another escapade, underway..

"i think a 3 days in HCM, 2 days Hue, 2 days Hoi An, 3 days Hanoi, 2 days Halong bay is good!"

but, i'd rather do a place more indepth, rather than 'touch and go'. im more of the take my time and appreciate the scenery, the people, the culture and the feel of the place kind of person leh. especially when it comes to photography, cannot rush! and also, this time round.. i really do wanna catch a breather. sloooooooooooow down mate !! but hmm, all's good.. i think i've found a win-win solution to this.. heh. hopefully !!

anyone who's been to those places mentioned? advices and suggestions !? msg me !
research research first...how long it takes to travel from one place to another- jotted down in my to-do list. loL....*yawns*..for now..i really jus need to sleep. oh wait, hair still wet.. so i HAVE to finish up another episode of fantasy couple loh..haa.. i loveeeeeeeee the soundtrack. too cute.

while waiting..

this entry actually signifies impending ice-cream treat *rawr*

another
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iPhone! and it continues to rock my sox !

Have a great weekend ahead all!

peace out ! :D

beautiful excerpt.

"...Years may wrinkle the skin, but to give up enthusiasm wrinkles the soul. Worry, fear, self-distrust bows the heart and turns the spirit back to dust. Whether sixty or sixteen, there is in every human being's heart the lure of wonder, the unfailing child-like appetite of what's next, and the joy of the game of living. In the center of your heart and my heart there is a wireless station; so long as it receives messages of beauty, hope, cheer, courage and power from men and from the Infinite, so long are you young..." -Samuel Ullman

let not our souls wrinkle~ but even if it should, may it merely be the indication of where smiles had been. lets all remember to slap on a healthy dose of 'anti-wrinkle cream' at least twice daily~ ! call me if u ran out of stock! keep a lookout, cos im distributing some free samples soon. satisfaction guaranteed. heh :p

check out the time.

to go along at this hour, 我一定是疯了我~ ! im black :( and peeling (jus a little).

heh... daijyoubu~ i love madness anyway.

hmm, feels like a sunday today..very leisurely..and without a worry suddenly. cant remember when was the last time i went for a MIDafternoon (i think nv at this time leh, seriously. tsk) swim, followed by a light lunch and catching up on a weekday... its always much nicer going out on a weekday yea...feeling very relaxed. maybe too relaxed, cos im kinda sleepy now. but i guess i'll 忍abit..

ok, 星期五，再来一次！

thats all for now, a
weird
random
tuesday
afternoon
entry

:)

"at the heart of all matters, is a matter of the heart"

take a break.

i can hardly feel the tip of my fingers as i type. well, after a few eventful days, i've finally let the ball down today. as its always been said, 休息是为了走更长远的路! ahh..cliche~ yikes.. anyway, i reckon if i didn't rest today, i'll have muscle spasms or something. but i'll not rest for too long as to be labelled sedentary. More badminton, tennis, swimming and soccer sessions coming up (shan't detail the makan sessions la huh *cough* lets just pretend i've been living a really healthy lifestyle)... however, no more of ALL these over a short span of 2-3 days :s Although, just for this time, i seriously needed that :) was super concussed last night.. i couldn't even hear the incoming sms~! ok ok, i know, call me a pig. im normally a light sleeper kay.. oh and, my last post, which was initially meant to be a personal outlet to vent my pent-up emotions (yea..u can almost call me power pressure cooker).. somehow doubled to be an SOS signal. haa..no wonder i've a pretty packed week after that ;) or isit jus coincidences? loL, anyhoooos! now i know who reads my blog, or rather..who cares. heh.... arigatou arigatou. i feel loved!

so whatsup on this restful day.. other than blogging this very moment...heh..i didn't exactly do-nothing today- went for a 1-on-1 guitar lesson, really very the not bad! the instructor's rather cool for one..hehe (..he looks kinda familiar leh...hmm, anyway, eh thats not my pick up line!) also, i was rather surprised the first song i got to learn was Hoobastank's The Reason. Damn cool right!? actually its just the G, Em, C and D Chords. probably the simplied version for this song la..haa, good enough tho! still not smooth when i change chords, obviously la..that needs ALOT of practice. but i can strum rather decently, and in tempo now. weeeee! then he said i can bring my stash of mp3s the next lesson, and we can choose some of my favourite (and manageble) songs to learn. heh..i'll probably pick some of jay chou's. hmm. then i went and re-string my ovation today. the string snapped as i was trying to tune...should have expected it ler, its been quite awhile. but anyway, its all good now, my ovation's finally out of the 'cold palace'.

this is a happy entry! yay! i wouldnt say im completely alright... but im on my way :) i've learnt quite alot abt myself over this past month..won't state them all here (for one, i dun feel secure enough to share EVERYthing on my blog, im not even sure who else reads these *shrugs*, the other reason ...if u wanna know more, buy me coffee first! :p ). anyway, one thing for sure, is- to acknowledge how i truly feel. im talking more abt self-acknowledgment..its scary how sometimes im honest abt every other thing, and to others...but i lie to myself on how i feel abt stuffs, and the saddest part is, i actually succeed in fooling myself for a period of time.. not very long though, cos lies don't last! which implies, im taking a detour, a much longer route everytime i lie to myself. everytime i evade something that is real. ....what im trying to say is, if im not alright, i am not. and its okay to be so- life is never a bed of roses. the only way to solve a problem, is to acknowledge that the problem(s) exist, it bugs and saddens.. then find the remedy. if theres no remedy, then learn how to cope with it in a healthy manner. i mean, u cant solve a 'problem' if u deny its existence right? makes sense? anyway..that makes perfect sense to me. ok, so same thing for an emotion- if im upset, wldnt help if i wear a smile everyday, and then act as if nothing happened. have a 'mourning period' than, watever one wld call it.. cry it out, pick myself up. and move on. ok, this sounds easier said than done, it is an arduous process. pick myself up this minute, fall down again the next, pick myself up today, fall down again the next day... what do i do? stand up again la! the crux is, deal with situations the proper way, give it due recognition, not just shove it under the carpet, or burying it somewhere..cos someday it'll jus come up and haunt you, maybe in a different form. or worse yet, not learn anything from the experience, which is a terrible thing i'd feel. sometimes, its a matter of courage or cowardice..i dunno, the latter makes me boil! but anyway, im not saying wear a bitter/sad/sour face the whole day.. just be true to myself thats all. hanging out with friends who understand really helps, alot. these treasured ones, listened to not just what i hafta say, most imptly, they listened to how i feel, the unsaid. i remain thankful/grateful to you guys & gals (you know who you are! :p )...for your willingness (read: trust in me) to open up your raw selves, in sharing your own experiences and perceptions.. and i treasure every bit of it.

anyway uhhh- as i was blogging the above..came another impromptu visit- suddenly popped out of my big treasure chest. :p so eh, train of thoughts broken, no complains! but i'll stop here for now... bottomline is.. no matter how big the blow, or wadever's happened... i've learnt, and am still learning to pick myself up and face the challenges for each day. ahh, C'est la vie~

ps: im watching Fantasy Couple now~ didnt even realise i have this. mini surprise!! who did i kob this from? i don't remember leh.. or, who left it in my hdd??? mystery~ but very cute and light-hearted show. whoever it was, xiexie ni. heh.. O_o ...onto episode 9 now!

I thought maybe it would go away. That I would get over it.

your strength is made perfect in my *weakness (':

just realised ice-cream doesnt help anymore when im really upset. nonetheless, thanks for the strawberry cheesecake- and u gave up ur personal favourite *cough yucko* chunky monkey for me..aww :')

some friendships i know i'll never never lose my grip on.. especially the kind that enables me to gobble up nasi goreng ayam, prata, tandoori chicken and teh alia, on a day when i have the least appetite..and at such weird timings at 1+am. ahh..whho cares abt guilt now, and i quote "wahlaauu, u see nice food, just eat lar! simi anorexic" :)

the situation seems to not have changed, but i am already feeling better after a long and hard cry..and, after the pleasantly sudden visit, and sinful feast.. but yes, crying is defintely not a sign of weakness, its a natural human response..one that marks the beginning of healing, and growth.

guess what, despite being in such a rough patch.. there are really heaps of people, and things to give thanks to.. and sometimes we wish we didn't had these imperfections in life, yet without which, would we be appreciative of the little things that comes our way... ? would we work, and fight hard for a better tomorrow? would we cherish when that person/thing comes into our life.. ? would we have the spirit of humility in us, to learn from our mistakes and/or to strive and be a better person.. ?

...some quotes to end the day..

"Our greatest weakness lies in giving up. The most certain way to succeed is always to try just one more time. "

"The greatest weakness of all weaknesses is to fear too much to appear weak. "

"Weakness of attitude becomes weakness of character. "

"If we resist our passions, it is more due to their weakness than our strength. "

"Insincerity is always weakness; sincerity even in error is strength. "

"The greatest weakness of most humans is their hesitancy to tell others how much they love them while they're alive. "

"There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are the messengers of overwhelming grief, of deep contrition, and of unspeakable love. "

oh, and im on one of those repeat mode tonight. somehow this song emerged top on my playlist.. ktweee ktweee timee. okay, i hafta admit, its been a rather tiring, and emotionally draining day, or rather, past few weeks... but anyway, i guess anyone can easily sense that from my rather inconsistent blogging style these days... alrights, even though the mind is resistant to the idea of sleep, the stinging eye is already protesting with double, maybe triple, vision... goodnight everyone.

free gift. unconditional love.

these words don't really go together.
what is a free gift? Aren't gifts free?

and isn't love meant to be unconditional? yes? =)

I'm tired and superbly sick of this home.. This house!! Ugh, is there a God!!?? Help me!!!

Love over-rated..

家不成家，还有什么好说的 ...

"But as tough as wanting something can be, the people who suffer the most are those who don't know what they want."

雨过了~ 天要转晴了~~

*hopeful~ (:

i know this is overdue, but.. from the bottom of my heart, thanks for always being around, u reached out to me at moments when i've lost the strength and voice to cry for help, for letting me be when i needed time alone, for enduring my wilfulness, for your patience and gentleness, for your forgiveness when i've hurt u deeply not just once.. for your indulgence in my wants/needs, nv once complained (i cant remember at least.. :p), for pulling me back when i've lost my centre, for ur constant reminders that someone always cares... thank u for being the person that you are, thank you my bigfatbeachbrollyy :')

cheapthrill !

I'm blogging from my phone!
I know it's been a long time since wireless@sg first started.. But hey I haven't been around, and and and... I only got my super cool phone that allows me to come online n browse (without grieve) recently :p

And since I won't hav Internet at home for at least a week(woe!!), definitely appreciate this service (and my phone!!) alot more. Heh.

Go tech ! .....iPhone rocks !!

Ok toodooloos for now.
Shall not be too consumed with techs when I'm out. These stuffs facilitate and enable efficiency.. But I need human touch!! Nothing can replace warmth of being with loved ones and friends, seeing real smiles and hearing their laughter. Not 'smileys' and 'loL' !!

the point being..?

The Paradoxical Commandments

People are illogical, unreasonable and self-centered.

Love them anyway.

If you do good, people will accuse you of selfish ulterior motives.

Do good anyway.

If you are successful, you will win false friends, and true enemies.

Succeed anyway.

The good you do today, will be forgotten tomorrow.

Do good anyway.

Honesty and frankness make you vulnerable.

Be honest and frank anyway.

What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight.

Build anyway.

People really need help but may attack you if you do help them.

Help people anyway.

Give the world your best you have and you'll get kicked in the teeth.

Give the world the best you have anyway.

....not to give up hope.

dying words: i bury everyday.

since getting my P535 back. today's the first time im using it.

what's your point. i don't get it. never did.

amazing. somehow..some ppl jus brings across the same points in a more poignant manner. in a way, that strikes a chord in your heart.

靖，你可以的。雨过天一定晴！suck it ALL in...and tahan.

Freud and friends.

felt like penning something down today... but due to its infrequent use, my brain has run out of stuff that is remotely blogworthy. feels as though i have nothing to say, and, and lots to say, at the same time. what can possibly explain this phenomenon..?

My strongstrongstrong Id is telling me that I should do the same thing of running, this time, not away, but back.
My idealistic Superego says I need to continue the ascent of Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs. That I need to reach my self-actualisation.
My dumbass malfunctioning Ego is friggin' sick and tired of being the middleguy..

I might just have to take the MMPI soon...

random musings

someday maybe I'll write a story which the chapters don't connect. The more disjointed the better.. probably sounds stupid, but that's what I feel life is like sometimes. If I cld explain it in a different manner...Every moment is like a frame, the next might be totally different, or not. Today you're here, and maybe tomorrow, there might be someone in your place. Maybe of the five people you see in one frame, there are three you'll never see again in any of the others. Then again, maybe we're friends today, tomorrow, and for a long time after. I don't know. Everything just changes so fast. Even if you have the exact people in the same place, in two frames, there are still small things that change. I'm not talking about years years, just give it two months? *shrugs* It's unpredictable, and it makes no sense. But maybe it's really like one of those huge montage/mosiacs puzzles.. Maybe you might have a picture of mickey mouse, right next to a picture of a funeral. It makes no sense to put them next to each other, and it looks downright random. But from somewhere far away, maybe it'll make sense. i dunno.

anyway, life is both fragile and resilient. in life, we cross path with many ppl.. but we can’t keep in touch with all of them— not in any sort of meaningful way, at least. But do not allow those who are important to u to slip away. and I am very thankful for the few of u in my life, who have stayed on till now..whom have laughed together, offered an outstretch arm in times of my needs, warm fuzzy hugs at totally random moments. love u all.

The supreme happiness of life is the conviction that we are loved. -Victor Hugo