God is glorified when my heart is satisfied

"Integrity is the glue that holds our way of life together"

talking about FINES......suddenly thought of posting another entry.
Quite sometime back was talking about my 'series of unfortunate events'. First I had aunty pei calling to tell me amidst all my stress that I got a $350 fine with 6 demerit points, but before she told me, i actuallie knew i got caught on speeding camera at southstreet already. then it was like..wah....once i tio 12 demerit points, my driving license wld get revoked le... Wen actually said he wld help me take the 6 demerit points since it was his car that i drove, and also cos he's going back SG to serve NS soon....so deducting 6 points probably wldnt matter much to him. on the other hand if the southstreet fine i got another 6 points....i wld hav to say byebye not only to my car license...guess gotta sell off my car already also....

but then the sunday before this happened, pastor preached on INTEGRITY...and right at that moment when i was faced with the decision, i just felt....okz, in a dilemna alrady....cos my parents are most prob going to kill me if i had to sell off the car and stuffs and it wld be super troublesome without a car here.. wldnt hurt wen anyway since he already suggested helping me....but then it just didn't felt right..and i reckon it wasnt just by chance that pastor had to preach on integrity that very sunday...felt that God is already speaking~ so i had to grit my teeth, and reject the offer by wen..... was thinking wait till the other notice reach, then i'll call my mum and tell her the news..

But really PRAISE GOD....He really honoured the decision i made. the southstreet notice came..and i got only 3 demerits points for that~ *PHEWZ* scraped through again...din hav to sell off my car, dun hav to go thru the process of breaking all these news to my parents...and tmr i can still drive down to campsite...haa......thank GOd! but of cos, i still gotta bear the consequences of having to pay $500 in total! I promise im not going to speed again~~ lolz

Praise God....God is good all the time, and all the time God is good. Amen.

shall end now with this:
Dr. Billy Graham emphasized that "Integrity is the glue that holds our way of life together". He encouraged Christians to strive to keep our integrity intact because if this quality is embraced and in place, other character traits such as loyalty, diligence and good work ethics will follow.

Shopping - GOOD INVESTMENTS

yesterday did quite abit of shopping with Joey and YJ at koorong...spent $85.36. should be quite worth it..hee...one of the better investments i had for quite sometime i think...keke. bought a life application bible, bible dictionary, 2 other christian books, 1 poster and 1 car decal....hee...wah....then met some of the ppl from YA cell, pooled resources and got a 20% discount...if not gotta spend more~ spent quite a good time browsing at books and stuffs...tho i guess at dinner time, most of us were hungry....had to go off for dinner...if not i think not enuf time spent there lei....prefer browsing around in bookstores more than shopping...shopping really bores me, unless i hav something to buy. actuallie really love reading....but cldnt really afford the time during school term. guess im those kind of person who really dunno how to relax when facing stress...gotta learn. always thought that if i hav the time, wld rather pick up my unit readers, textbooks, search for more articles and jus mug..cant enjoy other books at that time also. now that its the hols.....no more heavy load, totally enjoy immersing myself in books...and of cos during this period of time, really jus wanna enjoy more time spending alone with Him, feeling His sweet sweet presence...

went dinner at saigon, food there not bad...oh that reminds me, still owe joey money for that meal....cos when its time to pay.....I RAN OFF~ lOl......no la...haa..went to buy bubble tea with Eu Lynn and YJ. hmm, poor YJ, got new car, got slapped with a $100 parking fine yesterday....actually i jus wanted to scare her, in the end realise there's really a parking fine there...*ops....anyway i gotta pay my busselton $350 fine today la....jus got it yesterday before i went out~ *sigh...........$500 *heartache. YJ was saying..with the fine I paid, can buy more than half of her car already... think i shld jus sell off my car and get a bicycle instead..if not i'll go broke soon. everyday gotta eat bread in future....

okz yippee...tmr im gg to FCC camp..so guess wldnt be updating this for quite sometime already, cos after camp, i'll be back for a day....den 30th - HELLO SYDNEY, HILLSONG CONFERENCE HERE I COME! wooohhooooooooooo!

after exams

Its been 2 days after my last paper...hee~ finally...this hectic semester is over. first paper i had was tough for me, made loads of careless mistakes as well~ but well put that behind me....continued to study harder for my 2nd paper..the one where i had to prepare 8 essays...God really super duper blessed me to the max on this..... cos i had to prepare 8, then 4 would come out during the exams, i had to do 3...got quite worried cos there was so much concepts to remember...so much details and stuffs to memorise.......in the end i prepared 7, focused on 4 and jus drilled those 4 into my mind.....den during exams, when i had the first glance at the questions, jus cant help smiling n really thank God at that exact same moment...all four that i focused on, came out for the exams! before that i was still worried like..wat if the other 4 that i did not prepare well came out...den i wld be goner........but *PHEWZ* big big big sigh of relieve......2hours paper, went on writing at full speed non-stop...hands nearly cramp.....but wah....it was worth it man...

anyway now its time to chill.....last 2 days...packed my room, vacumm every nook n cranny...went and watch 'Mr and Mrs Smith' with amanda and Gabz....crap show........bleah. if i knew it wld hav jus watched madasgascar.

today tried to practice playing abit of guitar...borrowed it from joey...think i wanna get back SG and get an acoustic guitar....wanna learn lei..strum and worship abit at my own time....if i played better, really wldnt mind helping out in cell.

cooked porridge for lunch and dinner today....sigh, its been such a long time since i last cooked, and when i took a look at my sack of rice...from a 10KG pack...im left with onli less than a bowl!.....i really dun understand why my housemates hav to do tis kinda thing....den i checked, my oyster sauce also gone liow......even the bottle also gone. really dunno wat to do with this kinda housemates leiiiii.....dunno wat else missing man.........cannot recall wat i had in the 1st place anyway....until i hav the need for it...but oh well.... dunno how to handle this issue...dun wanna argue with them, asked them they denied also....dun wanna brew more trouble la...also dun wanna spoil my mood..its hols now!......maybe i can choose to think my oyster sauce and rice jus evaporated. sighh....

think im going to move house soon la....Deb says her housemate moving off, maybe i'll jus move in with her, wish i cld be housemates with her again...she's the best housemate i have since i reached perth. super neat and tidy person..can cook well also..haa....confirm no problem if i stay with her man.....maybe somedays when she's in the mood to bake cake...i still can hav a nibble. lOl.....so pray pray i got a place to stay la.......but i still hav bond in this house lei....gotta bring tis to my landlord's attention soon. anyway they're jus money grabbing a**h****....always wanna collect rent earlier.....then if house has any problem, and u told him abt it...he'll say "there's nothing we cld do abt it"..then giv u tat kinda fake smile........ sianz.

now im so super duper looking forward to the FCC camp...and HILLSONG CONFERENCE!!! then soon after i'll be back in SG to meet my beloved frenz....haa~! hmm....i got my viewcam over....but then today i realise it dun seem to be working lei...like spoil liow..wah abit sad. dunno wat happened to it.....

ohhhhhhhh welll............nothing's gonna bring me down now...shall keep myself cheerful. =)

bonkers

my mind is totally saturated with heaps of psychological definitions, terms, explanations...endless psychological theories..grand theories, theories that support each other's claims and worst of all, conflicting theories...........blah~ maxed out.

What makes something a science is not WHAT is studied, but HOW it is studied. Did not know that psychology is so scientific... came to know only after i started on it. sigh. what makes it tougher is that, its so difficult to control for validity and reliability of the study, because of pre-existing differences in human. People differ genetically, on personality, character, moulded differently by different environment, social life...upbringing....and how can we forget abt the ever controversial topic of nature vs nurture...... it's much more complex for a scientist/psychologist to study human, than for a scientist to study whales in the ocean. at least the mindset of a whale aint that complex and varied...... (correct me if im wrong).


The modern method of science is most profound in its simplicity; in fact the beauty of this simplicity is the foundation of its profoundness. Yet is this the most optimal method available to mankind in its quest to unravel nature?


theories theories theories....................oh well, back to mugging. did i mention........im going bonkers already~~~ after reading through the never ending acticles, textbooks, lecture notes, supplementary books from library.... wonder how much information had actually been retained. but i guess retained enough of what i've learnt to write all these crap....

A B C's to live by

Although things are not perfect

Because of trial or pain

Continue in thanksgiving

Do not begin to blame

Even when the times are hard

Fierce winds are bound to blow

God is forever able

Hold on to what you know

Imagine life without His love

Joy would cease to be

Keep thanking Him for all the things

Love imparts to thee

Move out of "Camp Complaining"

No weapon that is known

On earth can yield the power

Praise can do alone

Quit looking at the future

Redeem the time at hand

Start every day with worship

To "thank" is a command

Until we see Him coming

Victorious in the sky

We'll run the race with gratitude

Xalting God most high

Yes, there'll be good times and yes some will be bad, but...

Zion waits in glory...where none are ever sad!"

I AM Too blessed to be stressed!"

The shortest distance between a problem and a solution is the distance between your knees and the floor.

The one who kneels to the Lord can stand up to anything.

Love and peace be with you forever, Amen.

when the going gets tough, the tough gets goin!

hmm okz la..not as tough as the title sounds.... been busy and stressed these few days. out studying with suli and debbie whole day...at least made progress with my essay question preparations. out of the 8..hav summarised 4........but ermz, yet to do any memorisation n stuffs. -_-"

anyway, forced to cure myself of OCD for checking emails...msning....when im out..haa....
brain abit dead now..reached saturation point....... why am i still up here then? hmm.....OCD i guess...........

yeah.....stormy night again..shall go snuggle in bed now. ciaoz.

series of u n f o r t u n a t e event

sigh! altho this might not be the unluckiest day i've ever been thru...but it jus seems like so many situations are trying to pull me down.. firstly, am still trying very hard not to think abt some personal problems that im struggling with, 2ndly, trying real hard to focus on exams, thirdly, woke up this morn to realise there was this power surge thing, laptap and all other electrical appliances were not working (thot for a moment, shit...there goes my labtop..which is a freaking scary thot...)...had to find the whole damn house for the main switch (which was actuallie located in the garage)...den aunty pei called to tell me, i've been slapped with a $350 speeding fine when we went busselton (whereby i onli drove a freaking hour for the whole damn 3-day trip, on the way back somemore). AND im still awaiting another speeding fine to arrive that i got on southstreet~ so that might amount to maybe $600 worth of fine!!!? AND deduction of points. to top this all up...im still having a freaking sore throat now....

now i gotta pretend as if nothing happen......and jus focus on the damned exams............

double irritation! argh!

wat an unproductive day...had been TRYING to study...im falling sick! help...~~ *sobs... my throat is killing me...and some how the pain got to my right ear as well....so both my throat n ear are killing me...double irritation. plus this rainy weather's making me real sleepy....jus feel like snuggling in bed. pray doubly doubly hard.........oh God dun let me fall sick now!

hmmm.........wonder if ice-cream's gonna help with my condition....

-_-"

Human learning?

The funny circle of human learning:

reality --> simplified theoretical framework --> complex theoretical framework --> more complex theoretical framework --> ........ --> reality

in between: life has passed

effective work done: zero

Letter to a fool

Dear Fool,

I saw you yesterday as you began your daily chores. You awoke without praying. As a matter of fact, you didn't even bless your meals or pray before going to bed last night. You are so unthankful. I like that about you! I cannot tell you how glad I am that you have not changed your way of living. Fool, you are mine. As a matter of fact, I hate you, because I hate God. I am only using you to get even with God. He kicked me out of heaven and I'm going to use you as long as possible to pay Him back.

You see, Fool, GOD LOVES YOU and HE has great plans in store for you. But you have yielded your life to me and I'm going to make your life a living hell.. This will really hurt God, thanks to you. I'm really showing Him who's boss in your life. We have been watching dirty movies, cursing people out, partying, stealing, lying, being hypocritical, fornicating, overeating, telling dirty jokes, gossiping, back-stabbing people and disrespecting those in leadership positions.

NO respect for the church, bad attitudes... Come on, Fool, let's burn together forever. I've got some hot plans for us. You are so gullible, I laugh at you. When you are tempted to sin, you give in. HA, HA, HA! You make me sick. Sin is beginning to take its toll on your life.


Well, Fool, I have to let you go for now. I'll be back in a couple of seconds to tempt you again. If you were smart, you would run somewhere, confess your sins, live for God with what little bit of life that you have left. It's not my nature to warn anyone, but to be your age and still sinning, it's becoming a bit ridiculous. Don't get me wrong, I still hate you... It's just that you'd make a better fool for Christ.

Your partner in crime,
SATAN

This semester has been a trying period for me, but indeed, it is through all these obstacles and storms that God moulds our character, and thru all these that God's greatness, mercy and His faithfulness become really evident..

This semester seemed especially tough, but somehow or other, managed to maintain the kind of results that i've always wanted. Praise God for that...

my lab report was actually handed over to program chair cos of plagiarism, felt lousy to the max when i knew about this, cos i felt i've let external factors affect my focus on work, handed in sloppishly, did not bother to take a 2nd look at it and stuffs..... plus i had other problems which really brought my morale and self-esteem down to the lowest point.....i thought to myself, oh great...plagiarism for the unit that's gonna be a pre-requisite to all other units that i wld be taking next semester....im gonna fail and stuffs......then i really felt terrible at that point, cos i seem to fail at almost all aspects of my life... but then after all these negatives thoughts, i began to pray, and submit all to God, if all these should happen and that I would really fail, I'll humble myself to accept the failure, and continue to work harder, for by faith, everything would fall in place as long as I seek Him, cos i believe He promises rain in the desert for those who seek Him with all their hearts.. James 1:2 Consider it all joy when you encounter various trials knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance, and let endurance has it's perfect result, that you may become perfect and complete, lacking in nothing. I WILL continue to hav faith in Him, for He is greater than any problems that I'll ever meet...If God is able to bring me to a situation, He'll definitely see me through it.... and He'll never let me bear more than i can take.. all those that i've been through, i believe are just setbacks, and NOT failures...and I'll learn to persevere to the end.

.....i went to see the program chair, and thank God....she actually said i did quite a good job with my lab report, jus a few details i had to take note and be careful about...did not penalise me nor asked me redo my assignment, even gave me distinction for it.....felt so super thankful and relieved.

but well, not a time to be complacent, for what's considered excellence yesterday, wld jus be mediocre tomorrow.. and I pray that I'll continue to hav a humble heart and look to Him always, in ALL situations...continue to pray for faith to reach a new and higher level...

He is the alpha and the omega, the author of my life and destiny, He has seen it all and He says ALL things happened for the good of those who love Him.

Just as He promised,

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

When I Say..."I am a Christian"

When I say..."I am a Christian"

I'm not shouting "I am saved"

I'm whispering "I get lost!"

"That is why I chose this way."

When I say..."I am a Christian"

I don't speak of this with pride.

I'm confessing that I stumble

and need someone to be my guide.

When I say..."I am a Christian"

I'm not trying to be strong.

I'm professing that I'm weak

and pray for strength to carry on.

When I say..."I am a Christian"

I'm not bragging of success.

I'm admitting I have failed

and cannot ever pay the debt.

When I say..."I am a Christian"

I'm not claiming to be perfect,

my flaws are too visible but

God believes I'm worth it.

When I say..."I am a Christian"

I still feel the sting of pain

I have my share of heartaches

which is why I seek His name.

When I say..."I am a Christian"

I do not wish to judge.

I have no authority.

I only know I'm loved.