shows innocence, truth in love, purity, elegance, simplicity, cleanliness, and signifies respect.

(*source: sentosa flowers' official website)

though im very much a nature person, and i try my best to get close and in touch with nature, i never thought i was the flower-flower kind of person.. but its getting harder to resist eh...in love with flowers now. :D a different colour to represent differing moods each day? :) so which is your colour today...? heh :p

last but not least, not to forget.. the 2 most beautiful flowers amidst 'Sentosa Flowers 2009'!
wahahaha~ beautiful start to a beautiful year ahead.

awesomefriend ♥ awesomefun ♥

absolutedarling !! :D

- The End -

i think these 2 look like faces ! damn cooL horrr!? keke.. the left one looks like an old ahma laughing happily, the right one...looks like a.. weird..hmm....sthg laughing. lOL. wat say u say me~~!? heh...wah alot of photos, took abt 300 pictures today ! heh~ fun fun fun~ macro is fun ! flowers are nice ! photography is waycoooool~ though weather was fantastic today...im rather charred now~ hokay..can't possibly blog all photos at a shot..i'll slowly review them...and probably post in dA, or upload onto FB~ heh...must have another photography outing soooN~ yeah its gonna be like a weekly, or at least a monthly affair ! pssst..i think my eye muscle cramping soon..

*sings we're going to the zoo zoo zoooOo....how abt u u uuu ~

fun fun fun !!

totally obsessed with flowers and bees today !!

:(((

at least one photo a day...haaha. hokay...heres one for today. raw, unedited...and fresh. i meant the wound. loL.. boo.

...shag shag shaggg...... i wish im botak now. tsk.....i refuse to blow dry my hair...zz.......i dunno if its cos im super tired now, or i jus feel weird after the mintchocchip ice-cream. evil. i meant the one who forced me into eating, not the ice-cream. haha.

today show tak-glam photos 1st.....i promise tmr's photo(s), will defintely be nicer. muchhhhh nicerrr. keke... rather excited.

ahh.........i dun care..ima plomp onto my bed now.

can't do without.

I've decided to embark on a miniproject. that is, to take at least one photo each day. to maintain a keen eye on my surroundings, people, to sharpen my photographic eye, be aware and to pay attention to details..hmm, yaaa right.. loL. wadever ler..haaha. basically just to experience the thrill of recording an image- one that conveys the essence of a significant moment, an idea, the beauty of a sighting, or to offer a different perspective on seemingly mundane stuffs. few years ago, i had a section in my blog entitled 'photo of the day'..then it turned into 'photo of the week'...and then we all know what happened after. haha. so im not gonna start that section again.. but i just feel TAKING PICTURES IS IMPORTANT. It's good! It's LIFE. hmm nobody really likes to have their picture taken (actuallie i like to take tak-glam photos for reasons im unsure of. maybe cos, its fun, its real, its just ME- tak glam loh. hahaa..stop nodding ur heads in agreement! ur not supposed to agree with me here! *rawrr) when they don't look perfect, but it's impt to take, becos pictures should represent the everyday life - not only the days when everyone is showered and wearing their best, or feeling tops. Sometimes life is hard, and sad, and scary. and, when our loved ones aren't with us anymore, it's the everday that we miss the most.. and anyway, its been said, a picture speaks more than a thousand words right..

or it cld jus be that im in a triggerhappy and photoshopping mood lately. after saying so much...abit luan qi ba zhao...my thoughts here and there, dunno what im trying to say.. thats why- more pictures, less words.

captivity or freedom ?

(mis) communication

nonverbal communication has been seriously underappreciated.

if human communication consisted merely of translating sentences and syntax into thoughts and ideas, there would be no room for miscommunication. it does not, therefore, there is. yet people still routinely overestimate how well they can communicate over e-modes.

a l o h a 牛 year !

a little quote of hope and optimism to cross us into the New Lunar Year.. (:

"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending"

the next 2 weeks or so, will be fraught with lotsa uncertainties. when i say lots..i really do mean ALOT. on the bright side though, it is during these times that characters get moulded and strengthened. be it in season, or off season.. i shall prepare myself well ! :D

peace out ! //whereby PEACE does not equate to being in a place where there is no noise, trials, distress, pain or hardwork. It means being in that place, but with calmness in heart...

....so PEACE OUT ALL !

Obvious changes to my blog ! FINALLY! i've been wanting to change the blog banner since eons ago. and i decided i shall not procrastinate past the year. New year, new look ! heheh..~ okay.. lemme hao lian abit~ i quite artistic hor, wahaha, i think for 1st try, its really very the not bad. lOL.. heh..and btw, all the photos inside are taken by yours truly okays, heh..two of which were taken in Costa Rica, three in Perth..and another one's my sweetie Chiqui~ hehe. no plagiarising of any sorts :p photoshopping is super fun ! but i only know tip of the ice-berg..too many spiffy functions..i've yet to figure them out yet. O_o

okay, jus dropped by to haolian and make some noise niah :p

post edit:

and to mark the day i finally changed my blog banner, heres a mini quote on why ilovelife (:

"we love life, not because we are used to living but because we are used to loving"

新年快乐 ！！

全家福！幸福！

all ready to..

除旧迎新 !

i jus knew it..difficult to get into sleeping mode after bathing. altho thankfully, can still feel my eyelids abiiit heavy la. so i'll jus mini blog.

anyway, lately i saw some rather disturbing photos laR.. which reminded me of my past. haha. yah...a rather disturbing past. hmm nope nothing funny abt that (random tidbits: Fifty percent of what people say when they are joking is true, which means, we're just too afraid to admit it. So, by making some sort of joke about it, you get to say what you really want without being vulnerable..)

and yah..thankfully i grew out of that phase...that...i dunno wat u'll call it..dark ages would probably be apt enuf..haa..zz.. but it saddens to see my peers still doing the same stuffs... i dun exactly know how i grew outta it. maybe it was when i put more thoughts, and started to care about how my loved ones wld feel..n stuffs. when i started to put my loved ones above my own needs, indulgence, foolishness in escapism.. probably tired of running away..realised that running away is such an irresponsible act..tired of running ard in circles. i dunno. maybe an interplay of all those factors. i dunno how i snapped outta it... altho im not like perfect perfect now... but im thankful at least i think i've matured in those aspects. i noe wat i need to do, i hav a focus..i hav priorities... and im not regretting that detour i made la.. it wasnt exactly time wasted, cos i know i've learnt alot, i've learnt things that people wldnt hav if they din tread that path.. and those experiences moulded me into wat i am now. SORREH if u dun like me, but i happen to like myself quite alot now. haha. and i feel secure enough that i hav a few true frens who appreciate me. lOL~ right!? *glares.. anyway... no, my point now is... no one was able to snap me out of that phase at that point in time..i had to process and review my own life...and somehow someday convicted myself to snap out of it.. so other than feeling upset that some of my peers are still living that kind of life...i dunno how to help/approach them/talk sense into them... and i think the crux is.. they dun think they need help bah.. just like how i felt, "i know wat i was doing at that point in time..." so ehmz...... i dunno leh. wats the point of this post... haa.. dunno la..nvmind... just slightly disturbed. not a big deal i guess....cos maybe, sadly (or not)..inevitably...we're not that close anymore la... *shrugs*

SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEPYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY !!

veryyy fullllllll !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



i still need to batheeee !!!



tmr travlling to tampines !!!!!!!!



Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!




HAHA~ ok... 疯完了


goo nigh :p

psst......very brainless post of late huh. haha. wadever laR! somethings i just dun feel like sharing or penning down anymore. maybe not yet la. wahpiang..my eyes wanna close liow...good thing. havent been sleeping too well past few nights ! boo!

red alert.

the freaking..i dunno what authorities, placed a restriction/regulation on my mum's medication. and now without that medicine, she cant sleep as well (not that she slept like a baby before this).. so we all know what happens when one can't sleep well for a prolonged period of time right... sighs. though not as bad as the other time yet, but her temper and mood's starting to get pretty unpredictable. ......not that im upset with her or anything.



ahhh !! 为什没 !!

....ahh.........haiz... 真是的. sian

finally met up with my weirdest best friend. its been quite awhile. was a good time of catching up over dinner. we havent met for the longest period, but everytime we meet... its jus solid time together. no distance, no pretense..no politically correct answers..no shoulds or shouldnts...theres jus an implicit understanding between us. i like it this way..maybe cos to me, its jus not tiring cos i dun hafta guess watevers in that person's mind. i know for sure i get damn honest, straightforward, 'in your face' answers...haa, albeit always sensible and down-to-earth. :) anyway out of respect for this fren..i shall not write too much here..haa.

i wonder if its the weather..i dunno wats with today. i feel tired since the moment i woke up. haha.. O_o dunno la...im gg to sleep soon.. tmr shld be quite interesting.. interview at ttsh, followed by 团圆饭 with the states trip gang. this is one hilarious grp that im thankful to have known this past year.. spices up life a lil.

arrhhh..wth..i feel damn grumpyy today. hokay. i need to sleep.

天亮了

昨晚，真的很痛。 幸亏忍过了。。

today machiam im like taitai...lOL. first thing i had aft i woke up:


is this a mini preview of my life when i get older/ after i get married !? HAHAHA :p


anyhoos,wish me luck for the interview later ! :)

just cos im feeling tired, sleepy and distracted. haha. heres a totally random entry before i continue with what i need to do. zzz. my first few tries at panning~ !! with a lil success ay.. heh... taken today with my Canon G10 !! yeah baby~ loveloveloveeee my G10 (:

keep trying. keep practicing. i'll master this technique, soon. hehe :p

la siesta

or


c o f f e e ♥

again ?

woahhhhhhh shiok !

ran in the morning, went swimming late afternoon. and im jus back from ECP- night blading !! shiok~ but darn...tripped over a mini fruit, and fell hard on my left butt cheek~ ouchh~ then my palms got abit of abrasion :( heh.. no biggie~ Jing's a warrior ! rawr ! haha.. zi lang zi bai ~ LOL...gam zeng buay sua~ ooh and my new off-peak (pig) hour friend taught me how to brake today. muaha...learnt sthg new~ i can finally super mini brake (need to practice more la) now~ i've been blading without knowing how to brake ! im a super duper road hazard. hahaa. night blading really quite shiok.. very windy, less obstacles, and no irritating sun~ heh.. surprisingly...thurs night ecp also quite alot of ppl~ so nice staying east side hor~ keke..

wah but now, really feeling the strain liow~ i can imagine later when i lie on my bed..that shiok shiok feeling. haha....okay poks..

Fit kia AI ZAI signing off for da night~ :p

always love the feeling of having caught a good film~ red cliff 2~ takeshi kaneshiro...need i say more, GO WATCH ! haha..i enjoyed that. check out the stunned face of caocao when his fleet went up in flames, 内心戏.. heheh.. ponyo was a lil draggy though, maybe cos i watched it at too late a timing~ owells~ but i love the graphics and animation~ heh.

lately, its been a l o t of working out, readings- both leisure and psych-related, and some baking~ must have brains and brawns right..haha, and must 进的了厨房，出得了厅堂! haha..not easy being a woman these days. lOL!

in other news, im into white lately~ not difficult to spot my new specs & new watch ! yippee yay! ooh i got the specs from monsoon optics at JP, got promo, quite cheap~ and the service also very the not bad~ got after sales service somemore, was quite stunned when i got a call from them asking if i had problems with the new specs...gotten used to it or not and stuff~ heh. not bad not bad. maybe cos biz damn competitive nowadays uh..customer servicing damn impt. i'd def wanna go back to that shop again. BUT, my uncle opens a spec shop also la..haha. must support my own uncle. keke...lemme know if any of u wanna make new specs, transition lens, contact lens...etc, muahah, sure cheaper rates than elsewhere !! confirm guarantee plus chop ah ! really!

nopes, im not a misunderstood child~ HAHA

p.s. been eating alot more after workouts again~ double sighs. haha. better watch diet~ ! btw, the fish&chips at superdog vivo is yummeh so very!! their chips are just the way i love it~ heh. not that i hav much choices there, mostly beefy sausages n burgers~ ceh! according to not-very-reliable sources, the cheese fries + bratwurst sausages are DAMN GOOD ... haha~ bleahz.

okay~till my next post, stay healthy and happy~! heh :p

:)

nothing m u c h.

just. felt like. smiling.

from
t h e
bottom of
my
h e a r t !!

goodnight!

Love! (:

范逸臣 - 放生

muscle fatigue~ if im not out.. i make it a point to cycle or go to the gym every morning/evening. anyway, got my hands on G10 today~ woohoo~ battery fully charged, all ready ! haha. gonna test it tmr. yeah~ haiz, k la. tired. photos will do for now.. my beloved poly gang~ hilarious bunch. love them~haiz, some people missing~ not complete yet. maybe next one will be ! :)

"The wisdom of my dog is the product of his inability to conceal his wants. When he yearns to be loved, he put his head on my lap, wags his tail, and looks up at me with kind eyes, waiting to be petted." - Gerry Spence

post edit: i just had the BEST orh nee ever~ serious! wahha...come on, my orh nee (a.k.a. yam paste) lovin' kakis~ pick a sport (badminton, swim, run, ball game, gym)...sweat it out together, and i'll bring u to that lovely bowl of orhhh neeeeeeeee. muahaha~ :p

hokay, ima go cycle now, zhng a bike stand, and see wat else is zhng-a-ble... and then go swim ! *peeks out window* looks cloudy~ *prays no rain*

bubbye !

ooh iphone can actually detect my home's wireless while at poolside. how cool...
hokay.. mini cycled mini sweat mini blogged.. time to go homee. or should I mini swim too..the pool's calling out to me.. haa nyeah. zzz really caught the tiredy bug :p

choocheeyana !

15 (torturous) days - countdown !

stirred.

what to do, when you don't know what to do?
i've a sudden revelation....... hmm, and i need to think about what that means.

anyway..

disappointment- a very dangerous word uh? cos it makes one give up. and somehow, fear sets in when i feel disappointment...of any sorts. cos i don't like to give up. i don't succumb. i like to follow through what i've started out on.

and i think, thats a topic that's been very close to my heart for quite sometime now. cos i don't believe i've ever been so disappointed in anyone before. seriously, never. never before has trust on even the most superficial level been broken to this extent. additionally..in view of impending career change....i was led to think deeper abt this issue.

and while thinking about what i might be asked during interview, i was led back to the very questions on why i finally set my heart on this career, on what i think brings life, meaning and satisfaction- investing in people, in their growth. yet sometimes, i wonder if i actually make an impact, a positive impact on people at all. especially people whom i really love. sometimes i know i don't try hard enough, and i fail, and there are other times when i gave all my heart, but still fail... alot of things are really not within control. you might really do your best, yet if the person is not willing, or a non-believer...it is impossible to effect any change, or to facilitate any learning. so i turn the question back to myself..how do i handle my own anger, disappointments... when do i give up? and the crux is, do we just give up on someone? how much more to bother?

to facilitate learning, one has to be real. genuine. it stems from genuine love for the learner, the learner's well-being. it means being, not denying. it means being present to the learner. a caring for the learner, a non-possesive caring. acceptance of the individual as a seperate person. a belief that somehow the learner is fundamentally trustworthy. prizing of the learner as imperfect human beings with many feelings and many potentialities.

so how do i cope? how will i cope? where do i go from here?

as i sat myself down today, i had a mild feeling of inner excitement. i put my thoughts down as they occur. it doesnt really matter how anyone reading this will react to my thoughts. neverthless, at the same time, i feel as though u will accept them as mine regardless of the lack of clarity, style..or right expression. my real concern is to communicate with myself, so i might better understand myself. i guess..what im really saying is that im writing not for you, or to communicate any ideas to anyone, but for me. and i feel good about that at the moment.
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Character building 101//
lying: a vicious cycle, which can alienate the very people who are dear to you.

lying regardless of situation. finding a justification for each and every lie. ego and pride outweighing the bond between 2 individuals. hiding and bending the truth about issues large and small, and taking comfort in it. lying to feel safe, and fueled desire to lie more. keep lying to protect the last lie. making up stories to cover lies.constantly convincing yourself of things that are not true. lying becoming a way of life, a habit. failing to see how it eats you inside out. failing to see how people around gets hurt. difficulty in forming healthy relationships. failing to build, failing to re-build.

i dun deny an occasional white lie or two, is needed on the rare occasions. but telling the truth is foundational and essential, without which relationships will fall apart. simply put, deception is destructive.

i only have to let go, but its your life to live. i just want you to know, i love you more than you could imagine, and i still do. but I need to stop involving myself in your self-destructive behavior, the way u chose to communicate (if at all). i've long forgiven, before u've even thought about apologising. yet, forgiveness does not equate to being able to trust again. at least not immediately. or rather, whether there's sincerity and effort in re-building the trust. or whether you feel there's any point at all in trying to re-build the trust that u've broken and taken granted for. i dun care even if u dun care a damn, whatever it is, i hope u'll come to realise the preciousness and importance of sincerity and honesty, to yourself and to people who cares.

i choose not to hear, not to see.. but to feel, and believe. love u, and all the best.

i will not be defeated (by myself)- forever shall allow truth to soar through me.

Dear God, please help me live a life of love. i want to love, just as you do. im touched, and forever amazed by your awesomeness.

do guys ever growup? came across some retards at JP just now. i had to topup cashcard before leaving, then had some problems with my atm card...so asked the guy behind me to go ahead first. well he did gentlemanly-ish asked if i had problems with my card...and offered to help. and obviously i was thankful... so while i was digging $10 out, and while he was helping me with the topup, his retarded friends were giggling and teasing behind us...and one or two of them started snapping pictures of us using their hp. seriously...zzz... maybe some noise and teasing i can understand la...guys. *rolls eye* zz. but openly snapping photos~!?!? wahliews... watsup man, watsupppp. thankfully they're quite good looking la...if they're ugly and rude..that'll make it worse. HAHa....wadever it is...still rudeee la~~kns.

but wohh..JP is hugeeeeeeeee now uh. i went up the travellator, walked in...then saw this massive row of restaurants and the massive s a t u r d a y crowd... tio stunned for abit. heh.. ooOh wanna bring my mum go walk walk abit...keke, most prob on a weekday. not with the crazy weekend crowd~ O_o

ok la...fa lao sao finish, and done acting like a swakoo liow. ate at the lailai chinese place jus now...the herbal paiku udon and green bean freeze not bad. keke...too bad i dun eat beeef~ so no comments~ happily finishing a bowl of beef noodles for dinner after visiting the guanyin temple during noon time? lOL..*shakeshead shakeshead* HAHA.

meeting li-chan for dinner at JP this wednesday ! yays ! ....what should we haveeeeeee...eee neee meee neee mo neeeeeee maaaaaa !

reviewing 2008- embracing 2009.

o boy..im friggin' tired now. i thought since my arms are aching...why not go cycle. haa... so off i went on my trek. wonder how much distance i covered jus now....wonder how long it'll take to cover 40km on a bike uh.... hmm. anyway im rather psyched abt the ocbc cycle..wonder what the jersey looks like. hee..

tonight is one of those nights. rather tired and sleepy now, but i just dun wanna tuck into bed. spent some time alone outside, enjoying the quiet night, the occasional breeze, music from my iphone, and the joy of finding peace in my heart. winding down, flashes of 2008 came to mind. Take a step back, relook, review and question. what's all these buzz about in my life? its certainly all about love. tonight, im overwhelmed with love, and i feel strangely secure and happy alone. maybe cos im feeling rich in my spirit. maybe cos i feel content. maybe cos i've learnt and am embracing and cherishing what i have. maybe cos i have forgiveness in my heart. maybe just maybe. 2008 had been a fast year, i've lost some, but gained so much more. life, whether we like it or not, is pretty messy and stuffed up at times, and it seems any attempts to simplify it can be rather frustrating. the shades of grey challenges the black and white approaches. on the other hand, life can be really colourful too. full of warmth, passion, zest, and hope. the sky's the limit. the point is i guess, not to get deluded at the extremes..learning to strike a balance, which requires alot of wisdom, and awareness of self and the people around you. being true to oneself, and getting reminded that happiness is not something one can achieve alone. mind's rather saturated. feeling apprehensive yet hopeful, excited and liberated when i think about what 2009 will bring.

there are certainly a few areas where i wanna better myself in the year 2009. and i'll work towards the targets that i've set for myself. i wanna live fruitfully and meaningfully, with hope and, bringing hope :)

with doubt i seek, with courage i believe...i believe and therefore speak.

*contemplative

baking spree !

see the choc oozing out from centre? HAHA..i baked 2 la..actually its the same recipe...but forgot to add boiling water the first try... although both came out decent. no butter needed, so its a low fat choc cake? heh...*shrugs... anyway cakes arent meant to be low fat la~ loL~ not shiok enuf. so wats bakin' next? hmmm..heh..

wahpiang, im old..liow. still aching from the badminton session. but feel quite shiok. anyway.. photos from new year's eve are up on FB. lazy upload to here again..haa. and im pretty upset my compact camera does not hav manual settings...sighs. check this baby out. heee *whistles*

2nd jan le~....hmm..quite abit of stuff to prepare uh...next week's gonna be pretty busy. *fingers and toes crossed* hope all goes well~ ! gonna enjoy this weekend before work starts !

smiley fries and smiley Jing ~

who has a brighter smile? HAHA okay~ stay smiley and sunshiny!

have a great weekend all ! :D

*sings fly to the moon and the sun, and lets go have some fun...its one two threee, my love is plain to seee............ lalala! K-TIME!

Happy new year all~! :D

wohh, its 7am.. and i don't really wanna go to sleep at this timing. went badminton on the last evening of 2008~ coool right! heh...getting old, wld prefer to spend time with close friends, AWAY from the crowd. after sweating it out for 2hrs, we went essential brews for supper and drinks.. and played like wat, no less than 30 rounds of Saboteur?....i cant believe im the miner for ALL the games loH! wat are the odds man....!? continued the games at those empty tables in HV food centre after EB closed, and finally got to be sabotuer during our last game...haa. but we lost. tsk. i suck at the game! i cant act. i cant contain a smile, can't hide the smirk on my face...gaH~ i jus gave it all away. haaha. need to learn a trick or two from the Queen. loL...u are damn powerrrr loH, very s c h e m i n g indeed! heh... then it seems we havent had enuf for the night.. so trooped down beauty world and had mac breakfast~ 1st meal of 2009 - BIG breakfast! haha. fuel myself for an exciting 2009! heh~ ....then we just laughed and crapped the whole morning away.. in my view, think that was a fun-filled, cosy and relaxing night....wat better way to spend this day with besties who've been there during the good and bad times with you throughout the year? :)

whichever way you chose to spend it though, i hope each of you had fun! crossing into the new year does not mean instantaneously cutting away what has happened in the year b4, but i think its always good (and essential) to spend some time reflecting the good and the bad that has happened, and more imptly, to gain insights, grow and learn.. hope we're all geared up to take on and face both old and new challenges.

haa.. think im kinda going into hibernation mode liow. cant think, cant write properly. tired to proof read what i wrote also..loL..excuse me if there're any typo errors.. Anyway, HAPPY NEW YEAR again all~! Have a good rest today~ chill ! im gonna ehmz......stop now. haha... ok la..i'll write more again when i hav enough rest...shun bian post up photos.