Don't be fooled. shes not that quiet...haha
Saturday, December 08, 2007
Friday, December 07, 2007
Korea! (:
haha so girly~ buay tahan! anyway...here's one pic first. hahaha..i noe i noe..after so long...only one pic. im juz very lazy..i'll post more photos up soon! havent got them from my frens~ bleah~
in other news, im gg for my 1st job interview tmr! haha. for the post of associate psychologist! wish me luck. heheh...more of a fun thing i guess. haha. excited!
Saturday, December 01, 2007
Friday, November 23, 2007
harlowww everrybardieee! im back from Korea! it was an awesome awesome trip. hehe..love the culture, the food, the weather, and the superb company~! havent enjoyed myself this much in a long long time~ whooopeee!
for the first time in my life i saw snow falling~~~!! really beautiful~ was the first day (19th November 2007, 9PM!!) snowing in Korea this year~ so luckkyyy~~~ and and and....i went skiiing at Korea's international skii resort. hehe..li-chan...this is the place where they filmed winter sonata, and where shinhwa did one of their MTVs. haha~ then then then...wore korean traditional costume, hehe..quite farney~ but very funnnn~ then then then...food was awesome..and super healthy la! tried lotsa stuff...woooo~ ate bbq pork and drank shoju (korean wine). super yumss to the max!!
and i bought 2 dozen krispy kremes back (amidst many stuff i brought back...not alot actually..but considering the little time we had for shopping.....hahaha...think i quite power. heheh)~ lOL....anyway quick call me if u want someeeeeee!! heheh =p
okay abit sleepy now, update more with photos next time round!
ooOo oo...my mummy's friend wanna give me her 3-yr-old golden retriever! so excited!!! gonna check the dog out soonish! hope i can click with the dog..hehe. if not im gonna go puppy hunting after convo and when im settled properly in SG~ wheeeee! golden retriever i love!! lovee shelties tooo~~ one of my favourites!!!!!!!! hehe =)
for the first time in my life i saw snow falling~~~!! really beautiful~ was the first day (19th November 2007, 9PM!!) snowing in Korea this year~ so luckkyyy~~~ and and and....i went skiiing at Korea's international skii resort. hehe..li-chan...this is the place where they filmed winter sonata, and where shinhwa did one of their MTVs. haha~ then then then...wore korean traditional costume, hehe..quite farney~ but very funnnn~ then then then...food was awesome..and super healthy la! tried lotsa stuff...woooo~ ate bbq pork and drank shoju (korean wine). super yumss to the max!!
and i bought 2 dozen krispy kremes back (amidst many stuff i brought back...not alot actually..but considering the little time we had for shopping.....hahaha...think i quite power. heheh)~ lOL....anyway quick call me if u want someeeeeee!! heheh =p
okay abit sleepy now, update more with photos next time round!
ooOo oo...my mummy's friend wanna give me her 3-yr-old golden retriever! so excited!!! gonna check the dog out soonish! hope i can click with the dog..hehe. if not im gonna go puppy hunting after convo and when im settled properly in SG~ wheeeee! golden retriever i love!! lovee shelties tooo~~ one of my favourites!!!!!!!! hehe =)
Thursday, November 15, 2007
exclusively swong. part II
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it meant "i purposely write all shortform"
HAHAHA. u cannot read shortform ar
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Jing - corolla hatchback manual 1.8L for sale! says:
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i pply rite all sortfm
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isolation says:
it meant "i purposely write all shortform"
Saturday, November 10, 2007
second day.
weather's awesome back home. really cooling, and not as humid as i imagined it to be. spent time at home with mum, read books + manga (havent done this in a looooong time~! li-chan, im reading qi ling wang now! haha. makes me wanna learn how to play! cheeem game..i cant even play chess well. heheh) and watching TV at home. nice and relaxing.
was at bugis today for awhile, nice meeting up with a few friends. but oh man....i really hate walking around malls in SG now. so crowded...i feel out of breath! not that me and my friends went window shopping or anything, but like manoeuvering my way to find my friends, then later to coffeebean was bad enough. ugh.... this big part of me wished i was home reading my book on my big comfy sofa in the living room. like seriously.
its kinda....strange. i enjoy catching up with my friends, but at the same time, i found it such a huge waste of time to be in the mall. what popped in my mind then was...i could be somewhere doing volunteer work, helping someone in need. giving my care and attention to the less privileged..and so on. then i started to think about where i could do that, and what else i could be doing. i just can't stand doing things that are non-productive now. somehow if im not learning, thinking, reading or sowing into lives...i feel as though im wasting my time. watching tv + reading manga + spending time with family = rest. haha =p
scene in SG now is pretty much the same 4 or 5yrs back (before i went to Perth). but now that im back, the feeling's somehow different. really really different. im looking at the same things but with very different perspective. more on this next time.
anyway, after im back from Korea, i'll definitely find somethings to do. meanwhile...its just really nice to be home. (:
was at bugis today for awhile, nice meeting up with a few friends. but oh man....i really hate walking around malls in SG now. so crowded...i feel out of breath! not that me and my friends went window shopping or anything, but like manoeuvering my way to find my friends, then later to coffeebean was bad enough. ugh.... this big part of me wished i was home reading my book on my big comfy sofa in the living room. like seriously.
its kinda....strange. i enjoy catching up with my friends, but at the same time, i found it such a huge waste of time to be in the mall. what popped in my mind then was...i could be somewhere doing volunteer work, helping someone in need. giving my care and attention to the less privileged..and so on. then i started to think about where i could do that, and what else i could be doing. i just can't stand doing things that are non-productive now. somehow if im not learning, thinking, reading or sowing into lives...i feel as though im wasting my time. watching tv + reading manga + spending time with family = rest. haha =p
scene in SG now is pretty much the same 4 or 5yrs back (before i went to Perth). but now that im back, the feeling's somehow different. really really different. im looking at the same things but with very different perspective. more on this next time.
anyway, after im back from Korea, i'll definitely find somethings to do. meanwhile...its just really nice to be home. (:
Wednesday, November 07, 2007
my study.
specially for SWONG! - ehh...tell me how to summarize this into 2 sentence for u on msn. if u can do that..i buy u another pack of gummies from the korean store. okay for all my dear friends who did not request a 2 sentence summary from me....heres an excerpt from the report I wrote for the primary schools i did testings in..basically summarizes the findings of my study....not everything though, but basically trying to tell the principals..hey u've not wasted ur time..ur kids are very smart. thank u. haha... okay...well not really. anyway....heres it.
This study examined how objective abilities and children’s beliefs about their chance of success affected their interest in items on a thinking task. Participants were recruited from four primary schools with pre-primary services, to consist of 2 homogeneous age groups: 40- 5-year olds and 38- 7-year-olds. Specifically, children completed a series of puzzles that increased in difficulty and were asked to rate how confident they were that they could answer each item correctly, and how interesting they found each item.
Previous studies have found that adults generally display an inverted-U relationship between difficulty and interest, that is, low levels of interest in very easy and very difficult tasks and high levels of interest when difficulty is high yet still within one’s perception of being able to cope – when one’s chance of success is about 82%. In contrast, in the present study, most young children’s interest was unrelated to item difficulty. Five-year-old children reported very high levels of interest in most puzzles regardless of difficulty level, and showed a high degree of confidence in their ability to solve puzzles even when they were well beyond their actual abilities. Furthermore, consistent with previous studies, we found that children’s overestimation of their own abilities declined steadily between five and seven years of age – though 7-year-olds were still overconfident.
Results also indicated that, for the 11.5% of young children who showed the adult-like inverted-U association between difficulty and interest, the point of greatest interest occurred when they have relatively low chance of success – 64% for 5-year-olds and 77% for 7-year-olds, in comparison to adults’ 82%. Thus, despite children having lower levels of ability than adults, the puzzles these children found most interesting posed them a greater personal challenge than was the case with adults. Children appear to be more interested than adults in tackling tasks with a high risk of failure – possibly because they consistently underestimate their risk of failure.
actually....can sum it up in one sentence...the degree of kiasee-ness increases steadily with age. i.e., the older u get, the more kiasee one becomes?!? arr...crazy...cannot. haha...
okay. byebyee!
This study examined how objective abilities and children’s beliefs about their chance of success affected their interest in items on a thinking task. Participants were recruited from four primary schools with pre-primary services, to consist of 2 homogeneous age groups: 40- 5-year olds and 38- 7-year-olds. Specifically, children completed a series of puzzles that increased in difficulty and were asked to rate how confident they were that they could answer each item correctly, and how interesting they found each item.
Previous studies have found that adults generally display an inverted-U relationship between difficulty and interest, that is, low levels of interest in very easy and very difficult tasks and high levels of interest when difficulty is high yet still within one’s perception of being able to cope – when one’s chance of success is about 82%. In contrast, in the present study, most young children’s interest was unrelated to item difficulty. Five-year-old children reported very high levels of interest in most puzzles regardless of difficulty level, and showed a high degree of confidence in their ability to solve puzzles even when they were well beyond their actual abilities. Furthermore, consistent with previous studies, we found that children’s overestimation of their own abilities declined steadily between five and seven years of age – though 7-year-olds were still overconfident.
Results also indicated that, for the 11.5% of young children who showed the adult-like inverted-U association between difficulty and interest, the point of greatest interest occurred when they have relatively low chance of success – 64% for 5-year-olds and 77% for 7-year-olds, in comparison to adults’ 82%. Thus, despite children having lower levels of ability than adults, the puzzles these children found most interesting posed them a greater personal challenge than was the case with adults. Children appear to be more interested than adults in tackling tasks with a high risk of failure – possibly because they consistently underestimate their risk of failure.
actually....can sum it up in one sentence...the degree of kiasee-ness increases steadily with age. i.e., the older u get, the more kiasee one becomes?!? arr...crazy...cannot. haha...
okay. byebyee!
Monday, October 29, 2007
finally.
80 references
78 children tested
9 months of work
many nights of lost sleep
many many many cups of coffeee
.....and the stats can go on....but i cant think now.
its finally done. so how am i feeling now? i have no idea. maybe i'll answer that...after a goodnight's rest. haha.. i'll need to photocopy 3 sets, bind them...and submit, get a receipt before i can set my mind at ease. still feeling abit unsettled....feels like i havent done something. maybe im just paranoid. haha..
anyways...heres the simple acknowledgment attached in my thesis.. thought i'll just paste them here.. yarps...this marks the end of my undergrad life (possibly the end of my formal education..haa.....abit sick of research now actualllyyyy...ops). so yeah....alright, i'll be back after i get my sleep.....
Acknowledgments
I would like to express my most sincere gratitude to my supervisor Dr Helen Davis for her patient guidance, encouragements and advice throughout this study. Her dedication towards supervision and insightful comments has been my constant inspiration.
I would also like to thank the staff and students of Marys Mount Primary School, Newlife Primary School, Xavier Catholic School and St Hilda’s Anglican Girls’ School for their participation in this study.
I would like to take this opportunity to express my deepest gratitude to my beloved parents for supporting me in my educational pursuits, for their constant care and unconditional love; without them, the best things in my life would never have been.
Thanks also to all my dear friends for their encouragements and my spiritual family for their prayers. I would like to give special mention to Suli Chai, a dear friend whom I’m really thankful to have known during my undergraduate life in Murdoch University, her optimism, humor and friendship has made this journey more enjoyable.
Finally, I would like to give thanks and all glory to my God, whose love and grace allowed me to persevere, whose blessings have made all things possible.
Saturday, October 27, 2007
Thursday, October 25, 2007
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
the spoilt brat has learnt her lesson.
i use to do things only when i feel like it. totally no sense of urgency+responsibility.
now, i need to force myself to not feel anything so that i can complete my work.
both extremes suck.
Dear Mr. God...may we negotiate a middle ground for this. i promise i'll not be the spoilt brat that i was anymore.
now, i need to force myself to not feel anything so that i can complete my work.
both extremes suck.
Dear Mr. God...may we negotiate a middle ground for this. i promise i'll not be the spoilt brat that i was anymore.
Saturday, October 13, 2007
too fast.
sometimes i wish time would come to a standstill. even if its just a minute. everything and everyone, hold on for a moment.
Friday, October 12, 2007
kokomo
i just feel like listening to this song now...haha. but the animation is abit duhbleah-ish though. heh...enjoy =p
i wanna go to the beachhhh!
time is running out! THESIS!
li-chan....i decided on this blog title specially for u. hahaaha....friend enough? loL
funny how im not as stressed (doesn't mean im not..loL) about my thesis as i was with my assignments.... is this a serious case of bochupness? or have i learnt to better manage stress...? maybe its an interplay of both factors...haha. actually...no, i think it might only be the latter + the assurance of God. not that writing a thesis is easy...but its muchmuch easier without having to fear. I love my Daddy. weee~
hmm, i've lost some weight after putting in more time and effort on my thesis...which is really weird (first time i lost weight without trying! plus..i havent exercised in months....bleah, so unhealthy). i havent got much appetite lately, and i think my system's gone bonkers. like i met li-chan for dinner at abt 4pm today (now i realise its my first and only meal for the day)...i din feel hungry at all but i just ate anyway, cos i know that i need to. then after i finished my subway wrap, i didn't feel full either. no hunger and no feelings of satiation. how tragic! im not complaining abt the losing weight part though. haha. that needs to STAY GONE!
so anyway...i think thats kinda good also in the sense that its really difficult to do any work when you're full..cos all the blood goes to your tums to digest the food, so then less blood goes to the brain...and i need lots of brain power for writing. so sorry tumtums i'll compensate u with more yummy food after 29th oct. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~
oh and im talking alot (more) to myself these days~ yikes...wat a thesis does to u....hehe...hmm. okays. back to work. byeee for now.
funny how im not as stressed (doesn't mean im not..loL) about my thesis as i was with my assignments.... is this a serious case of bochupness? or have i learnt to better manage stress...? maybe its an interplay of both factors...haha. actually...no, i think it might only be the latter + the assurance of God. not that writing a thesis is easy...but its muchmuch easier without having to fear. I love my Daddy. weee~
hmm, i've lost some weight after putting in more time and effort on my thesis...which is really weird (first time i lost weight without trying! plus..i havent exercised in months....bleah, so unhealthy). i havent got much appetite lately, and i think my system's gone bonkers. like i met li-chan for dinner at abt 4pm today (now i realise its my first and only meal for the day)...i din feel hungry at all but i just ate anyway, cos i know that i need to. then after i finished my subway wrap, i didn't feel full either. no hunger and no feelings of satiation. how tragic! im not complaining abt the losing weight part though. haha. that needs to STAY GONE!
so anyway...i think thats kinda good also in the sense that its really difficult to do any work when you're full..cos all the blood goes to your tums to digest the food, so then less blood goes to the brain...and i need lots of brain power for writing. so sorry tumtums i'll compensate u with more yummy food after 29th oct. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~
oh and im talking alot (more) to myself these days~ yikes...wat a thesis does to u....hehe...hmm. okays. back to work. byeee for now.
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
i churned out approximately 640 words (only!) for the results section..........after 9hour 30min of work (from 8.30pm - 6am).
majorly grossed out.
im gonna sleep now.
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i can't sleeeeep!!!
okay..then i shall have breakfast............... ooH guess wat~ the birds finally stopped chirping. yays!! i really hate it when day breaks..and the birds start "chirp chirp chirp chirping..." ....just cos i dun feel as chirpy as them, i really feel like shooting them down!!
majorly grossed out.
im gonna sleep now.
edit:
i can't sleeeeep!!!
okay..then i shall have breakfast............... ooH guess wat~ the birds finally stopped chirping. yays!! i really hate it when day breaks..and the birds start "chirp chirp chirp chirping..." ....just cos i dun feel as chirpy as them, i really feel like shooting them down!!
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
im done with methods! 2400 words. haha...i guess i shldnt be proud..cos that should have been done like ages ago. but owells..loL...look on the bright side, another step nearer to thesis completion. freedom! i can smell it!!! wooohoo! plans to go korea/nz during november with my buddy from sec sch~~ whoopeee!!
now lets see...i've had this irritating sore eyes for quite a few days now, when's it ever gonna heal. but thank God its not like full-blown...i had this last last year (around this time also methinks..cos i remember i had it straight after Perth royal show)..it was terrible...and i cldnt open my eyes at all, and then tears kept oozing out and the doctor gave me 2 weeks of MC so that i cld get extension for my assignment. so anyways...thank God im still able to stay up all night to do work now~ whoopeee...cos i dun really wanna get an extension for my thesis... loL...
on one hand, im kinda stressed cos really lagging behind schedule, but on the other..i seem to be enjoying just doing work the whole day...loL...which is a tad bit strange. strange mix of emotions. loL...anyways...3 weeks to submission!! jya ganbatte!
now lets see...i've had this irritating sore eyes for quite a few days now, when's it ever gonna heal. but thank God its not like full-blown...i had this last last year (around this time also methinks..cos i remember i had it straight after Perth royal show)..it was terrible...and i cldnt open my eyes at all, and then tears kept oozing out and the doctor gave me 2 weeks of MC so that i cld get extension for my assignment. so anyways...thank God im still able to stay up all night to do work now~ whoopeee...cos i dun really wanna get an extension for my thesis... loL...
on one hand, im kinda stressed cos really lagging behind schedule, but on the other..i seem to be enjoying just doing work the whole day...loL...which is a tad bit strange. strange mix of emotions. loL...anyways...3 weeks to submission!! jya ganbatte!
Friday, October 05, 2007
Monday, October 01, 2007
random notes.
i guess i am in some sense okay, and in some sense not okay at all. but the message has been really clear these few days..
to believe and to wait in submission even if it takes a really long time, to walk in step even when we don't understand.
waiting upon God not only builds our character.. i guess more importantly waiting always cause us to have a communion with God.
Despite being a man of great faith, Abram had his doubts...despite both him and sarai creating a few mess here and there... God still demonstrated His ability to clear all that up..God still delivered His promises to Abraham.. I guess the idea was Abram continued to follow God's commands even when he doubted [if u were wondering..i was reading Gen 15].
thank you God..that You're a Man of Your Word! thank You that You are unchanging, thank You for Your love, and Your commitment in fulfilling Your promises... no matter how long it takes, help me believe and continue to obey.
...u know...if theres one thing i hate most in the world...its ppl not delivering their promises, even if its not promises, like simply just flaking things off... like 'oh yeah...i'll do it...i'll this and that......' and then they don't.......this is a sure way to irritate the hell out of me......like ughhh! i get really disappointed and pissed. anyways, i'll just stop here for now..
btw, what i write here...is meant at times as a reminder for myself, an outlet...or watever. not meant in anyway to teach, to preach...or get my point across to anyone..unless its a specific shoutout. much as im appreciative ppl care enough to read whats on this blog...who i really am is not confined to what i write in here. if that made any sense... but anyways, if ur happy stay and read. if not, you're more than welcomed not to..
..sometimes i wonder what's life. how it is...when u totally don't know what to do, you can't reach out to someone you love so much... don't know how to convey that..."im really here for u.." message across.... how painful that whatever it is, eventually it'll still be a lonely journey that we each have to take. i guess thats life. and theres a reason for all these, for everything that is happening..
but to uplift things a little, life as i would choose to believe is more than that.. it can be about skipping heartbeats.. being passionate over what you do, over-enthusiasm in *stuff*, about relating the whole experience to a better friend, to someone who will laugh together with you at the nonsensical moments in everyday... trusting and just playing the game simple, laughing..err..being someone's laughing stock =p ... I won't take offence...haha, too old to take offences.. too old to let ppl crush my insecurities and remind me of my imperfections.. so much has happened, so many new feelings and insights, so many things in and out of tis puny head of mine.
so much random stuff i've written..so many more random thoughts swimming around in my head.... but i've got no time to do some major 'housekeeping'. i guess im a person who really needs a lot of time to myself..lOL...no wonder some of u call me crazyyyy... haha. im coming back SG sooon (short or long stay dunno yet)! anywayyyy enjoy ur peace while u can. heheh. =p
..how good is it if all these add on to my thesis word count.. aha...i'll be a tad bit happier =p
to believe and to wait in submission even if it takes a really long time, to walk in step even when we don't understand.
waiting upon God not only builds our character.. i guess more importantly waiting always cause us to have a communion with God.
Despite being a man of great faith, Abram had his doubts...despite both him and sarai creating a few mess here and there... God still demonstrated His ability to clear all that up..God still delivered His promises to Abraham.. I guess the idea was Abram continued to follow God's commands even when he doubted [if u were wondering..i was reading Gen 15].
thank you God..that You're a Man of Your Word! thank You that You are unchanging, thank You for Your love, and Your commitment in fulfilling Your promises... no matter how long it takes, help me believe and continue to obey.
...u know...if theres one thing i hate most in the world...its ppl not delivering their promises, even if its not promises, like simply just flaking things off... like 'oh yeah...i'll do it...i'll this and that......' and then they don't.......this is a sure way to irritate the hell out of me......like ughhh! i get really disappointed and pissed. anyways, i'll just stop here for now..
btw, what i write here...is meant at times as a reminder for myself, an outlet...or watever. not meant in anyway to teach, to preach...or get my point across to anyone..unless its a specific shoutout. much as im appreciative ppl care enough to read whats on this blog...who i really am is not confined to what i write in here. if that made any sense... but anyways, if ur happy stay and read. if not, you're more than welcomed not to..
..sometimes i wonder what's life. how it is...when u totally don't know what to do, you can't reach out to someone you love so much... don't know how to convey that..."im really here for u.." message across.... how painful that whatever it is, eventually it'll still be a lonely journey that we each have to take. i guess thats life. and theres a reason for all these, for everything that is happening..
but to uplift things a little, life as i would choose to believe is more than that.. it can be about skipping heartbeats.. being passionate over what you do, over-enthusiasm in *stuff*, about relating the whole experience to a better friend, to someone who will laugh together with you at the nonsensical moments in everyday... trusting and just playing the game simple, laughing..err..being someone's laughing stock =p ... I won't take offence...haha, too old to take offences.. too old to let ppl crush my insecurities and remind me of my imperfections.. so much has happened, so many new feelings and insights, so many things in and out of tis puny head of mine.
so much random stuff i've written..so many more random thoughts swimming around in my head.... but i've got no time to do some major 'housekeeping'. i guess im a person who really needs a lot of time to myself..lOL...no wonder some of u call me crazyyyy... haha. im coming back SG sooon (short or long stay dunno yet)! anywayyyy enjoy ur peace while u can. heheh. =p
..how good is it if all these add on to my thesis word count.. aha...i'll be a tad bit happier =p
Thursday, September 27, 2007
and I find rest in You...
"Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you in due time, casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you." 1Peter 5:6–7
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
i just embarrased myself big time this morning when i met my co-supervisor. initially, the plan was to meet up to get her signature for some stuffs.. so then, when i met her..i decided to ask her some stats stuffs... and here goes the conversation..
me: .....so i was wondering if it was alright for me to go ahead with that analysis..
sup: ..well you could do that, but due to the sample size..blah blah....its better if u do a visual inspection to......
me: oh hmm..visual inspection.... there is a function for that in SPSS!?
it took me about 5 seconds to realise what an idiot i was........zzzzz.
my supervisor almost burst out in laughter, and i could see that she was trying to hold her laughter throughout the conversation after that.
i cld argue that i wasnt quite awake when i met her and stuff..aha. but sighs!
me: .....so i was wondering if it was alright for me to go ahead with that analysis..
sup: ..well you could do that, but due to the sample size..blah blah....its better if u do a visual inspection to......
me: oh hmm..visual inspection.... there is a function for that in SPSS!?
it took me about 5 seconds to realise what an idiot i was........zzzzz.
my supervisor almost burst out in laughter, and i could see that she was trying to hold her laughter throughout the conversation after that.
i cld argue that i wasnt quite awake when i met her and stuff..aha. but sighs!
Sunday, September 23, 2007
Thank You Lord, for the love I don't deserve..
what can I give, that is not already Yours...
who am I to choose how to live..when all I have to loose, is what You give.
Lord, take my all, my everything...
Here I stand forgiven..Lord for You, my life I'll live.
Lord to You I surrender..I surrender all...
who am I to choose how to live..when all I have to loose, is what You give.
Lord, take my all, my everything...
Here I stand forgiven..Lord for You, my life I'll live.
Lord to You I surrender..I surrender all...
Thursday, September 20, 2007
5 weeks plus to thesis submission. i am officially stressed. what's grieving me now is the stats part. the whole analysis.......it is just too damn difficult. my head's cracking, falling apart..i dun even wanna rant on this now. this is nightmarish...the last thing on my head before i sleep is this freaking analysis part for my thesis. everything is thesis thesis thesis~
but anyway, even though it seems almost impossible to get pass this whole stats thing now (wails!)... there isn't a doubt that i'll get my thesis done. just a matter of how much hair i'll drop...haha.. grah.
so anyway, with that (plus, quite a number of people have asked)...so what's my plans after hons....... ? Answer: I honestly don't know. There are just too many factors that i hafta take into consideration. and i just don't have the time and energy to think about it now (well, maybe i just don't wanna think about it, not too sure myself).
haha. okays...i wish i had more to say... but my life's been pretty uneventful lately. i've got nothing on my mind now other than my thesis.
edit:
how many times have i used the word 'thesis' in this one short post. ugh. terrible. im sick of that word. haha. zz
but anyway, even though it seems almost impossible to get pass this whole stats thing now (wails!)... there isn't a doubt that i'll get my thesis done. just a matter of how much hair i'll drop...haha.. grah.
so anyway, with that (plus, quite a number of people have asked)...so what's my plans after hons....... ? Answer: I honestly don't know. There are just too many factors that i hafta take into consideration. and i just don't have the time and energy to think about it now (well, maybe i just don't wanna think about it, not too sure myself).
haha. okays...i wish i had more to say... but my life's been pretty uneventful lately. i've got nothing on my mind now other than my thesis.
edit:
how many times have i used the word 'thesis' in this one short post. ugh. terrible. im sick of that word. haha. zz
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
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Friday, September 14, 2007
i am now in the library...about to start a crazy night of data entry + figuring out nonlinear-regression. i hate this (because this is my 3rd data file!! and its no joke keying in all those crap man.....advance warning to all who may talk to me in the near future. if you think im not looking at you when im talking...i actually am. its just my eyes gone abit kuku. blame it on the amt of data entry i hafta do). like 1000 plus rows of data...and i have to do it twice over for this 3rd data file....this is crazy. not that i did up the previous files wrongly...its just that there are different uses for each. crazy crazy crazy...why me!?
i got stucked trying to understand the nonlinear regression thing, then i emailed my ex-tutor last night who taught me Methods 3...and he met me this afternoon, then he couldnt figure it out either, so then he called another tutor (this guy tutored me for Methods 2...and he couldnt figure it out either!).... like sighs...but then i've gotta say i've got excellent tutors/support here at Murdoch. haha...it was totally not his business at all...but he so willingly sat down with me for no less than 1hr 30min...trying to figure out how to analyse my data...and talking through some concepts with me. though he couldnt help much in the end, but still awesome. appreciate it alot. oh and he said he'll get back to me after he got some stuffs figured out. like how cool is that?
so anyway, guess who was the first to greet me while i was walking to the library. it was my hons classmate..haha..and the moment she saw me....she just couldnt stop laughing. i dunno why. haha i guess its just that common understanding that....stats is abt to drive us mental. then she had to ask me a zillion questions (okay not that much...just one is enough to kill me actually) abt her stats stuff for her study....i was really trying hard to digest what she say, and i tried my best, but still could only offer her some not-very smart suggestions and advices...haa...i promised i'll get back to her. haa..zzz. so i better. oh, and i finally got to know her name when i asked for her number. haha...like i've been talking to her for so long, but i just can't recall her name...and too embarrassed to ask after so long. loL....zzz
anyway for now.....back to spss.
li-chan~! that couple who so shamelessly+rudely invaded our comfy table+seats in the library when we were still there........is sitting right opposite me now! hahah. okay..v random. but anyways...cos it took me abt 1min to realise who they were....look familar mah.
but okay..enough crap.
edit:
oOo...okay..not bad. finally at 1.05am. im done with my data entry (i suspect theres more to come actually. once i get another email from my supervisor.......)..... 2 1/2hrs...not as bad as i thought it would be. but thats becos i've aready spent yesterday and this afternoon doing it.
oh and yes.. although this is very unorganised..ima blogging in a very non-chronological order..anyway who cares.. went for prayer meeting before coming to the library. i believe very much in the power of prayers, and how there is synergy when more ppl gather together to pray...but today was waaaaaay out of my comfort zone. somehow i've been shoved to the front to be prayed for in proxy for my mum...it was abit too much fuss for me...and im probaly the kind of person who really dislike fuss and attention, and dislike bothering ppl with my stuffs.....then i just feel weird. but then again...i guess its not abt any of that...but believing that God is hearing all those prayers, and that we in turn hear what He has to say. more imptly, Ps Benny mentioned tt prayer is abt submission..... so i guess, comfort aside... but also.. thank u all who have been keeping me and mum in prayers. although i dislike the fuss..i still appreciate your prayers!
i got stucked trying to understand the nonlinear regression thing, then i emailed my ex-tutor last night who taught me Methods 3...and he met me this afternoon, then he couldnt figure it out either, so then he called another tutor (this guy tutored me for Methods 2...and he couldnt figure it out either!).... like sighs...but then i've gotta say i've got excellent tutors/support here at Murdoch. haha...it was totally not his business at all...but he so willingly sat down with me for no less than 1hr 30min...trying to figure out how to analyse my data...and talking through some concepts with me. though he couldnt help much in the end, but still awesome. appreciate it alot. oh and he said he'll get back to me after he got some stuffs figured out. like how cool is that?
so anyway, guess who was the first to greet me while i was walking to the library. it was my hons classmate..haha..and the moment she saw me....she just couldnt stop laughing. i dunno why. haha i guess its just that common understanding that....stats is abt to drive us mental. then she had to ask me a zillion questions (okay not that much...just one is enough to kill me actually) abt her stats stuff for her study....i was really trying hard to digest what she say, and i tried my best, but still could only offer her some not-very smart suggestions and advices...haa...i promised i'll get back to her. haa..zzz. so i better. oh, and i finally got to know her name when i asked for her number. haha...like i've been talking to her for so long, but i just can't recall her name...and too embarrassed to ask after so long. loL....zzz
anyway for now.....back to spss.
li-chan~! that couple who so shamelessly+rudely invaded our comfy table+seats in the library when we were still there........is sitting right opposite me now! hahah. okay..v random. but anyways...cos it took me abt 1min to realise who they were....look familar mah.
but okay..enough crap.
edit:
oOo...okay..not bad. finally at 1.05am. im done with my data entry (i suspect theres more to come actually. once i get another email from my supervisor.......)..... 2 1/2hrs...not as bad as i thought it would be. but thats becos i've aready spent yesterday and this afternoon doing it.
oh and yes.. although this is very unorganised..ima blogging in a very non-chronological order..anyway who cares.. went for prayer meeting before coming to the library. i believe very much in the power of prayers, and how there is synergy when more ppl gather together to pray...but today was waaaaaay out of my comfort zone. somehow i've been shoved to the front to be prayed for in proxy for my mum...it was abit too much fuss for me...and im probaly the kind of person who really dislike fuss and attention, and dislike bothering ppl with my stuffs.....then i just feel weird. but then again...i guess its not abt any of that...but believing that God is hearing all those prayers, and that we in turn hear what He has to say. more imptly, Ps Benny mentioned tt prayer is abt submission..... so i guess, comfort aside... but also.. thank u all who have been keeping me and mum in prayers. although i dislike the fuss..i still appreciate your prayers!
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
i had a rather interesting day today. finally met up with my supervisor in uni. well, as most of u know, shes on maternity leave this whole sem. but then she had to brief me about this new stats thingy that she wants me to use for my study. so anyways, she brought her baby along...hahah, and it was really quite an amusing sight..seeing her carry her baby, and doing all the motherly stuff. i mean like...it should be normal..but then cos shes my supervisor..so thats kinda not the scenario i'd have in mind when we meet up. aha... then we had to proceed to the education&humanities building to use the program that they have and we don't (like im wondering why does the psych faculty not provide anything that we need.....dohz...) so anyways....off we go, my supervisor, the baby in the pram and I...haha.
after we reach the computer lab in EH building...she was carrying her baby and trying to guide me through the RUMM program...and cos she hasn't played with the program for quite sometime..so we had to trial and error for quite awhile. then baby started to make quite abit of noise...and we had to head back. haha... but i think we did churn out quite abit of stuff for me to do more work, before i bug her again.
really appreciated her coming all the way down to uni to sort some stuff out...but i felt bad as well~ zzz. haha... didnt help when today's weather was really nasty. poured big time as we step out of the EH building...and then we had to run back to the psych building..with baby, pram and all. quite drama mama.
so anyways....i did quite alot of readings/homework on wat this Rasch modelling thing is abt..thank God i didnt meet her with an empty head...but then, its one thing to know abt the theoretical stuff..and quite another to churn out some useful stats using the program...so yeah...i guess i'll need to head back down that lab and figure the rest out myself.
and...i'll hafta hand in my 1st draft for thesis in abt 2 weeks time.
and.....today's the start of FCC's 21 days season of prayer. im glad i went. i missed last cell and sunday service cos of this super nasty headache+backache+flu+fever+sorethroat+cough.... horrible. so anyways....im muchmuchmuch better now...left with abit of cough and sorethroat.
okay methinks, im gonna be slightly stressed this week. haha..
anyways...ops..way past sleeping time.
hope everyone's doing fine! be well and God bless. =)
after we reach the computer lab in EH building...she was carrying her baby and trying to guide me through the RUMM program...and cos she hasn't played with the program for quite sometime..so we had to trial and error for quite awhile. then baby started to make quite abit of noise...and we had to head back. haha... but i think we did churn out quite abit of stuff for me to do more work, before i bug her again.
really appreciated her coming all the way down to uni to sort some stuff out...but i felt bad as well~ zzz. haha... didnt help when today's weather was really nasty. poured big time as we step out of the EH building...and then we had to run back to the psych building..with baby, pram and all. quite drama mama.
so anyways....i did quite alot of readings/homework on wat this Rasch modelling thing is abt..thank God i didnt meet her with an empty head...but then, its one thing to know abt the theoretical stuff..and quite another to churn out some useful stats using the program...so yeah...i guess i'll need to head back down that lab and figure the rest out myself.
and...i'll hafta hand in my 1st draft for thesis in abt 2 weeks time.
and.....today's the start of FCC's 21 days season of prayer. im glad i went. i missed last cell and sunday service cos of this super nasty headache+backache+flu+fever+sorethroat+cough.... horrible. so anyways....im muchmuchmuch better now...left with abit of cough and sorethroat.
okay methinks, im gonna be slightly stressed this week. haha..
anyways...ops..way past sleeping time.
hope everyone's doing fine! be well and God bless. =)
Friday, September 07, 2007
NewLife College
as promised. some photos I took while doing testings at NewLife College. it was their book-character dress-up day, haha. did my testings on Mr Incredible...and, can you spot Inspector Clouseau? loL
tragic!
thats my car's antenna! :(
using it to make contact with mars now...? erms. haha
how much to fix that? any idea, anyone? any lobang!?
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
Data collection COMPLETE!
finally done with data collection! whoopee~!! 78 participants in all~ short of 2...but thats alright methinks. it was tough getting schools to agree helping out with my study, but no regrets totally. i think i rather work with kids than with adults. really good experience. tiring but fun. and the last school that i did testings in was really really good. the principal and staff were super helpful and friendly. even made a sign for me to blue-tack it on the door "testing in progess, please use copier in ELC"....orh, i had an entire photocopier room to myself. haaha. that was cool.
anyway im really glad this testing phase is over...now i just hope my data makes sense.....loL. i keyed in all my raw data into SPSS...and..haha, i don't know what else to click besides checking for correlation.. its time to read up and refresh my memory on stats.. then again... i think i'll be using some model that i've never came across before in my previous stats units. Rasch model...anyone familar with that? haha. zzz.
anyway im really glad this testing phase is over...now i just hope my data makes sense.....loL. i keyed in all my raw data into SPSS...and..haha, i don't know what else to click besides checking for correlation.. its time to read up and refresh my memory on stats.. then again... i think i'll be using some model that i've never came across before in my previous stats units. Rasch model...anyone familar with that? haha. zzz.
Sunday, September 02, 2007
Friday, August 31, 2007
completed my testings at newlife college today. did a total of 47 children up till now.. yays~ 33 more to go~!
it was quite good today at newlife. today was their book character dress up day. haha. i was there early, so then joined them in their assembly+parade thingy....quite cool....i enjoyed myself. haha. the staff actually joined in the dressup too. principal came dressed as Pink panther's Inspector Clouseau. loL~
i dunno if it was because of all this excitement, today's kids....were exceptionally......talkative and active. haha...i had to go "so...lets get back to the game shall we?" ... like 2 or 3 times...heh...but it was good fun.. haha.
and wat was really unexpected was...while i was bidding farewell to the teacher, 2 of the 5year olds whom i've tested came up to me and gave me their drawings.. in their super sweet and innocent voice, they said "i did this for you" and handed me their drawings. so sweeet~ gosh..din quite expect that...and before i walked out the door, 2 other girls ran up to me and gave me a hug. wow... sure was heart-warming. these kids really made my day..haha.....cldnt stop smiling as i drove all the way back home.
and some other kids whose parents din return the consent forms crowded around me and asked why didnt i 'play' with them... i didnt quite know how to answer them though. aww so sad~! im gonna miss those kids~
anyway, adrenalin's up next!!
it was quite good today at newlife. today was their book character dress up day. haha. i was there early, so then joined them in their assembly+parade thingy....quite cool....i enjoyed myself. haha. the staff actually joined in the dressup too. principal came dressed as Pink panther's Inspector Clouseau. loL~
i dunno if it was because of all this excitement, today's kids....were exceptionally......talkative and active. haha...i had to go "so...lets get back to the game shall we?" ... like 2 or 3 times...heh...but it was good fun.. haha.
and wat was really unexpected was...while i was bidding farewell to the teacher, 2 of the 5year olds whom i've tested came up to me and gave me their drawings.. in their super sweet and innocent voice, they said "i did this for you" and handed me their drawings. so sweeet~ gosh..din quite expect that...and before i walked out the door, 2 other girls ran up to me and gave me a hug. wow... sure was heart-warming. these kids really made my day..haha.....cldnt stop smiling as i drove all the way back home.
and some other kids whose parents din return the consent forms crowded around me and asked why didnt i 'play' with them... i didnt quite know how to answer them though. aww so sad~! im gonna miss those kids~
anyway, adrenalin's up next!!
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
rain extravaganza
pretty self-explanatory. rained the whole day today. an entire day to myself to do my readings or whatever, in this case... blog. in the comfort of my room. haha. so thats good. but lets hope it'll be bright and sunny tomorrow, cos im gonna start testing tmr at newlife college. weather probably? lots of kids have been sick, flu-ey and all...that probably explains why i only get back about half the parental consent forms that has been sent out? if not i don understand why the parents are reluctant to let their child take part in the study...or probably the forms never got to them? haa.. which reminds me, i had an anxious parent calling me early one morning, asking if it was tooo late for her child to participate, cos the child stuffed the consent form in a corner of the bag, and she just found out abt it that morning. that was quite funny i thought. haaha.
lately i've been thinking quite abit abt getting PR and the possibility of doing masters/phd. quite psyched up after chatting with sm about that..should be fun with more hands on stuff. but anyway, i'll blog about this another time.
so tmr's gonna be a full day...and i guess the whole week ahead's gonna be quite full on too, with adrenalin over the weekend, and more testings. and im really looking forward to all of that. yeah bring it on!
lately i've been thinking quite abit abt getting PR and the possibility of doing masters/phd. quite psyched up after chatting with sm about that..should be fun with more hands on stuff. but anyway, i'll blog about this another time.
so tmr's gonna be a full day...and i guess the whole week ahead's gonna be quite full on too, with adrenalin over the weekend, and more testings. and im really looking forward to all of that. yeah bring it on!
Monday, August 27, 2007
O_o
despite her willingness to help...i still feel like strangling her. -_-" gave this principal more than a week's time to send out the parental consent forms...and i've been waiting with hope in my heart...and ...THIS is what greeted me in the morning when i checked my email.
Hi Nona,
I was planning to send home the letters today, but I seem to havemisplaced them. Could you please email me the Principal letter andpermission slip and the parent letter and permission slip?
Thanks,
Jo
excellent....now im delayed by another week...because i have to wait for the parental consent forms to get back........zzzzzzz. and i thought i was done with complaining abt the efficiency level here in perth....thought i should have gotten use to it by now.... but really...i don't think thats ever gonna happen...they just outdo themselves every single time.
note to self: peace peace....this is not gonna spoil my day. DEEP BREATH!
Hi Nona,
I was planning to send home the letters today, but I seem to havemisplaced them. Could you please email me the Principal letter andpermission slip and the parent letter and permission slip?
Thanks,
Jo
excellent....now im delayed by another week...because i have to wait for the parental consent forms to get back........zzzzzzz. and i thought i was done with complaining abt the efficiency level here in perth....thought i should have gotten use to it by now.... but really...i don't think thats ever gonna happen...they just outdo themselves every single time.
note to self: peace peace....this is not gonna spoil my day. DEEP BREATH!
Thursday, August 23, 2007
yesterday, i planned to wake up early again today to continue with my thesis and all. haha..but in the end woke up later than expected...and with abit of a backache. i dont know how that happened.
but anyways, today's a lazy lazy day. slacked it away. but overall wasnt too bad. taking things slow. aha.. and i suddenly miss my CD collection i left back in sg. bored of those i have here. i dont have much here anyways....a few praise CDs, one David Tao album..David gates songbook....killbill OST...thats abt it...dont even wanna look at them anymore. and as most of you know, i've already deleted my massive store of mp3s.....and since i can't live a day (almost) without music....imeens the next best thing. haha.
spent quite a fair bit of time listening to music and just reading some non-thesis related stuff today.. loL...which is very the good. and oOoo found alot of Lisa Ono's music on imeen and i've created a playlist out of those~ so yays~ and nice things must share. haha..so i've created a nice little chillout corner in this blog. haha.... take a break, sit back and relax. (:
but anyways, today's a lazy lazy day. slacked it away. but overall wasnt too bad. taking things slow. aha.. and i suddenly miss my CD collection i left back in sg. bored of those i have here. i dont have much here anyways....a few praise CDs, one David Tao album..David gates songbook....killbill OST...thats abt it...dont even wanna look at them anymore. and as most of you know, i've already deleted my massive store of mp3s.....and since i can't live a day (almost) without music....imeens the next best thing. haha.
spent quite a fair bit of time listening to music and just reading some non-thesis related stuff today.. loL...which is very the good. and oOoo found alot of Lisa Ono's music on imeen and i've created a playlist out of those~ so yays~ and nice things must share. haha..so i've created a nice little chillout corner in this blog. haha.... take a break, sit back and relax. (:
exclusively swong.
excerpt from typical msn conversation with my dearest cell intern (whom we all just can't resist loving, can we? =p) :
I'll sing in the darkness, I'll laugh in the rain says:
haha. cause no reply for so long...so I thought u gone away..
JY says:
orh...u nv ask question mah. so nothing to reply lo
I'll sing in the darkness, I'll laugh in the rain says:
HAHA. okeyy. how was the apple that u ate just now?
JY says:
wat apple?
I'll sing in the darkness, I'll laugh in the rain says:
HAHAH. I was trying to see if I zhun anot...just randomly guess 1 fruit.
JY says:
...............
p/s: for the record, i ate strawberries and kiwi fruit today. try harder next time round. =p
I'll sing in the darkness, I'll laugh in the rain says:
haha. cause no reply for so long...so I thought u gone away..
JY says:
orh...u nv ask question mah. so nothing to reply lo
I'll sing in the darkness, I'll laugh in the rain says:
HAHA. okeyy. how was the apple that u ate just now?
JY says:
wat apple?
I'll sing in the darkness, I'll laugh in the rain says:
HAHAH. I was trying to see if I zhun anot...just randomly guess 1 fruit.
JY says:
...............
p/s: for the record, i ate strawberries and kiwi fruit today. try harder next time round. =p
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
okay i've decided i really hate blue. haha. feel so blue everytime i visit my own blog. brown and green shall be it for now.. not so sure if its a good mix of colors..but anyways..abit more soothing to my eyes. loL...colors from nature. heh..makes me feel more at peaceeeeeeeee.
OoH, amazing what colors do to you. aha...i feel different now. heh.. is it the colors..or isit just me this morning? hmm..heh...i woke up at 645am (even before my alarm sounded) feeling really refreshed and well-rested. i use to be a night person..aha.... seems that age is catching up. loL... more of a morning person now. feel so at peace in the morning. feeling real glad that i've still got a whole day ahead to get my work done. i did some readings just now...and guess wat, its only 10am now! love it. ahha...okay. motivated! back to work.
why the sudden uplift in spirit? well eh, nothing has changed. i just felt like like being cheery today. haha. OooO...and the weather's really quite good today too. matches my mood.
hmm..wat more can i say..indeed His mercies are new each morning!
*sings* i've got peace like a river i've got peace like a river..i've got peace like a river in my soul in my soul
OoH, amazing what colors do to you. aha...i feel different now. heh.. is it the colors..or isit just me this morning? hmm..heh...i woke up at 645am (even before my alarm sounded) feeling really refreshed and well-rested. i use to be a night person..aha.... seems that age is catching up. loL... more of a morning person now. feel so at peace in the morning. feeling real glad that i've still got a whole day ahead to get my work done. i did some readings just now...and guess wat, its only 10am now! love it. ahha...okay. motivated! back to work.
why the sudden uplift in spirit? well eh, nothing has changed. i just felt like like being cheery today. haha. OooO...and the weather's really quite good today too. matches my mood.
hmm..wat more can i say..indeed His mercies are new each morning!
*sings* i've got peace like a river i've got peace like a river..i've got peace like a river in my soul in my soul
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
stop!
What I got from last sunday's sermon was "walking without compromise". stay seperated, stay pure...and not take on worldly values.
I've been really convicted in this aspect. I never budge no matter what people say, as long as I'm certain what I do is right. At the end of the day I'll only need to account to Him.
Anyway theres no way I can please the whole world...humans, are just impossible creatures. i really really don't understand the way people function and how people think (okay...i know im writing as if im of a different species...but watever). like when u sincerely love people, they'll do the worst unimaginable things back at you. or say the most inappropriate things at the most inappropriate time. its just double..triple...a hundred times more pain when that kinda thing comes from people close to heart. i rarely sweet talk, i don't beat about the bush when i do or say things. i just name what i see. i just do what i need to do. if i love u, i do through actions. not just say things that you'll like to hear. what's love anyway? since when is love about feeling good all the time? its about growing and learning. maybe i have low EQ, but then again, maybe not. people have to learn what, at some point in their life..don't they? 忠言逆耳!! okay out of point for now. anyway, of late i've been burdened by a few issues, and I've started to doubt myself about the things I do and say. and i really really really hate that! stuffs that i just never thought would occur. and its mightily irritating and annoying.
its time to put an end to this. there's no way i can control ppl's thoughts/actions... and there's no need for that anyway. But i've gotta stop questioning myself based on other ppl's attitude towards me...if not i'll go crazy sooner or later. stop and check, before i lose myself completely. since beliefs and values form the essence of one's identity, i guess its time for some re-evaluation. time to reflect..and to seek Him prayerfully. what in the world are my beliefs, where they orginated, and how they guide my life. are my beliefs distorted, is it limiting me? serving me? crippling my life? or what?
anyway, i'll be back to pen down my beliefs, thoughts and values. not that I don't know what they were before.. but i guess i'll just write them down to remind myself of who i am, before i lose myself in this crazy world.
I've been really convicted in this aspect. I never budge no matter what people say, as long as I'm certain what I do is right. At the end of the day I'll only need to account to Him.
Anyway theres no way I can please the whole world...humans, are just impossible creatures. i really really don't understand the way people function and how people think (okay...i know im writing as if im of a different species...but watever). like when u sincerely love people, they'll do the worst unimaginable things back at you. or say the most inappropriate things at the most inappropriate time. its just double..triple...a hundred times more pain when that kinda thing comes from people close to heart. i rarely sweet talk, i don't beat about the bush when i do or say things. i just name what i see. i just do what i need to do. if i love u, i do through actions. not just say things that you'll like to hear. what's love anyway? since when is love about feeling good all the time? its about growing and learning. maybe i have low EQ, but then again, maybe not. people have to learn what, at some point in their life..don't they? 忠言逆耳!! okay out of point for now. anyway, of late i've been burdened by a few issues, and I've started to doubt myself about the things I do and say. and i really really really hate that! stuffs that i just never thought would occur. and its mightily irritating and annoying.
its time to put an end to this. there's no way i can control ppl's thoughts/actions... and there's no need for that anyway. But i've gotta stop questioning myself based on other ppl's attitude towards me...if not i'll go crazy sooner or later. stop and check, before i lose myself completely. since beliefs and values form the essence of one's identity, i guess its time for some re-evaluation. time to reflect..and to seek Him prayerfully. what in the world are my beliefs, where they orginated, and how they guide my life. are my beliefs distorted, is it limiting me? serving me? crippling my life? or what?
anyway, i'll be back to pen down my beliefs, thoughts and values. not that I don't know what they were before.. but i guess i'll just write them down to remind myself of who i am, before i lose myself in this crazy world.
Sunday, August 19, 2007
Yet I will REJOICE IN THE LORD, I will be JOYFUL IN GOD MY SAVIOR
i have been feeling really unhappy lately. is that a choice? can i choose? can i choose to not be unhappy given certain circumstances?
happiness is but a state of mind? It's all in the mind? I'm not too sure about that.
but one thing for sure, choose to brood over your problems and your problems stay stuck like chewing gums to shoe. what should i do now? i don't know. thats why i choose not to think, i choose not to feel. i choose not to talk. i don't know what i can do anymore. there's nothing more for me to do actually. God grant me patience, help me in my disbelief. God grant me wisdom.
i have to maintain sanity, i have to finish up my work. thats the most practical thing i can do now. breathe breathe breathe.
try try try. magnify the smallest things in life.
The joy of the Lord, shall be my strength.
"Though the fig tree does not bud
and there are no grapes on the vines,
though the olive crop fails
and the fields produce no food,
though there are no sheep in the pen
and no cattle in the stalls,
yet I will rejoice in the LORD,
I will be joyful in God my Savior.
The Sovereign LORD is my strength;
he makes my feet like the feet of a deer,
he enables me to go on the heights." Habakkuk 3: 17 - 19
happiness is but a state of mind? It's all in the mind? I'm not too sure about that.
but one thing for sure, choose to brood over your problems and your problems stay stuck like chewing gums to shoe. what should i do now? i don't know. thats why i choose not to think, i choose not to feel. i choose not to talk. i don't know what i can do anymore. there's nothing more for me to do actually. God grant me patience, help me in my disbelief. God grant me wisdom.
i have to maintain sanity, i have to finish up my work. thats the most practical thing i can do now. breathe breathe breathe.
try try try. magnify the smallest things in life.
The joy of the Lord, shall be my strength.
"Though the fig tree does not bud
and there are no grapes on the vines,
though the olive crop fails
and the fields produce no food,
though there are no sheep in the pen
and no cattle in the stalls,
yet I will rejoice in the LORD,
I will be joyful in God my Savior.
The Sovereign LORD is my strength;
he makes my feet like the feet of a deer,
he enables me to go on the heights." Habakkuk 3: 17 - 19
Thursday, August 16, 2007
silence is golden
disappointed. depressed. but no time to entertain those emotions.
thank God for work, and TV programs.
thank God for work, and TV programs.
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
"i find every question intwerstwing...becos its easy peaaaasy"
and this kid got about half the questions wrong.
then the other kids go on and on...about how good they are at building sandcastles...what they got for their birthday (and he listed almost everyone in his family)....their favourite nursery rhyme..got to hear what little miss muffet did....and how one girl is angry with her dad cos he spilled water on her shoes, and how her mum has to spend money buying more expensive shoes for her....how one girl beats everyone at snap.. who their favourite simpsons character was...and the list goes on.
really random...but fun interacting with them. jus abit distressed when they were more interested in all the random stuffs, than doing those puzzles i have for them!
interaction with these kids has certainly magnified the view that God has created every individual uniquely. not one of them (us) is the same... i knew that beforehand, but still, was a little taken aback by the vast difference...haha.. same instructions given each time, but responses all came back totally different. some were quiet and receptive, some of them just wanna engage u in their talk about what interest them, some were just too active...and some just didnt bother! anyway...that was fun. i love kids. *BUT STILL, lets just pray i get testing out of the way soon though* aha...really not much time left.
so then..lets start with bad news of the day. i've finished testing all the kids in MMPS (total of 23 children)... sighs. some of them didnt return the parental consent form. so thats alright..i'll just concentrate on writing these few days.
so then, New Life Christian primary just got back to me today..they've officially sent out consent forms...so i'll just need to wait for that. its about 10min drive away. which is good...but has only abt 20 children in total.
oh guess wat.......i havent had coffee for about a week!! and thats a must-have beverage for me everyday...must be cuz i've been rushing around quite a bit....aha.....i think i might just forget to breathe one day when i wake up. aha... okay thats bad....too little coffee too much crap... *coffee time* bye
and this kid got about half the questions wrong.
then the other kids go on and on...about how good they are at building sandcastles...what they got for their birthday (and he listed almost everyone in his family)....their favourite nursery rhyme..got to hear what little miss muffet did....and how one girl is angry with her dad cos he spilled water on her shoes, and how her mum has to spend money buying more expensive shoes for her....how one girl beats everyone at snap.. who their favourite simpsons character was...and the list goes on.
really random...but fun interacting with them. jus abit distressed when they were more interested in all the random stuffs, than doing those puzzles i have for them!
interaction with these kids has certainly magnified the view that God has created every individual uniquely. not one of them (us) is the same... i knew that beforehand, but still, was a little taken aback by the vast difference...haha.. same instructions given each time, but responses all came back totally different. some were quiet and receptive, some of them just wanna engage u in their talk about what interest them, some were just too active...and some just didnt bother! anyway...that was fun. i love kids. *BUT STILL, lets just pray i get testing out of the way soon though* aha...really not much time left.
so then..lets start with bad news of the day. i've finished testing all the kids in MMPS (total of 23 children)... sighs. some of them didnt return the parental consent form. so thats alright..i'll just concentrate on writing these few days.
so then, New Life Christian primary just got back to me today..they've officially sent out consent forms...so i'll just need to wait for that. its about 10min drive away. which is good...but has only abt 20 children in total.
oh guess wat.......i havent had coffee for about a week!! and thats a must-have beverage for me everyday...must be cuz i've been rushing around quite a bit....aha.....i think i might just forget to breathe one day when i wake up. aha... okay thats bad....too little coffee too much crap... *coffee time* bye
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
for the very first time in my life, i saw my mum cringe in pain. even though it was for a shortwhile, my heart felt like it almost dropped out. anyway i can't describe that feeling.
sigh. that aside for now.
did another 7 children today at mmps. so a total of 17 out of 80 children done. good news is testing is obviously underway....and im having fun with the children..the experience is really quite good.
bad news is, i've ran out of year twos (7-yr olds) to do my testings. can still continue with my 5 year olds tomorrow though. for now, i think i can formally get participants from UWA child study centre (did piloting there previously)...then Xavier Catholic school just got back to me, and the principal seems pretty interested in my study......but i don't wanna bet too much on it. been disappointed too many times. bleah. so we'll see how it goes after i meet her this friday. *all fingers, toes..and watever that can be crossed... crossed*
so anyway... i can't think for now. that really explains why im here blogging just after i got back home...... when i have tons to do.gonna shower now...and think what i should do next.
*edit*
ops.....posted this entry wrongly into kardicell blog by mistake jus now. *copy and paste* -_-"
maybe i should sleep after bathing... aha..... full of excuses.
sigh. that aside for now.
did another 7 children today at mmps. so a total of 17 out of 80 children done. good news is testing is obviously underway....and im having fun with the children..the experience is really quite good.
bad news is, i've ran out of year twos (7-yr olds) to do my testings. can still continue with my 5 year olds tomorrow though. for now, i think i can formally get participants from UWA child study centre (did piloting there previously)...then Xavier Catholic school just got back to me, and the principal seems pretty interested in my study......but i don't wanna bet too much on it. been disappointed too many times. bleah. so we'll see how it goes after i meet her this friday. *all fingers, toes..and watever that can be crossed... crossed*
so anyway... i can't think for now. that really explains why im here blogging just after i got back home...... when i have tons to do.gonna shower now...and think what i should do next.
*edit*
ops.....posted this entry wrongly into kardicell blog by mistake jus now. *copy and paste* -_-"
maybe i should sleep after bathing... aha..... full of excuses.
Sunday, August 12, 2007
Love, for the day is near.
came across this really interesting (worrying!) stats thing through pascoaman's blog.
hopefully this will bring some awareness to what's going on in the world...
then again, we can always start first by being sensitive to the needs of the people around us. lets never cease praying for one another.
"By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another." John 13:35
"Let no debt remain outstanding, except the continuing debt to love one another, for he who loves his fellowman has fulfilled the law." Romans 13:8
"Be devoted to one another in brotherly love. Honor one another above yourselves." Romans 12:10
hopefully this will bring some awareness to what's going on in the world...
then again, we can always start first by being sensitive to the needs of the people around us. lets never cease praying for one another.
"By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another." John 13:35
"Let no debt remain outstanding, except the continuing debt to love one another, for he who loves his fellowman has fulfilled the law." Romans 13:8
"Be devoted to one another in brotherly love. Honor one another above yourselves." Romans 12:10
yet will I praise You.
sighs, the really nice principal just emailed me, and withdrew her consent to proceed with testings at her school (ya...the 5min drive away school). basically the email said something about teachers not willing..too busy and blah.
so unexpected.. worst part was, i just declined an offer to meet up with another school, cos i reckoned i'll have enough participants with 2 schools combined. so now i'm left with one....and now i've gotta find hard for another school.
so anyway, not gonna worry too much first. will see how testing goes tmr... Im sure things will fall into place. God is always good.
so unexpected.. worst part was, i just declined an offer to meet up with another school, cos i reckoned i'll have enough participants with 2 schools combined. so now i'm left with one....and now i've gotta find hard for another school.
so anyway, not gonna worry too much first. will see how testing goes tmr... Im sure things will fall into place. God is always good.
Thursday, August 09, 2007
FINALLY! i can start with my testings this coming monday! *phews*
i've got classmates who are done with their data collection and stuff....u see them around uni, and go "hey hows ur thesis coming along...." and they'll talk about stuff like publication...how fun it was collecting data in Spain (yeah man SPAIN! like how cool is that...3 weeks in spain just to get her data..its like half hols, half work! wat an awesome experience) and blah..and...ahah..like totally on a different level.....i didnt even think that far. but still, haha i guess i should really learn to enjoy this whole process, more. i guess its a norm to feel pressure and stress, but above all, must learn to have fun at work...haha...i'll reach there, someday, somehow.
i've got classmates who are done with their data collection and stuff....u see them around uni, and go "hey hows ur thesis coming along...." and they'll talk about stuff like publication...how fun it was collecting data in Spain (yeah man SPAIN! like how cool is that...3 weeks in spain just to get her data..its like half hols, half work! wat an awesome experience) and blah..and...ahah..like totally on a different level.....i didnt even think that far. but still, haha i guess i should really learn to enjoy this whole process, more. i guess its a norm to feel pressure and stress, but above all, must learn to have fun at work...haha...i'll reach there, someday, somehow.
Tuesday, August 07, 2007
Thursday, August 02, 2007
Wednesday, August 01, 2007
1st August 2007. thanksgiving.
- I've got permission from 2 primary schools to proceed with testing!
- Outright approval from Ethics!
- Even though my supervisor is on maternity leave, she rocks still!! After I updated her on my progress in the pilot study...wah! her one comment is like revelation for me. well not exactly revelation, but still, put in quite alot of ideas in my head. Wondering how come I don't think like her, like why why why~ wooh~ so inspired! i want to read more! no doubt she'll be awesomer than awesome if she's in uni, but still..haha.....nevermind, i can be more independent. i am very independent anyway! =p
- Mum's coming this saturday, she's coming she's coming she's coming she's comingggg. i miss my mummyyyy~!! boohoo!
- for the people who have been concerned, who checks in making sure im alright, who nags even (aha)...for those keeping me in prayers. for swong who buys chocs for me after i got approval from my first primary schooL. hehe~so sweet~ u da cooL fart fart! and helping me ease abit of printing costs...heheh~ and li-chan who is sitting right opp me now, waiting for me to be done to prepare dinner. hahaha) anyway..all you in perth and sg~ not gg to be too emo and name everyone...but still u noe who u are~ appreciate it :))) eh i won't say its gonna be any easier from now on.. but still its so much more cope-able knowing people are sincerely concerned. :)
- and thank God for a mentor now too~ though..i don't know wat's happening exactly also. aha... but anyway it should be something good and of God. good stuff.
- very happy and thankful also that sister got into hons!! yippee~ happy for u! jya isshouni ganbarimashoo!!!
Monday, July 30, 2007
it is at times like these.. that i just feel lost, tired, exasperated..and whatever other emotions that i can feel yet cant find words to describe. definitely pain is there.
after a day of research work..i dont feel as if i've made any advancement with regards to my thesis, like nothing concrete churned out, just plain absorbing of information.
then comes a phone call from home in the evening that carries a bad news. just this one bad news is enough to bring me down.
i guess this is a period of time where i really understand and appreciate the phrase "no news is good news".
enough said for now.
after a day of research work..i dont feel as if i've made any advancement with regards to my thesis, like nothing concrete churned out, just plain absorbing of information.
then comes a phone call from home in the evening that carries a bad news. just this one bad news is enough to bring me down.
i guess this is a period of time where i really understand and appreciate the phrase "no news is good news".
enough said for now.
Saturday, July 28, 2007
mike in perth.
despite the limited time.. hope u had fun! seeya when im back! vietnam together next time round =p
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
random.
thanks to li-chan who kept reminding me abt the 'banana song'..
i heard a piece of news through the radio this morning while busy getting lost amidst gooseberry hill......banana prices are soaring again - due to wet and cold season in queensland.
*woe* no more bananas for me this semester! its currently abt $7/KG....and its going up up up up and up...........zzzzz
i heard a piece of news through the radio this morning while busy getting lost amidst gooseberry hill......banana prices are soaring again - due to wet and cold season in queensland.
*woe* no more bananas for me this semester! its currently abt $7/KG....and its going up up up up and up...........zzzzz
fruitful morning.
I've got a YES from MMPS! thank God! yippiee~
but then again, that place really quite ulu, and far. i got lost this morning, thank God i set out 1hr 30min earlier. then i got there just in time...like 925am. so yeaps...praise God for that. the principal say will get back to me on how many participants are available and stuff, but generally he can only allow 2 weeks for the whole testing to be done cos their schedule quite packed and all.
not too sure if i can complete all 80 kids in that time frame, that is if they have 80 kids for me. meanwhile though, I still need to find one or two other primary schools. hopefully a primary school nearer to me will respond this time.
and guess what, i've got an email from the principal of Our Lady of Mt Carmel. she's willing to meet up to discuss about my study ~ yippieee~ lets hope this will work out too~ cos its much much much nearer to home.
yeaps..so those are the goood news. i've got a few bad news......some hiccups here and there..but nyeah...
anyways, quite kancheong about this pilot study on 31st July... like wondering.. and hoping against hope the 5year olds will understand what the word interesting means...and that i'll be able to have their attention on the tasks to be administered. its gonna be fun! i hope..~ aha..
but then again, that place really quite ulu, and far. i got lost this morning, thank God i set out 1hr 30min earlier. then i got there just in time...like 925am. so yeaps...praise God for that. the principal say will get back to me on how many participants are available and stuff, but generally he can only allow 2 weeks for the whole testing to be done cos their schedule quite packed and all.
not too sure if i can complete all 80 kids in that time frame, that is if they have 80 kids for me. meanwhile though, I still need to find one or two other primary schools. hopefully a primary school nearer to me will respond this time.
and guess what, i've got an email from the principal of Our Lady of Mt Carmel. she's willing to meet up to discuss about my study ~ yippieee~ lets hope this will work out too~ cos its much much much nearer to home.
yeaps..so those are the goood news. i've got a few bad news......some hiccups here and there..but nyeah...
anyways, quite kancheong about this pilot study on 31st July... like wondering.. and hoping against hope the 5year olds will understand what the word interesting means...and that i'll be able to have their attention on the tasks to be administered. its gonna be fun! i hope..~ aha..
Monday, July 23, 2007
after a whole day of work in the library....it started pouring like mad just as im about to head home. i want my hot bath and dinner!
anyway here i am, back in the library, typing this brainless post......
tick tock tick tock.......
Dear God please make the rain stop! Amen.
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okay im gonna check if my prayer has been answered.
anyway here i am, back in the library, typing this brainless post......
tick tock tick tock.......
Dear God please make the rain stop! Amen.
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okay im gonna check if my prayer has been answered.
Friday, July 20, 2007
finally i got a reply from one of the primary schools. so then meeting the principal this coming wednesday. that school is like...50min drive away. but still better than nothing.... also thankful its not all the way up albany or anything. >_< hopefully, that principal's sincerely interested in my study..and willing to help. *prays*
i've got something i wanted to blog about, but it slipped my mind....and the few issues weighing my mind now, i have no wish to blog. zzz
fifth day michael's here. only been out once with him for dinner. and it was nearby at bateman. haaha. rest of the time..i just left him to travel around alone. not too bad, like did some catching up and stuffs like when he got back from sightseeing. don't think he changed much from secondary school days though. haa.. but he did mention i was alot quieter. can't recall...maybe i was too talkative during lower sec days.
anyway, on the whole.. i still really just wanna do my own stuff. haa... at least now, i am contented with the way i am, with how i am handling my emotions my thoughts my work my life. though i can't say i am satisfied with the current state of things.
i guess i just need sometime to figure out alot of stuffs. or to come to terms with somethings. or probably, its just about waiting. waiting upon the Lord.
suddenly the sermon by ps melvyn comes to mind..he said waiting can either cause us to be bitter or better. so i guess..i'll choose the latter.
i'll continue to believe to trust to run.and i'll win, because God always does the right thing.
Even when I do not understand, may You continue to help me walk in step with Your plans for me.
"but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint." Isa 40: 31
i've got something i wanted to blog about, but it slipped my mind....and the few issues weighing my mind now, i have no wish to blog. zzz
fifth day michael's here. only been out once with him for dinner. and it was nearby at bateman. haaha. rest of the time..i just left him to travel around alone. not too bad, like did some catching up and stuffs like when he got back from sightseeing. don't think he changed much from secondary school days though. haa.. but he did mention i was alot quieter. can't recall...maybe i was too talkative during lower sec days.
anyway, on the whole.. i still really just wanna do my own stuff. haa... at least now, i am contented with the way i am, with how i am handling my emotions my thoughts my work my life. though i can't say i am satisfied with the current state of things.
i guess i just need sometime to figure out alot of stuffs. or to come to terms with somethings. or probably, its just about waiting. waiting upon the Lord.
suddenly the sermon by ps melvyn comes to mind..he said waiting can either cause us to be bitter or better. so i guess..i'll choose the latter.
i'll continue to believe to trust to run.and i'll win, because God always does the right thing.
Even when I do not understand, may You continue to help me walk in step with Your plans for me.
"but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint." Isa 40: 31
Thursday, July 19, 2007
as requested. =)
Comment and I shall:
for li-chan~ ...who adopted this from dubbers. loL
1. Tell you why I friended you.
because u're one of my first few friends in perth, first friend from psych, we stayed in SV, did groceries together, u waited for me patiently when i was checking out those baked beans, haha..! we mug together, we mug together (oh wait did i jus say that..haa)..we slack together, we whine together, we cry (one after another, sad, but quite funny on hindsight. haha.), we laughed (ALOT) together, we xman together, we cook together, we pig out together, we 'share knowledge' with one another...comfortable around you, too comfortable maybe. haha.... and...you're insane and I LOVE IT..well you, i mean. loL
2. Associate you with something - fandom, a song, a colour, a photo, etc.
1) Choo-chee-yaaa-na! 2) "red alert" hahaha 3) your imitation of a jellyfish.
3. Tell you something I like about you.
you're very calm (but i know sometimes beneath tat exterior ur stressed too). and u hav no temper. haha...so nice until i dunno how to bully u. lOL. and u have...2385298365423875 million kinds of expressions......laugh until i can fall off my chair.
4. Tell you a memory I have of you.
ermm, i have alot leh. now lets see....our first grocery shopping expedition...us walking all the way back from kardi to SV with like 100KG (okay im exaggerating..but certainly feels like it...aha) worth of groceries back, why nv take bus ah? too kiam siap...everything damn ex ard here. hahaha.
5. Associate you with a character/pairing.
dunno..i look at u...............and a jellyfish pops to mind. hahaha.
6. Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
Why do you like RED so much?
because...it represents passion! appeals to me naturally...haha. ermz....red red red..i dunno why leh.....i jus love it. haha. and i love green too, so sometimes i walk ard looking like its Christmas season...ooOoh...which happens to be my favourite occasion. haha. ops...okay out of point.
7. Tell you my favorite user pic of yours.(chorused Dub) WHERE?!!!
-_-" come my place...and u'll see it. haha. its a thing of the past. =p
8. In return, you must post this in your BLOG.
okay done. haha
for li-chan~ ...who adopted this from dubbers. loL
1. Tell you why I friended you.
because u're one of my first few friends in perth, first friend from psych, we stayed in SV, did groceries together, u waited for me patiently when i was checking out those baked beans, haha..! we mug together, we mug together (oh wait did i jus say that..haa)..we slack together, we whine together, we cry (one after another, sad, but quite funny on hindsight. haha.), we laughed (ALOT) together, we xman together, we cook together, we pig out together, we 'share knowledge' with one another...comfortable around you, too comfortable maybe. haha.... and...you're insane and I LOVE IT..well you, i mean. loL
2. Associate you with something - fandom, a song, a colour, a photo, etc.
1) Choo-chee-yaaa-na! 2) "red alert" hahaha 3) your imitation of a jellyfish.
3. Tell you something I like about you.
you're very calm (but i know sometimes beneath tat exterior ur stressed too). and u hav no temper. haha...so nice until i dunno how to bully u. lOL. and u have...2385298365423875 million kinds of expressions......laugh until i can fall off my chair.
4. Tell you a memory I have of you.
ermm, i have alot leh. now lets see....our first grocery shopping expedition...us walking all the way back from kardi to SV with like 100KG (okay im exaggerating..but certainly feels like it...aha) worth of groceries back, why nv take bus ah? too kiam siap...everything damn ex ard here. hahaha.
5. Associate you with a character/pairing.
dunno..i look at u...............and a jellyfish pops to mind. hahaha.
6. Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
Why do you like RED so much?
because...it represents passion! appeals to me naturally...haha. ermz....red red red..i dunno why leh.....i jus love it. haha. and i love green too, so sometimes i walk ard looking like its Christmas season...ooOoh...which happens to be my favourite occasion. haha. ops...okay out of point.
7. Tell you my favorite user pic of yours.(chorused Dub) WHERE?!!!
-_-" come my place...and u'll see it. haha. its a thing of the past. =p
8. In return, you must post this in your BLOG.
okay done. haha
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
Rest for the weary.
"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." Matthew 11: 28-30
Thank You Lord.
Thank You Lord.
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
*yawns*
picked this up from dubbers.
[one] what is your natural hair color?
[honestly] black.
[two] where is your default picture on myspace taken?
[honestly] -
[three] what's your middle name?
[honestly] -
[four] your current relationship status?
[honestly] freeee!
[five] does your crush like you back?
[honestly] How would I know?
[six] what is your current mood?
[honestly] Hungry and restless
[seven] what colour underwear are you wearing?
[honestly] Why do you want to know? green.
[eight] what makes you happy?
[honestly] Coffee! chocolate...and ICE CREAM!
[ten] if you could go back in time and change something, what you would change?
[honestly] i believe everything happens for a reason. so nope, not going back in time.
[eleven] if you must be an animal for one day, what would you be?
[honestly] A horse. not the one in the zoo. preferably the one in plains of inner mongolia..or somewhere on a mountain top.
[twelve] ever had a near death experience?
[honestly] car crash.
[thirteen] something you do a lot?
[honestly] watching tv programs.
[fourteen] the song stuck in your head?
[honestly] dunno the title, this song sung by kim jong kook....cos i just finished an episode of xman! haha!
[fifteen] who did you copy and paste this from?
[honestly] ballater height's very own ahlam-bah-one. hahaaha
[sixteen] name someone with the same birthday as you?
[honestly] sister!! Cheryl Chung Kai Xin! heh~
[seventeen] when was the last time you cried?
[honestly] last week.
[eighteen] have you ever sung in front of a large audience?
[honestly] i was in church choir once..............for a very short while. haha.
[nineteen] if you could have one super power what would it be?
[honestly] for now..i think.. to travel through portals..that kinda thing u know. like *poof* and i'll be at home back in SG. *poof* downsouth doing testing on some pri sch kid *poof* back home for dinner* haha...save time on travelling, more time with loved-ones.
[twenty] what's the first thing you notice about the preferred sex?
[honestly] height!? haha. can't miss that right
[twenty-one] what do you usually order from starbucks?
[honestly] Vanilla frapp with whipped cream please. thank you. [why no starbucks in perth!!?]
[twenty-two] what's your biggest secret?
[honestly] Can't think of any right now.
[twenty-three] favorite colors?
[honestly] Red, green, orange, pink, white. anything la..i jus dun like blue and black.
[twenty-five] do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
[honestly] im young at heart~ haha =p
[twenty-six] what are you eating or drinking at the moment?
[honestly] it's 1.17AM.... i shldnt be, and im glad im not.
[twenty-seven] you speak any other language?
[honestly] engreesh, chinese, hokkien, a leeeeeeeetle bit of jap and poquito espanol? loL...
[twenty-eight] what's your favorite smell?
[honestly] Fresh cut grass...and rain.
[twenty-nine] if you could describe your life in one word what would it be?
[honestly] complicated.
[thirty] when was the last time you gave/received a hug?
[honestly] erm...12th jul
[thirty-one] have you ever kissed in the rain?
[honestly] Nope.
[thirty-two] what are you thinking about right now?
[honestly] i am hungry. why am i doing this..is it ever gonna end. i wanna sleep now and wake up for breakfast. what should i have for breakfast?
[thirty-three] what should you be doing?
[honestly] readings for my thesis. finalising my test protocol.
[thirty-four] what was the last thing that made you upset?
[honestly] just awhile ago, mum said she wasnt feeling well.
[thirty-five] how often do you pray?
[honestly] everyday. these days at least..
[thirty-six] do you like working in the yard?
[honestly] i like getting my hands dirty.
[thirty-seven] if you could have any last name in the world, what would you want?
[honestly] Im happy with mine.
[thirty-eight] do you act differently around your crush?
[honestly] Nope.
[thirty-nine] name one song that reminds you of an ex?
[honestly] Bryan White - God gave me you.
[forty] who was the last person to make you cry?
[honestly] actually...milermieew
....and the stomach continues to growl.............zzz. gooodnight.
[one] what is your natural hair color?
[honestly] black.
[two] where is your default picture on myspace taken?
[honestly] -
[three] what's your middle name?
[honestly] -
[four] your current relationship status?
[honestly] freeee!
[five] does your crush like you back?
[honestly] How would I know?
[six] what is your current mood?
[honestly] Hungry and restless
[seven] what colour underwear are you wearing?
[honestly] Why do you want to know? green.
[eight] what makes you happy?
[honestly] Coffee! chocolate...and ICE CREAM!
[ten] if you could go back in time and change something, what you would change?
[honestly] i believe everything happens for a reason. so nope, not going back in time.
[eleven] if you must be an animal for one day, what would you be?
[honestly] A horse. not the one in the zoo. preferably the one in plains of inner mongolia..or somewhere on a mountain top.
[twelve] ever had a near death experience?
[honestly] car crash.
[thirteen] something you do a lot?
[honestly] watching tv programs.
[fourteen] the song stuck in your head?
[honestly] dunno the title, this song sung by kim jong kook....cos i just finished an episode of xman! haha!
[fifteen] who did you copy and paste this from?
[honestly] ballater height's very own ahlam-bah-one. hahaaha
[sixteen] name someone with the same birthday as you?
[honestly] sister!! Cheryl Chung Kai Xin! heh~
[seventeen] when was the last time you cried?
[honestly] last week.
[eighteen] have you ever sung in front of a large audience?
[honestly] i was in church choir once..............for a very short while. haha.
[nineteen] if you could have one super power what would it be?
[honestly] for now..i think.. to travel through portals..that kinda thing u know. like *poof* and i'll be at home back in SG. *poof* downsouth doing testing on some pri sch kid *poof* back home for dinner* haha...save time on travelling, more time with loved-ones.
[twenty] what's the first thing you notice about the preferred sex?
[honestly] height!? haha. can't miss that right
[twenty-one] what do you usually order from starbucks?
[honestly] Vanilla frapp with whipped cream please. thank you. [why no starbucks in perth!!?]
[twenty-two] what's your biggest secret?
[honestly] Can't think of any right now.
[twenty-three] favorite colors?
[honestly] Red, green, orange, pink, white. anything la..i jus dun like blue and black.
[twenty-five] do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
[honestly] im young at heart~ haha =p
[twenty-six] what are you eating or drinking at the moment?
[honestly] it's 1.17AM.... i shldnt be, and im glad im not.
[twenty-seven] you speak any other language?
[honestly] engreesh, chinese, hokkien, a leeeeeeeetle bit of jap and poquito espanol? loL...
[twenty-eight] what's your favorite smell?
[honestly] Fresh cut grass...and rain.
[twenty-nine] if you could describe your life in one word what would it be?
[honestly] complicated.
[thirty] when was the last time you gave/received a hug?
[honestly] erm...12th jul
[thirty-one] have you ever kissed in the rain?
[honestly] Nope.
[thirty-two] what are you thinking about right now?
[honestly] i am hungry. why am i doing this..is it ever gonna end. i wanna sleep now and wake up for breakfast. what should i have for breakfast?
[thirty-three] what should you be doing?
[honestly] readings for my thesis. finalising my test protocol.
[thirty-four] what was the last thing that made you upset?
[honestly] just awhile ago, mum said she wasnt feeling well.
[thirty-five] how often do you pray?
[honestly] everyday. these days at least..
[thirty-six] do you like working in the yard?
[honestly] i like getting my hands dirty.
[thirty-seven] if you could have any last name in the world, what would you want?
[honestly] Im happy with mine.
[thirty-eight] do you act differently around your crush?
[honestly] Nope.
[thirty-nine] name one song that reminds you of an ex?
[honestly] Bryan White - God gave me you.
[forty] who was the last person to make you cry?
[honestly] actually...milermieew
....and the stomach continues to growl.............zzz. gooodnight.
Saturday, July 14, 2007
Friday, July 13, 2007
HAHAHA!
though not a very flattering photo of takeshi kaneshiro (abit cock-eyed here leh)...and I look quite round here...still gotta post this up. haha.
li-chan made this for me as a birthday 'card'! burst out laughing when i saw this la~ haha....so sweeet of her! haha. anyway my takeshi looks good even if he's abit cock-eyed la. hahaha~ takeshiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii *faints...
okay. goodnight ppl. haha.
Thursday, July 12, 2007
thanks all~ =)
lots of 'firsts' this past year. haha..have spent almost all occasions out of Singapore. Christmas, new year, CNY..and missed quite a few good friends weddings. meh. so then, celebrated my birthday for the first time in Perth this year too.
well didnt exactly celebrate, cos i didnt have anything planned out. but still i enjoyed myself heaps. thanks josh and suli who invited me over to their flat for dinner. haa..josh whipped up a really good meal, lamb dish, mixed vege (yarps they know with me around, cannot miss out the greens. haha), dumplings in miso soup, steamed egg with chicken. tasted sooooooo goood. dumplings handmade by themselves somemore loh, not those frozen from supermarket. haha. yummmsss! so that was good. but then later i learnt, this dinner was part of a bigger plan. haha.. the rest of the southzonies came over to surprise me, with a brownie cake that swongy made. thanks swong! surprise success, cos of my rockstar cell leader, who "tripped" over the rubbish bin making quite a racket...which shocked me, which made me rush out.. and saw the whole gang. anyways~ thanks alot guys. and my rockstar cell leader who drove all thy way down from joondalup..haha. much appreciated. then headed to little creatures for some fellowshipping and nice pale ales.... good time out together. then the day didnt end there, well, they came back to my place for bridge and poker.. haha... but i didnt join though. was quite zonked and fell asleep soon after. haha.
but came back and was greeted by a few sms-es from ppl back home~ was quite surprised by a few of those who remembered..really sweet..lovely surprise of cos. lovee and miss you all heaps!
then on the actual day, went for lunch with adrian~ yo brother, thanks for ur company~ aha. enjoyed myself. next time come over my place ah, before i get busy. haha. whip up a meal for u =p
then li-chan and josh came over for dinner and DVDs...and together with dubdub, we watched heaps of k-clips and MVs which lasted till 230am. good fun and laughter~
milerrbieuuuuuuu called too~ which was quite a highlight of the day. haha. honestly, i cant remember when was the last time i've chatted on the phone. haha.. im like really very passive kind. can't be bothered to call no matter how much i miss someone...so yeah. thanks for calling. haha. i enjoyed the chat with u muchos muchos. love!
hmm yeah..all in all..enjoyed myself heaps. Thank God for everything and everyone really.
ermz, photos will be up soon~
Petrina moved in finally! ahha. on my bday somemore ah. loL..anyway welcome to X Ballater Heights! ahah... lets get high on timtams together...then go jog together. loL. *huggs
well didnt exactly celebrate, cos i didnt have anything planned out. but still i enjoyed myself heaps. thanks josh and suli who invited me over to their flat for dinner. haa..josh whipped up a really good meal, lamb dish, mixed vege (yarps they know with me around, cannot miss out the greens. haha), dumplings in miso soup, steamed egg with chicken. tasted sooooooo goood. dumplings handmade by themselves somemore loh, not those frozen from supermarket. haha. yummmsss! so that was good. but then later i learnt, this dinner was part of a bigger plan. haha.. the rest of the southzonies came over to surprise me, with a brownie cake that swongy made. thanks swong! surprise success, cos of my rockstar cell leader, who "tripped" over the rubbish bin making quite a racket...which shocked me, which made me rush out.. and saw the whole gang. anyways~ thanks alot guys. and my rockstar cell leader who drove all thy way down from joondalup..haha. much appreciated. then headed to little creatures for some fellowshipping and nice pale ales.... good time out together. then the day didnt end there, well, they came back to my place for bridge and poker.. haha... but i didnt join though. was quite zonked and fell asleep soon after. haha.
but came back and was greeted by a few sms-es from ppl back home~ was quite surprised by a few of those who remembered..really sweet..lovely surprise of cos. lovee and miss you all heaps!
then on the actual day, went for lunch with adrian~ yo brother, thanks for ur company~ aha. enjoyed myself. next time come over my place ah, before i get busy. haha. whip up a meal for u =p
then li-chan and josh came over for dinner and DVDs...and together with dubdub, we watched heaps of k-clips and MVs which lasted till 230am. good fun and laughter~
milerrbieuuuuuuu called too~ which was quite a highlight of the day. haha. honestly, i cant remember when was the last time i've chatted on the phone. haha.. im like really very passive kind. can't be bothered to call no matter how much i miss someone...so yeah. thanks for calling. haha. i enjoyed the chat with u muchos muchos. love!
hmm yeah..all in all..enjoyed myself heaps. Thank God for everything and everyone really.
ermz, photos will be up soon~
Petrina moved in finally! ahha. on my bday somemore ah. loL..anyway welcome to X Ballater Heights! ahah... lets get high on timtams together...then go jog together. loL. *huggs
Monday, July 09, 2007
9th July 2007.
officially started work today. spent the day in library with suli. progress quite slow on my side, but well at least i've got my engine warmed up today.. don't think the library's a very conducive place to study though...quite noisy, but the noise level not as bad during the semester. so i might rethink where i'll mug for the rest of the hols..
so then, just got off the phone with my mum. miss her so much. suddenly wish i can spend my birthday with her. .......sigh, what a year it has been. i am not feeling good at all now. don't know what to look forward to anymore. don't know why i am where i am now, don't know why i'm doing what i'm doing now. i seem to be living and doing things now just to fulfil responsibilities. responsibilities after responsibilities to fulfil. i can't find the passion in my work anymore, nor in life itself. and i am getting really really tired.
anyway, this is not a suicidal note!
edit:
feeling better now. God's gentle reminder of my purpose in life.
aha..after I read Ps Eugene's and Ee Jay's blog.
serve to live, and live to serve. and to cultivate a lifestyle that chooses to bless. :)
Thank God for these wonderful people.. :)
so then, just got off the phone with my mum. miss her so much. suddenly wish i can spend my birthday with her. .......sigh, what a year it has been. i am not feeling good at all now. don't know what to look forward to anymore. don't know why i am where i am now, don't know why i'm doing what i'm doing now. i seem to be living and doing things now just to fulfil responsibilities. responsibilities after responsibilities to fulfil. i can't find the passion in my work anymore, nor in life itself. and i am getting really really tired.
anyway, this is not a suicidal note!
edit:
feeling better now. God's gentle reminder of my purpose in life.
aha..after I read Ps Eugene's and Ee Jay's blog.
serve to live, and live to serve. and to cultivate a lifestyle that chooses to bless. :)
Thank God for these wonderful people.. :)
Saturday, July 07, 2007
Friday, July 06, 2007
perth.
okay so im back in perth. not as cold as i thought it would be. which is very good. i hope it stays like that. nothing exciting going on here, as usual. been doing abit of cleaning and vacumming, went over to li-chan's for dinner, she cooked yummy jap curry, then the next day she came over to my place and i cooked her some turkey with celery dish. haha. sounds weird but taste good okayyyyy. cooked with love, tears, sweat and blood. haha. well technically li-chan teared cos she cut the onion...hmm..thats after i cut myself with scissors..and bled profusely. loL. okay not so drama mama....but it did bleed for quite awhile. heh.. then it was HK drama all the way......
tonight it was dinner at hans cafe with li-chan and dubbers. apparently standard there dropped...pad thai not as good as before. but still...okay lar. caught shrek 3 after that. was okayy too...not as good as 1 and 2. but not as disappointing as pirates of the caribbean 3 which was plain lousy.
yet to start any work..i think i'll give myself a mini break this week. will start work next monday. haha. li-chan..ur my inspiration..haha...word count at 100 for ur thesis. woohoo. loL...currently mine stands at ZEEROH. we've gotta buck up~ haha. cannot kancheong though. im sure we'll do well.........aha..
so hmm.....Michael's coming on the 16th. quite excited at that thought. good old pal from secondary school days. wonder how much he's changed. from our msn conversations...seems like he hasnt changed much. haha.. well..will see. oh and it seems he likes photography too. which is good. i've brought my tripod back from singapore..can bring him out abit and shun bian try get some nice scenic shots...haha
and on the 16th..mums going for her 2nd checkup...hope whoever's reading this blog...will help me keep her in prayers too..
okay...hmm, nothing much to update for now. im going back to my HK serials.
p/s: congrats on convocation darling! hardwork of 5years paid off eh.. and dun get any thinner than this. very chio already lar. haha. eat more. =)
tonight it was dinner at hans cafe with li-chan and dubbers. apparently standard there dropped...pad thai not as good as before. but still...okay lar. caught shrek 3 after that. was okayy too...not as good as 1 and 2. but not as disappointing as pirates of the caribbean 3 which was plain lousy.
yet to start any work..i think i'll give myself a mini break this week. will start work next monday. haha. li-chan..ur my inspiration..haha...word count at 100 for ur thesis. woohoo. loL...currently mine stands at ZEEROH. we've gotta buck up~ haha. cannot kancheong though. im sure we'll do well.........aha..
so hmm.....Michael's coming on the 16th. quite excited at that thought. good old pal from secondary school days. wonder how much he's changed. from our msn conversations...seems like he hasnt changed much. haha.. well..will see. oh and it seems he likes photography too. which is good. i've brought my tripod back from singapore..can bring him out abit and shun bian try get some nice scenic shots...haha
and on the 16th..mums going for her 2nd checkup...hope whoever's reading this blog...will help me keep her in prayers too..
okay...hmm, nothing much to update for now. im going back to my HK serials.
p/s: congrats on convocation darling! hardwork of 5years paid off eh.. and dun get any thinner than this. very chio already lar. haha. eat more. =)
Friday, June 29, 2007
breakfast
yeaps. they hav rice for breakky too. had it for abt one to two days..then decided to jus go for crackers and coffee.
dinner
typical dinner. cooked by my host family's mum. rice and beans are staple. everyyyyday also must have. had fried bananas almost everyday too. then sometimes its spaghetti, or abit of meat. NO VEGETABLE! woe is me.
treehouse
there's a treehouse near my working place. very nice place to just rest, relax..read a book and watch sunset. good for an afternoon siesta too. haha. theres a hammock there. very nice. spent many afternoons on the tree house alone reading, writing postcards and stuffs. wld then head back to my host family's place for dinner, mingle around with them..and head back to the beach for my night shifts.
training.
first day at playa ostional. had our briefing and training on site. check out those baby leatherbacks. super adorable. then we sculpted a massive leatherback. haha..how cool is that. used that for training. bottom right of the collage is Yaiza (project supervisor) demonstrating how we should place the bag into the hole/nest just before the turtles lay their eggs. we'll collect leatherback's egg then relocate it in the hatchery that we build.
realised i had more photos from costa rica in another memory card. heh.. that was before my camera went kapuut. first day in costa rica, Heredia. see the look on my face, quite excited with my plate of rice, beans and greens. aha...now now, we all know that look wldnt last long.... we ate at this place called Mr Burgers. they had a wide array of food. from burgers, fish and chips, to their own traditional rice and dishes. had a really hard time asking what each dish was...... in the end i jus chose beans n veges. was really yummu. loL. some of my friends actually went for maccas in costa rica. crazy. so anyway, they had very interesting fruit juices. tried to ask wat those were, but i jus cldnt understand a word they said. haha..but most of the costa ricans are very friendly and hospitable. loL..in the end, they asked me to just go ahead and try every drink for free. haaha. they were probably half exasperated, half amused.
The Caribbean
Costa rica has 2 coastlines (pacific/caribbean). I worked at pacific side where the beaches all have black volcanic sand. after my 2 week stint at the pacific...white sandy beaches at caribbean was such a treat.
Saturday, June 23, 2007
Thursday, June 21, 2007
got my vaio back. after doing some software upgrades the spasms stopped. but cost me $60+ cos i lost my warranty card (the model is out for less than a year loh.. confirm still under warranty mah..but that person INSISTED that i still must have a receipt to prove...dunno prove wat la. v kuku)..they dont even know for how long their own product is out ah? but i cant be bothered to argue. zz.
then cos i forgot to bring my vaio's adapter back from perth, had to buy one when i went to collect after servicing was done..that guy who served me gave me the right adapter, but wrong wires to connect to the socket. super ugh la......its my fault that i didnt check, but i truuuuuuuuuusted him mah. so then, today down i went to wisma atria again jus to change that wire.....even though i drive, but still...wahliao..parking not cheap leh.
BUT BUT BUT...nevermind...these few days i've had my mum with me. drove down to send my laptop for repair...another trip to collect laptop... and anoooooooooother trip to change that wire. so then...it was good quality time. had lunch, talked...and she bought me quite abit of stuff. heh... ermz..included in the stuff is a wallet (cos i lost mine at impact camp..so then i've been stuffing and throwing my notes and coins ard, and always going out realising i nv bring money alot of times.) yes anyway..the wallet...err..wldnt even call it a wallet..its not flat and compact like i always want mine to be..so wats it...purse!?...err.....i dunno. its girly with a coin pouch. zzz. but she insisted its nice and 'good to use'. so anyway...okay we bought it. and im using it now. maybe i'll grow to love it. but anyway its a gift from mum. love the giver and not the gift. haha. its okay.
then abt 7ish pastor yp with her 2 beautiful princess and mirabel came over to my place. really touched by their concern and the effort they took in coming just to catch up with me and talk to my mum. well basically pastor was talking to my mum...while i was talking to mirabel, at the same time enjoying the noodles that dear mirabel bought for me (hehe..but sorry i couldnt finish it) was really yummy though~! anyway was really assured of God's love once again through them....even though through the semester, God has been really close and been speaking to me, but still its just really reallyreally awesome when He sends someone to affirm, of who i am in Him and alot alot of other stuffs...reminding me that im not meant to be alone. and really wat a wonderful spiritual family i have. Ps YP and Mirabel~ I LOVE U BOTH HEAPS!
so then ps yp left earlier with her 2 princesses...and i caught up with mirabel till abt 12ish and then sent her home after.
so anyway.. wats the point of this post. haha..just to say im really superbly thankful (independent of watever circumstances and situations) but only and only becos HE is such a wonderful God, awesome awesome awesome God. and it has been an awesome day.
*sings This is the day, this is the day, that the Lord has made, that the Lord has made..I will rejoice, I rejoice and be glad in it and be glad in it~!
Psalm 118 comes to mind =)
then cos i forgot to bring my vaio's adapter back from perth, had to buy one when i went to collect after servicing was done..that guy who served me gave me the right adapter, but wrong wires to connect to the socket. super ugh la......its my fault that i didnt check, but i truuuuuuuuuusted him mah. so then, today down i went to wisma atria again jus to change that wire.....even though i drive, but still...wahliao..parking not cheap leh.
BUT BUT BUT...nevermind...these few days i've had my mum with me. drove down to send my laptop for repair...another trip to collect laptop... and anoooooooooother trip to change that wire. so then...it was good quality time. had lunch, talked...and she bought me quite abit of stuff. heh... ermz..included in the stuff is a wallet (cos i lost mine at impact camp..so then i've been stuffing and throwing my notes and coins ard, and always going out realising i nv bring money alot of times.) yes anyway..the wallet...err..wldnt even call it a wallet..its not flat and compact like i always want mine to be..so wats it...purse!?...err.....i dunno. its girly with a coin pouch. zzz. but she insisted its nice and 'good to use'. so anyway...okay we bought it. and im using it now. maybe i'll grow to love it. but anyway its a gift from mum. love the giver and not the gift. haha. its okay.
then abt 7ish pastor yp with her 2 beautiful princess and mirabel came over to my place. really touched by their concern and the effort they took in coming just to catch up with me and talk to my mum. well basically pastor was talking to my mum...while i was talking to mirabel, at the same time enjoying the noodles that dear mirabel bought for me (hehe..but sorry i couldnt finish it) was really yummy though~! anyway was really assured of God's love once again through them....even though through the semester, God has been really close and been speaking to me, but still its just really reallyreally awesome when He sends someone to affirm, of who i am in Him and alot alot of other stuffs...reminding me that im not meant to be alone. and really wat a wonderful spiritual family i have. Ps YP and Mirabel~ I LOVE U BOTH HEAPS!
so then ps yp left earlier with her 2 princesses...and i caught up with mirabel till abt 12ish and then sent her home after.
so anyway.. wats the point of this post. haha..just to say im really superbly thankful (independent of watever circumstances and situations) but only and only becos HE is such a wonderful God, awesome awesome awesome God. and it has been an awesome day.
*sings This is the day, this is the day, that the Lord has made, that the Lord has made..I will rejoice, I rejoice and be glad in it and be glad in it~!
Psalm 118 comes to mind =)
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