how apt to chance upon this quote..something i've always believed in, and live by.

"True friendship can afford true knowledge. It does not depend on darkness and ignorance." -Henry David Thoreau

so anyway..heres a few more to end the day....

"An age is called Dark, not because the light fails to shine, but because people refuse to see it."
"A long habit of not thinking a thing wrong gives it a superficial appearance of being right."
"To be ignorant of one's ignorance is the malady of the ignorant."

wah, hungry. i feel hunger again. amazing.
ate seafood tomyum noodle soup for dinner just now.. and i actually finished it. cant recall when was the last time i finished a bowl/plate of anything whenever i eat outside liow. either i had no appetite..or i jus share and nibble something. im craving for muffins now~ again again again..... love the blueberry muffins from starbucks~ okay, shall stop thinking abt food liao.. gonna watch drama, and be one with my bed.

just got home. damn tired. dunno why. oh yah..think didnt sleep too well last night, plus i woke rather early today.

went PS to watch Yes Man starring Jim Carrey. used to be my favourite place to catch movies. its been awhile since i stepped into theatres also. and wahliews...155pm, din noe will hav so much ppl... shld hav did internet booking. but heng still can get 4th row to the front la..not too bad. and anyway, wat an apt timing to catch this show. sighs. tsk.. a n y w a y, slapstick comedy, enjoyed it... rather hilarious, good one. quite in a shopping mood of late too, got myself a pair of shoes from DMK, and a gift for my mum. a random gift..not exactly a belated bday gift, maybe jus sthg to surprise her, and to kickstart a good year for her. then saw this fossil watch that i really like also..but hmm...$124 after discount..din feel rich enuf to geddit. owells.

wat else... actually by now, i think u can realise (or not) from my tone that...im jus really tired, i dun feel like moving....and im procrastinating stepping into the bath room.

finally visited my ex-colleague and her baby~ so cute. i want one too.. two..three..... haha. the baby's rather big for a near 2mth old baby. hope he grows up healthy and be a sensible nice young man. haa. and quite nice catching up with my 2 ex-colleagues also. oh how time flies..haa. can still vividly recall when they interviewed me for my job at DAS.

*yawns* aish.............i shld go bathe. loL.. boo.

no more mind games.

just wanna let out a big S I G H.

somehow sad, because there is no point in feeling sad anymore. becos, i am not sad anymore.

it saddens to know and expose. but there's no point in that facade.
deep down, i'd like to believe in you, and think otherwise about what has happened since day o n e. but i'm really not sure anymore. anything, that is built on (or, using) deception, is bound to go into ruins.

sorry you insisted on that path, rather than salvaging something genuine and whole, and what i once thought worthwhile.

somehow, this quote came to mind:
"in death, we live behind everything we have, but we take with us everything that we are"

love, and peace out.

OMGOSH !!

I AM REALLY REALLY REALLY HAPPY TODAY! *happy tears*
feel like screaming ~!

i cant share WHY here, sorry! but, share my joy will u? loL..

December's a really good month~ lets hope its a foretaste of wat 2009's gonna be! wheeeeeeee!!

glorious foooD~

does half a day of blading (and screaming and siam-ing) do any justice? loL...someone do the math. i know i JUST recovered...wahahaha. MUST try the salted vege and duck soup from ECP hawker centre. DAMN SHIOK !! good recommendation! *pat on the back* or does food naturally taste better with good company? :p

niteyz nites. i am bushed!

Chiqui says...

hokay~ stay tuned for more peeks~

really gotta go~ ciaoz!

peek-a-boos~

wat i got from gift exchange, hahah! according to sugardaddy, these from VS cost $80+.. loL~ okla, solli for suan-ing u kob this from hotel toilet~ loL, oh hoho i've another voucher from the cocoa tree. muahaha.

:D

Christmas tree and big screen! sets the mood right !

happy with gifts? heh

US! :)

sunshine !

nice cloudy afternoon. hehe.. hmm, but im feeling sunshiny~ :p (as u can see from the rather random blog title...HAHA)

first thing's first, mummy's bday today~~ hee, no, mummy does not check my blog..loL~ mummy's my hero~ i love my mummyy!! heh~ okay.. she seems rather chirpy today also. good good, my prayer is that she stay healthy and happy, free from all physical and emotional stress and pain. anyone reading this, please pray along with me for her today on her special day yeah ? thank u thank u :p

and also, my misery has ended, wahaha. my voice is back! *RAWRRS* hehhe.. guai guai de finish my medication le. so i can be rewarded with abit of choc and ice-cream le *GRINS*~ weee~ yes? no? keke... i can end this year with a healthy and sound body. 3 cheers! hehe~

im getting excited abt the upcoming year! gonna see many changes~ heh, and i received my long-awaited letter!! boo to *ahems* efficiency level...but yays to finally receiving it ! haha! i think some of u will laugh until peng when i tell u abt the contents of THE letter. yes, effect has been tried and tested. so who's in a down mood, want to laugh? giv me a call. HAhaha..

okay okay~ share more in person~ no time to sit infront n blog today. keke! byeeeeeeee all!

Life is Wonderful

by Jason Mraz

It takes a thought to make a word

And it takes some words to make an action

And it takes some work to make it work

It takes some good to make it hurt

It takes some bad for satisfaction

Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful

Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle

Ah la la la la life is wonderful

Ah la la la la la

It takes a night to make it dawn

And it takes a day to make you yawn brother

And it takes some old to make you young

It takes some cold to know the sun

It takes the one to have the other

And it takes no time to fall in love

But it takes you years to know what love is

And it takes some fears to make you trust

It takes some tears to make it rust

It takes the rust to have it polished

Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful

Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle

Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful

Ah la la la la

It takes some silence to make sound

And it takes a loss before you found it

And it takes a road to go nowhere

It takes a toll to make you care

It takes a hole to make a mountain

dreadfully sick during the supposedly best week of the year? who'd expect~ haven't fell sick for quite sometime le, seems like my body's signalling that i should slow down slow down...take year end slow. on hindsight, a recurring theme for me in 2008 seems to be 'fast-in-fast-out' in virtually all aspects imaginable.... definitely, not one of my favourites. thats some tough shit.

i've much to say, but i just cant get my thoughts organised now. think im running a fever, my throat's super inflammed, my phelm's seems thick enough to stack a brick wall, theres blood in my spit- no wait, my spit IS blood, my head and back and shoulders hurt, my nose is blocked, and theres this occasional ringing in my ear. gah. i cant even utter a single word. its painful to even swallow my saliva.. i get the idea, i get the idea..i need to visit a doc. its 6am now, great..how long more do i hafta wait. the worst part is, i cant drink coffee while waiting! ~ ahhhhh... sians !

crawling back to bed.

WAHAHA!

lOL~ my first attempt! I DON'T CARE- better support! finish the crumbs, i can handle the strawberries! haha! :p

i think the lack of whipped cream makes it look kinda weird uh?? goin' healthy! gaH! haha~

Wishing all an early Merry Christmas !! Happy hols ! *skippy skips* :D

saw this at tang's in vivo jus now! super duper wanna get it~ the cow design one so cute right right right !? then then then...makes 2 cuppa~ jus niceee!! shld i shld i shld i !? haha...cappucino maker~~ ooH lovely~ boo hoo !! i shld go back vivo again sometime soon ............... sighs !! not cheap ! cost abt $100++ ~ evil!! but one look at it, and u noe its Jing's kinda thing u noe~ its a cow design too!! heh.. :s then i wanna get my french press also havent get~ tsk !

hee i got myself a mini piggy frying pan. lOL....gonna try and fry a pig-headed sunny side up. heh..and also some cute stirrers. gaH~! my mukka express............. craveeeeeeee !

ooH realise i havent been shopping for quite sometime le..saw some really cooL and funkeh stuffs jus now.. then theres this cool national geographic shop that jus opened at vivo! first thing we saw once we went up the escalator~ loveee it~ lotsa photos~ i can only dream someday, my shots will be placed along those in the gallery. keke.

hmm, heh...so today, i've got 4 russell peter video clips! im gonna enjoy one now. haa... ! thankies doodleyy dooo!

narcissistic moment.

attempting a shot with my ever playful chiqui.

more ai swee than her owner !!

BUAY TAHAN AH!

i loveee her to bits !! haha !

ok poks, i really shouldnt be infront of this screen at this hour when im not feeling very well..byebye...i go be infront of the other screen now. HAHA

大家晚安

still cant get those chords and strumming right. so awkward when i change the chords, and the timing all went haywire when i try to sing and strum at the same time. loL~ poo-ey~ practice practice practice~ need alot of self-discipline, patience, practice and perseverance. no wonder theres a positive correlation between music participation and academic achievement. im guessing its not just the result of one's musical and intellectual capacities, but also an interplay of those traits that endures. of cos, in everything that one does..lets not forget about the intrinsic motivation that does wonders. heh..interest and passion ! though it gets a lil frustrating at times trying to get those chords right, and on time, im definitely enjoying the process. therapeutic i'd say. heh. its guitar for now, but i'd wanna pickup piano after i start receiving a steady income.

there're so many things i wanna learn and do !!!!!

wanderlust-ing

yumms! (:

quite a number of frens went Japan this year uh~ whens my turn!!? hee..but i obviously havent missed out on the goodies..keke... been wanting to re-visit Hokkaido and other parts as well~ owell~! lets hope i can plan one soon. wonder if its feasible to go next year. hmmm..

travel travel travel~~ thats wat i love to do! uh-huh uh-huhh. loL :P

靖生病了 :(

sigh

乖乖去休息了

boo !

all i want for christmas is .......................................

besties at gastrobar~ ! (:

not complete though ):

will plan one sooOOnish :D

heh..check yr inbox regularly for updates on Operation Geek PArtayyy..amidst a G12 classified email... *whistles*

hello sugardaddy! loL

finally smiling; happy with her iphone.

desperado, caught in the act.

lets jus say..she was under influence of alcohol. haha.

constipated peek before i sign off !

cheers !! let the good times roll~!

:D

tickets!

talk abt randomness~ :D excellent alternative to the usual chillout at some coffee joint post-dinner. 2nd trip to night safari..technically would count it as the 1st la. cos i din actually do a proper tour the 1st time round- too damn tired after a whole nite of cycling. ooH, that being said, both times that i went, was absolutely unplanned and random! iloverandomness! what prompted this again? i cant remember, very pleasantly surprising suggestion..heh, always feels good to be close to nature. i've been wanting to go to the zoo again woh..hmm, might do it sometime soon eh...a planned trip this time round..hee, wanna see if i can take some decent shots. loL.. anyway, thanks for the lovely company, the dinner, the night safari outing, and how u insisted on getting the insanely overpriced photo~ i know u jus got ur bonus today...but... loL....thanks anyway! :p i was complaining how short the trail was jus now uh, but rather surprised im kinda bushed now. heh... think might be cos i ate too much the whole day...darn. all the energy channeled to my tumms for digestion~ okay~ GOODNIGHT all!

For some reasons that im not quite sure of, im always excited when i hear the word 'tickets!' This word, must always be followed by an exclamation mark..like TICKETS!! heehe.. hmm i feel like gg for JJ's concert eh, i likey him and his songs.. anyone interested? lets get tickets!! loL... then there's this breakout korean b-boys thingamajig, that im interested in also, hohoho.... we'll see...oh and its been quite sometime since i've been to a musical, any nice ones lately, or comin' up? hmm...budget budget horr, we'll seeeeeeeeeeeeeee. then the ocbc cycle also not cheap! then theres the viet trip~~ hoho... ok la......thoughts and ideas all over the place. bubbye.

just a girl: the last chapter.

dun feel as though i can eat anymore today :s early mac breakfast, followed by lunch with my ex-colleagues at botak jones. im a b s o l u t e l y stuffed. the plan was muthu's curry for dinner? boo. strike that off. actually wanted to giv lunch a miss, but i thought meetup with the psychs would be good, and it was. nice short catch up~ dohz, i left my car key lying ard again...and these cheeky gals had to play a prank on poor me. loL.. they're moving to JP next week..which means everyone's really near to each other now! wooH~

all these aside, the other part of the meetup that i wasnt too keen on, didnt go too badly, well, in my view, it was bad, but it was just as expected. wats new? can never fathom. then again, from the way he ran away from proper closure what more can i expect right? fine, if he cld not muster up enuf courage or had that sense of responsibility in him...but still vaguely recalling how rudely and ungentlemanly-ish he retorted on the last few times we conversed, found it utterly distasteful and was super turned off. don't know wat are my thoughts abt all these now. i bothered too much, why should i bother anymore abt someone who cant be bothered? i mean it didnt help when i was gg thru the rough patch at home right after that.. and foolishly hoping he wld render an outstretch arm when im cooped up and stucked in my hard outer shell, i got a few kicks from him instead, that sent me deeper into hell. not sure if its pure bochupness now or mixed with lil remnants of anger in me. what's a girl supposed to do? seriously? tsk. from the way he chose to deal with things, im not even sure how we're to even meet as friends in future. totally uncool. if there was even a slight attempt to close properly, or to talk things through, wldnt even have been the way it is now. 1 freaking sms to put an end to everything? no matter how forgiving or bochup i can be.. there are just some things a girl can never, and will not tolerate. wadever ler, he has moved on, im on my way too. lets put it this way, i dun hate anymore, neither am i happy or unhappy with whats going on (or not) anymore. jus the way things are in this particular chapter of my life. they say, time heals all wounds, i'd say thats a load of crap. time is but a medium for the wound to heal, time makes u forget but the problem is still there. time would not heal anything- if it didnt force u to go thru a certain process. whether one wants to walk thru the process or not, is a matter of choice, up to the individual. anyway, on my part, i've learnt a few pricey lessons through this. thats abt all that im glad of. nthg more, nthg less.

I'm sure we all have some sense, some kind of definition from past experiences, from the people around, from the novels, from the drama serials, from our hopes and dreams, needs, disappointments and ultimate fears. Love is probably different for all of us, we all should have our unique concept and ideas about this feeling, about this relationship, about this entire notion. So, if everyone has their own ideas, how can two ever get together and fit perfectly, is it possible to have two seeing the same, emphasizing the same, sharing one love? No wonder that one person is... The One. How do you know if he is the one? When do you hold on and when do you loosen your hand for both to go ahead and seek the true one? Will we ever know what's the right thing to do? Haha..anyway, im sure we'll find our 伯樂 soon enough :p

so moving on.. im really lagging behind in my guitar practice this 2 weeks.. im not especially looking fwd to the next lesson cos of that~ :s heh.. i like to go to my lesson ready and prepared to learn new stuffs. its getting tougher with slightly complex strumming n changing of chords. kinda difficult to practice after i get home lately. and now uh...im v sleepy leh. haa..ok no more excuses. think i'll go practice for awhile now.

"愛你的那一個　
傷你的那一個
誰才是你愛情中的伯樂
放棄了這一個　
然後等待著下一個
一個個過客　過得快不快樂
(別太多過客　祝你早日快樂)
離開時別忘了　看看眼前的人"

im rather excited. hee. theres sthg i wanna share badly..but i think its not the right time yet. *inner struggle* heh....okay, cut the dramatic crap. loL.. heeheh...anyway its not concrete yet..so i shall keep u guys in suspense for now :p

yipppeee yay! things seem to be lightening up~~ cheeryy jing!

the other day darling was saying "wah, really very long nv see u so siao and upbeat liow".. i was like "yeah uh..." 迷迷糊糊的 so much has happened, and 不知不觉 i been down for quite a long time. i miss myself too. hehe. hello my lovelies, JING IS BACK!!

festive seasons round the corner~ i can hear the bells jingling, and crackers goin off~ keke... thank you ALL my loveliess for pulling me backkk. muacks.

hokay~ i wanna tuck into me bed now :D

Reyes and Reyanne

sis's mother-in-law, godsister, reyanne and me :)

The War Zone..

Reyanne

Reyes

cute !!!

my nephew and niece's combined bday celebration at toa payoh safra~ total warzone in kids adventure. kids, super cutee and fun to be with.. heh...kinda lazy to blog much these few days..let da pictures do the talking yea..haaha

thankewt ting zehzeh and kai gorgor~ loL

Presenting..... Le Grand Chef and her best assistant !

not jus looks. 色香味俱全!! ohman, although i can whip up a few dishes myself... i am truly,

i m p r e s s e d !!

how many of us, can single-handedly (okay kai gorgor helped in preparation and abit of chopping and stuffs..heh) whip up 9 amazing dishes (while wearing a dress), entertain a bunch of rascals, serve 上等铁观音, periodically top up hot water, show wedding album, talk, chat, joke...kena bullied, and still look so composed at the same time?? loL...

ting zeh zeh 太厉害了！*clap clap clap*

quick one.

woh...jus got home. so i'll jus drop a few words while waiting for the heater to heat up... :p
early start today again..had wedding lunch...which was okay. then highlight of the day is of cos bear's belated birthday dinner. meetup with the gals are always good. i dunno how we do it, or rather how i do it with them, but there was non-stop chatting since we met up at 630pm....then alllllllllllll the way till 230am when we parted. goodtimesss definitely. what do we talk abt ? hmm, almost anything under the sun..from friends..work..lifestyle..travel plans...health...yoga yoga....more yoga...taichi...yoga instructor...full body massages...foot accupuncture...haa. i dunno. just abt anything. oh, and for the first time in OUR life..we got stopped by traffic police loh! anything can happen to us when we're together. tsk.. loL...road block at holland village, and amongst the many cars that passed by, those TPs wld rather ask 5 innocent girls to pull by, and have our ICs checked!? HAHAH... anyway we din even smell of liquor, and they din even ask us to take the breath analyzer... maybe we look too young and innocent to be out at 2am?? loL.. but anyway while they were slowly at work...us 5 cld still stand by the road and chat and laugh non-stop. hmm, quite a feat. loL... nv knew what it means to 'run out of topic' with these gals. anyway..ok, photos at Ting's place not up on blog yet...most on FB already, check those out 1st ah...im a tiredy bee now. haa...here's a few from tonight. need to bathe, and sleeeeeep.

bear the birthday gal enjoying her..ehmz...was that ice mint mocha

us at nectarie ! yumms! one of my fav place for desserts and non-alcoholic drinks

dinner at tampopo

yiling, peiquan, zee

suping and me


ops..realise the photos are in reverse chronological order. loL... nairmind la uh. goo-nigh. actually...i dunno wat public hols tmr is leh...haha. who cares right. okay~ everyone, have a good break, enjoy !!

stay tuned for more... :D

food for thought

"...because unless we stand for something, we shall fall for anything."
so what do you stand for ?

"I don't care a damn for your loyal service when you think I am right; when I really want it most is when you think I am wrong."
and how loyal and committed are you in the things you stand for ?

"If you aren't going all the way, why go at all?"
"Either do not attempt at all, or go through with it."
how far are you willing to go ?


and for he who has no idea, is neutral, and sits on the fence:

"Show me a person who is not an extremist about some things, who is a 'middle-of-the-roader' in everything, and I will show you someone who is insecure."

"We know what happens to people who stay in the middle of the road. They get run over."

not difficult to find a central theme amongst these quotes right ? no prizes for right answer... :p

wahpiang, super tired today. slept rather late last night, woke so early this morleng... (btw, yea i still have those weird dreams everynight.) shall leave the details of what i did today out lerrrrr..............but someone jolly well remember!! "很生气 leh!!" lOL...still dare say. i then 生气 can~ full of nonsense...heh..zzz.

anyway uh, jus came back from kopi with a very dear friend.. it was nice, but cant help feeling bit of a shame on some stuffs. ah well... the quality and way in which we interact has changed quite alot. Depending on how one sees it.. personally, i felt it was for the better.. 一言难尽... whatever it was, somethings can never be forgotten, and you've already secured a very special place in my heart :) ganbatte in ur thesis! so lazy to straighten out my thoughts these days.. previously, been super maxed out emotionally, mentally and physically....at the moment, i guess...hmm...dunno la. haha...i only know, i wanna rest, read...and make myself sleep before 1am tonight. the one thing i can nv stop wishing/praying/ask for- more wisdom more wisdom!! the more u learn, the more u realise u do not know...dunno why sometimes i feel i get stupid-er as i grow older. human interactions get more complex as we grow older too. so tiring. i just want to be simple. simply love, and to love simply. but not everyone can be honest in their communication with another...acquiantances i dun mind, they dun bother me. its ppl who are supposedly close to u..tsk. i just dunno why, and find it hard to understand also. and i never build on relationships lacking in sincerity, honesty, and a willingness to communicate. i hate it when ppl act as if nothing has happened when sthg obviously has. and i hate it when i feel my committment has been made a mockery of. i get upset, very upset. sad, very sad. disappointment and anger. and then, i move on. period.

anyway, learning is no doubt fun, but its also a tiring process, and it's so very essential if we are to live a meaningful and fruitful life. jiayou ah jing ! hmm, i realise my thoughts are all over the place...and has somehow translated into a very unorganised entry...haa...watever la. make do with watever u can understand then. loL...its MY outlet anyway :p bleah. heh..

rock climbing tmr ~ yeeeeeeehar! chao-tar day again~ :s

me and my crappy hairstyle with Jiawen

James, Huat and me

where do i start..wow we go way back. had a good catching up session with these tkd mates jus awhile ago. and with these guys, crap-o-meter continues to stay on an all time high. and it seemed just like yesterday when we were training our arse off like nobody's biz.. totally missed those days.

this past week or so, i did take sometime to quieten the heart.. and think through some stuffs thats been weighing my heart and mind down, then shun bian did abit of mental state 'spring cleaning'... but im rather bushed now.. so i'll probably leave penning those thoughts down when im more awake, and when i have the time. the week ahead seems pretty set and packed, for a few good causes.. haaha... one of which, im really looking forward.

ahh, although i hav quite abit of stuffs here and there that i wanna get off my chest.. i think the idea of relaxing and continuing with my book before sleep seems like a much preferred option now. ooh, sthg random.. i don't have any difficulty falling asleep lately.. but, i've been having nightmares and dreams everyday !! maybe not nightmares...but more of weird dreams everyday, and rather vivid ones too... tsk. loL..not that im complaining, or that im abt to become my own psychoanalyst... but this hasnt happened for quite sometime liao..and im rather amused. wonder wat i'll dream of tonight........heh.....zzz

oh and this weekend is the sc marathon again uh.. even tho i use to run almost everyday in perth...and even tho i can easily run an hour plus or two then without stopping..the idea of completing a marathon has never ever crossed my mind. most definitely not now.. i wldnt do it even if u told me takeshi kaneshiro's waiting for me with open arms at the finishing line, oh wait a sec..hmmm..maybe..heh... max i did was a half with frens and that was fun, but anything more than that is insanity. i meant for me la. haha. i hav utmost respect for those who actually train/jog faithfully (coupled with disciplined/healthy diet).. and i set these disciplined ones apart from those who start conditioning themselves only abt 1 or 2 mths before the actual marathon.. i cannot stress enough how much, doing sports the improper way does more harm than not doing it at all. sighs. think those ah cek i use to spot every evening at woodlands stadium beat the crap out of these ppl anytime. heh. but anyway, i've quite a long checklist of 'Must-do' before i die activities, from adrenaline pumping skydiving...to hot air balloon rides...and what have you.. but completing a marathon was never one of them, and never will be. its just not my cup of tea i guess, i'll probably like to challenge myself..test my limits in other ways... like ehmz, ehmz ehmmmmm....okay nevermind that. im happy as it is now. loL.. and to think i very nearly almost agreed on taking over wy's place this sunday. hey, actually i agreed, but automatically withdrew due to circumstances. wat more can i say? whatever it was, love makes one do crazy things. :s darling, even though i love u, dun suggest this ever again ok. haha.

but im very very de interested in the 40km ocbc cycle thingamajig..and im signing up for it soon ! anymore takers? :p

the equation that sums me up right now (:

its pouring now ! excellent timing !
btw, i love the smell of rain...hee~

great book + coffee in hand = absolute bliss !

day uno of the last month of 2OO8

however we measure it, time remains constant.

aint it amazing how time seems to speed up as you get older?
or, is my brain just working slower?

anyhoos, i seem to be in a jumpy mood today. cant sit my butt down and blog. bleahz !