just a quick one!

Thank God!! thank God muchos muchos~! if you guys still remember me whining about the worst ever assignment i've submitted (essay on measurements of happiness), i got it back today~! totally by God's grace, i've gotten 75 for it! omgosh... i was like quite disgusted with that peice of work, like rushed it out in 2 days. zzz.. i think thats just totally ..... hmm, i cant explain it. favor from God and men. i can't believe my eyes when i read the comments. "generally a competent essay...blah blah"...my mind's gg like.......huh...which part?!?! like seriously loh. anyway, im still in awe. God does wonders. Thank You Daddy!!

okay, no time to lose, shall not push my 'luck' further. heading off to li-chan's to mug for PSY411!

forward ho!!! minna ganbatte neh!

what i've learnt.

Peace is not the absence of distress/pain/trials, but, the presence of our Lord and King, Jesus Christ.

May we all learn to cast our eyes not on circumstances, but on the powerful God that we serve.

wonder what kinda impression people get when they visit my blog. even when i view my own site, i kinda feel theres that sense of......... "ohmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm" feeling (maybe its the color of the background, see, i hate blue...if it wouldnt blind my eyes everytime i try and read...i'll have red and orange and yellow everywhere). so anyway, yes yes...im certainly not in a tralala-ish mood of late. things have been happening, one after another, after another...after another.

but its okay. God's always good.
i am a surh-bi-bhor =) ...actually, no. im more than a survivor. haha...God always does exceeding, abundantly above all that we can ever ask for. so yesh...! im not jus gonna 'survive' my way through life...i will claim and live that victorious life He has promised, living a life that brings Him glory.

ermz.....so now, last essay to go. due this Friday. but diedie also must churn it out by tonight. Cos i realise....I've forgotten that I have a pilot study to do at UWA this Friday, and I'm totally unprepared! Yet to meet my supervisor to discuss about this too. I'm praying and hoping against hope she has time for me tmr.....zzz. Havent even prepared what questions to ask the kids...and blah n blah n blah....measurement issues, or no, what else ah..zzz.

so ermz, i've got 2 papers. honours seminar 2nd June, psych conceptual issues 11th June.
anyway from now till 11th june, its gonna be kinda insane. *takes deep breath*

im strangely....happy though. cos i've set my heart that work should, and will be the only focus now. all other issues that cannot be dealt with.....has to be put on hold. thank God for granting me strength. .. and discernment. i hope that comes from God actually..mm, if its not, then im probably a heartless brat. aha......zzzzzz. okay nevermind. most of you probably wouldnt have the slightest idea what im yakking about now anyway.. nevermind. i just need an outlet. even if its just to write..something..anything....at a time like this..yakking incoherently at a wall would even make me feel better.

i just need to do well, for this 2 papers... last 2 papers!! aahhh., oh man, really the last two units i'll be taking for my undergrad degree.

and oh yeah...i'll be heading back Singapore after my papers. so, hmm, catch up with u all again, soonish. =)

Thank You Lord, that I've found rest in the secure knowledge of Your constant love for me.

Indeed, Daddy's love extends beyond our comprehension. =)

Depositing some thoughts..

"You do not want to leave too, do you?" John 6:67

Came across that verse, and found that to be a really penetrating question..

Our Lord’s words often hit home for us when He speaks in the simplest way. In spite of the fact that we know who Jesus is, He asks, “Do you also want to go away?” .....

Daddy Daddy Daddy...May You help me continually maintain an adventurous attitude towards You... despite any potential risks... Help me walk with oneness in Jesus..Help me live a life of absolute dependence on You, that I may show no concern for the uncertainties that lie ahead.

The heart is torn and blood drips with every move ahead. Even though the pain is excruciating...But Daddy, i do not want to turn my back against You, i'm marching on forward, im pressing on. just so to picture a smile on Your face.

I confess and apologise for the fact that I do blame You at times... But Daddy, I know that if this situation grieves me..im sure it breaks Your heart even more..

Instead of asking what did i do to deserve all these pain and confusion... help me constantly remind and ask myself - What did I do to deserve what Jesus had done for me?

So..Lord, not just in favorable situations, but in all circumstances, help me be thankful.

We believe and know that you are the Holy One of God." John 6:69

I give you all glory, and I'll sing praises onto You always..due to Your awesome Name.

God Bless.

unity is pleasant, and precious. unfortunately unity does not really abound...at least i've failed to observe that. judgments passed, criticisms thrown around, assumptions after assumptions made, people disagree and cause divisions over the silliest issues, some take delight in gossips, in discrediting others...and what more.

Lord may You help me not be disheartened, that I may just set my sights on You. I pray O God for love, and trust and unity to abound.. May You help us love one another just as how You love us. Lord May You renew and revitalize us, that there may be less tensions less judments...May You help us live in such a way that our outward unity reflects our inward unity of purpose in You. Lord help live in such a way that Your presence in my life is seen by others. God may YOu use me, and help me be a blessing to someone today. Amen.

"Your Word is a light unto my path
Your Love guides me through my darkest night
And even though sometimes Your ways
I cannot understand
I’ll never walk away because my future’s
In Your hands
I don’t care what people will say
I’m running after You"
Planetshakers - Running after You

Thank You Lord. for being my Comforter, my Enough.

let the photos do da talkin'

MingHui's birthday! =)

swong, jia and me decided to have study camp at my place, but soon as jia reached my place..we headed straight to freo with ellie, debs, and pet. had yummy cakes, super duper strong coffee (trust me when i said its SUPER DUPER strong. had coffee there twice, and on both occasions, i didnt sleep the whole night!)..and a good time fellowshipping. see the bottom last 3 images of the collage..? yeah well..that was when we got back, and decided to continue studying. while i was bathing, these darlings decided to invade my pweety lil computer and leave me......weird messages (u can click and enlarge the photo to check out that msg). but i love them anyway. haha.

Desserts at Ginos.

After cell. lookie we have a cell library =) thanks to Gabs for his wonderful idea =) ...and effort in driving down to koorong.

1st on the collage, "superstar cell leader" (he calls himself that, even has a name card) Leon with his failed attempt at impersonating Ps Benny. Oh and im in Murdoch, not curtin. i love Murdoch by the way..haha the tshirt was just a gift from a friend. nice right, haha, i like the color thats all. loL.. red's my favourite color. haha. color for passion! =p

so anyway, credits for collage goes to swong king kong (SK2). im just too lazy to do that. but THEN....i just found out from her, that picasa does all the job. well done.......i've had it in my compt all along and i didnt knew it. previously was still using photoshop, trying n put them all together...zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..................

life will pass us by.

"Never will I be a fool and take my blessings for granted
I know God's been by my side
And everything's gonna be all right"

housemates.

this is ellie trying to wink her left eye

this is ellie trying to wink her right eye

so then we came to a somewhat obvious conclusion. ellie can't wink.

anyway..yes...this is ellie. ellie is my housemate. ellie is nice. ellie is funny. but ellie cant wink.

last friday, i had the most dysfunctional conversation in my entire life. and that lasted 5hours (1130pm-430am). with my 2 lovely housemates. the above was only a small part of what went on during the 5hours...they were trying desperately to un-normalise me (even though I AM already dysfunctional). it was fun, good bonding. but i ended up with an aching back cos i was laughing (almost) the whole 5hours in a very awkward position.

 

resulting also in a very sleepy me as i headed for a lunch date with shan and jean. haha. nonetheless, very very nice company =)

us.

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yay done with presentation and my essay. presentation went alright i guess, abit better than what i'd have expected. though i was quite disgusted with myself after churning out the 3000 word essay, felt that was one of the worst piece of assignment i've ever written. anyway quite funny how i was miserable trying to write an essay on happiness. owells. haha.

finally, had time to unwind. dinner at hans with li-chan and my 2 lovely housemates..food was ok. but company was excellent. hanging out with them was always good as usual. ;) oh ho..and dont forget our date this sat evening =p

so then had my 12hours of uninterrupted sleeeep. aha...wats left now is a good workout to make me feel like myself again.

This is really random. but then i was just looking through my journal just awhile ago, and saw some personal goals i set for myself since april 2005. hahah. not those..'i must lose 5kg' goals...but rather somethings that i wish to see myself change. To be more pleasing in God's eyes...might be quite small stuffs, some of which are, to stop swearing...more patience.. stop using pirated stuffs, even illegal downloads...(i see that as a submission to authority issue)....and to overcome a few others personal struggles (which im not gonna share here, but willing to if u ask me in person =p). so then...some of it (if not ALL) which i really struggled for a long long while.. like its so normal for me to blurt out "wahlau b***** h***............", or just explode into a string of really crude words when something/someone irritates me. it really took quite alot of prayers and conscious effort before i totally got rid of those words, and to practice more patience. haha.. hmm.

and obviously with the pirated stuff..its also about the, genuine softwares being insanely expensive and all. and hey im not rich leh. why get CDs when i can download free music. its all just a click away. but im constantly reminded that our God is a God who provides. if i don't have the resources to get what i need, i probably don't need it anyway.

quite alot more to share. but im really lazy about this blogging thing. haa.

anyway really thank God by His grace...now that its 2007, i think i've achieved all (almost?) that i wanted to since the time i set my goals. it was really a process of constantly renewing my faith and trust in Him, that He will provide and bless as long as we base our actions on His Word.. that I want to be more like Christ (im not saying i know how..but i guess just to put into actions what God has impressed on my heart).

and to think of it..its not just 'solo' effort. give God all the glory, for without Him im defintely not able to achieve those goals no matter how small they were. but its really the people that He sent to constantly encourage me. how they silently go about being faithful in the things they do, their sharings..most importantly the strength of their decisions based on what is right in God's sight.

hmm..hehe..*waves to mirabel and stella* my 2 dearest sisters in fcbc who has encouraged me so much. love u both dearlyyyyyy *huggz.

thank God so much for all the precious friends around me~ *waves to jean* you've been awesome..and im glad we've gotten closer since camp~ whooopee doo.

haha..eh alot la....and not forgetting my dear tps for always checking in on me.

if u dun see ur name here...its just cos im lazy really. but all of you are dearly cherished and loved. =p