im better (:


Jing will be back...

......s t r o n g e r .


goodbye, for now.


p/s: i juz got yr mms :p thanks dearie~ that was probably the same rainbow we saw! ♥
amazing, amazinglove, indeed~

a very very painful day today. when i say pain, i mean..literally broken from the inside out. crushed. i dunno where i found the energy from, to do all the things i did today...dragging myself from one place to another.. i really jus feel like collapsing..i jus feel like disappearing from the surface of the earth. i wanted to call and cancel all my appointments.. tuition..dinner.... everything. i dunno how i did it..maybe i've learnt disassociation somehow, to somehow sever connections to my own thoughts, feelings, actions, and sense of identity..maybe i grew stronger after so many ordeals, maybe subconsciously i dun wanna hate myself even more at the end of the day, by failing to fulfil my responsibilities, my committment to my tutee, and my promises to my friends.. i really do try my best in the things i undertake, make the best out of circumstances...to be real with people ard me- yet not put on a sorrowful face 24/7, i try my best to be positive, to be strong for the people ard me. but how much further can i push myself? i really dunno. what can i do? or not do? that could have made things better? its really beyond me. today, i just feel like crumbling. my best...is still not enough. its never enough. who can truly understand, and hear the cries from the depth of my heart? i nv thought i cld see anything as beautiful past the tears that intermittently well up in my eyes today...when i least expected to, and when i thought i cld hold on no longer....i saw 2 very beautiful rainbows.. momentarily mesmerized by the beauty of it. jus like an external source of electricity sending some power to my failing heart.. another timely reminder from Above? "no rain, no rainbows..."

accept the hard fact, that as we grow up, we'll learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down probably will. as we giv our hearts fully, we expose our raw and the most vulnerable part of ourselves.. we get hurt, hearts get broken.. yet with this bleeding heart i will still move forward. may i always remember the conscious choice that i've made, i choose to feel the pain, to learn and to grow in wisdom, instead of hardening my heart, instead of living my life in numbness. i still believe, that everytime we do our best, its not a promise that we'll defintely reap the results that we want. but everytime we do not give in our best, we're defintely shortchanging ourselves of what 'could have been' and thus doing ourselves, and the ppl involved, a very big disservice. i choose to live simply. to always love generously. to care deeply, to speak kindly, and to never withold the best that i can give... do remind me gently, when i've failed to do so, when i've failed to give u my best, when i get too caught up in my own world and failed to be a good enough friend. i apologise for those times, and am thankful for your understanding, patience, and for still sticking by me. it is becos of u beloveds that i can still find a reason to smile.

i am so so so so so very tired...... :'(

...with whatever strength i have left in me...i will push on. i was never a quitter, and i'll never be one.

CHIO !

We the people Lo-Fi V2 frame! Neon Green!! so AA i like !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

did one of those notes circulating in FB this rainy stay-in afternoon. decided to just copy and paste it here, since it did take up quite abit of my time~ jeeez...i wonder why people can do tons of these...dont they hav better things to do? but ya, i had nthg better to do this afternoon. loL~ so heres it. :p think my itunes' rather smart uh. spot on for some questions. so this being my ranting zone...i'll throw in some commentaries. aha

1. Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 or more friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got it from.

Qn: If someone says 'Is this Okay', you say? My ipod picked: Eagles - Love will keep us alive (yea, dun worry abt it, i'll survive in the harshest conditions if theres L O V E. ahah)

Qn: What do you like in a guy/girl? My ipod picked: Jay Chou - 彩虹 (i love rainbows...so uhmz, the guy that i like......wld probably give me the 'sunshine after rain' feel ?)

Qn: How do you feel today? My ipod picked: Trademark - Without you (sheesh.. no comments)

Qn: What is your life's purpose? My ipod picked: Armin Van Buuren - C'est Musique [Rising Star Mix] (yeah! my life is music! lets grooove to the rythm!)

Qn: What is your motto? My ipod picked: Don Moen - He well come and save you

Qn: What do your friends think of you? My ipod picked: Richard Marx - Right here waiting (need i say more? haha, im 24/7 for u darlings~ except i'll be more proactive than to just wait :P)

Qn: What do you think of your parents? My ipod picked: Madonna - Push (how much smarter can itunes get, seriously?)

Qn: What do you think about very often? My ipod picked: Beyond - 冷雨夜

Qn: What is 2+2? My ipod picked: Daniel Powter - Give me life

Qn: What do you think of your best friend? My ipod picked: Hillsong - Magnificent (indeed!)

Qn: What do you think of the person you like? My ipod picked: JJ Lin - 杀手 (yea, so now im dead)

Qn: What is your lifestory? My ipod picked: Oasis - Morning Glory ("Tomorrow doesn't know what it doesn't know too soon..yeah, need a little time to wake up...")

Qn: What do you want to be when you grow up? My ipod picked: Bee Gees - Saturday Night Fever

Qn: What do you think when you see the person you like? My ipod picked: Pearl Jam - Last Kiss (jeez...probably *shrugs...)

Qn: What do your parents think of you? My ipod picked: Air Supply - All out of love (i seriously hope they know)

Qn: What will you dance at your wedding? My ipod picked: Beach Boys - I get around (hmmmmmm..........haha...nice upbeat song, but nahhh, not me)

Qn: What will they play at your funeral? My ipod picked: Ella - 蔷蔷(纪念EP)

Qn: What is your hobby/interest? My ipod picked: Coldplay - Clock (trying to tell me comittment in hobbies take time too? hhaha...ya i do hav quite a few things im quite into :p )

Qn: What do you think of your friends? My ipod picked: Air Supply - Even the nights are better

Qn: What's the worst thing that could happen? My ipod picked: Sun Yan Zi - 逃亡 (damn right it is... escapism- a waste of everyone's time, including the escapee's)

Qn: How will you die? My ipod picked: Norwegian Recycling - How six songs collide (i just want to wake up tmr with a new song in my heart)

Qn: What is one thing you regret? My ipod picked: Eason Chan - 十年

Qn: What makes you laugh? My ipod picked: N'Sync - God Must Have Spent A Little More Time On You (yea...God's lovely creation, God blessing me with a few true friends)

Qn: What makes you cry? My ipod picked: Chicago - Glory of love (true true)

Qn: Will you ever get married? My ipod picked: Jason Mraz - Life is wonderful (of cos!)

Qn: What scares you the most? My ipod picked: Richard Clayderman - Viola Enluarada

Qn: Does anyone like you? My ipod picked: Bryan Adams, Rod Stewart, Sting - All for love

Qn: If you could go back in time, what would you change? My ipod picked: Peter Cetera - (I wanna take) Forever tonight

Qn: What hurts right now? My ipod picked: Another Level - From the heart (ya ya...hurts cos its from within the heart. jeez...thats why its called heartache. the emotional hurt literally caused the physical heartwrenching sensation)

Qn: What will you post this as? My ipod picked: FFH - Open up the Sky

so uhhmz, enuf crap above. went cycling today, when i SHOULD have been jogging~ i really wonder when i'll get down to training for sundown -_-" went to check out this recommended bike shop at bt batok, then super gian to get a bmx and re-live the goodoldtimes.. haha. then circled abit to gombak, and dunno how i ended up at CCK-PCN...nice place to cycle, but the pcn so short...SG still has a long way to make bikes feasible for daily commute. i can only hope for that day to come soon~ i love it in aussie where they hav bike paths leading from suburbs across freeways to the city, and how we can jus bring our bikes up the train~ so anyway enuf of the dreaming.. then i made one big loop to cck and back home. nice mini workout there. riding is fun~~ isnt it!? why run when u can go faster on wheels? lOL~ hokay~ be well all~ and hav a good night!

wahaha...so slack. people already reach finishing point even before we reach midpoint~ still happily talking cok and wishing they give out bananas mid-route. loL~ i'll bring my own bike next year and see whats my personal best. heh~

Conquered !

just before the flagoff for 40km challenge

we made it in time for mac breakkie (:
my tag number, 4D anyone? teehee~

first time in a mass cycling event, first time wearing cycling jersey, quite sud leh. heh. i likey. so today, had a taste of what its like to cycle 40km, haha...well..feels a lil less than the distance i normally cover during my night rides- uhmmz, many years back. loL~ :p really shld do it again, someday when i feel motivated and when i find the right kaki. keke.. i dun mind cycling alone, actually i do that quite often. but its always nice having someone or a few friends to crap with along the way~ i love cycling~ i really do, feels so good on a bike. although the rented one today..abit lau kapok...but not too bad la. they did do maintenance, fine tuned it here n there...so yeah wasnt too bad. and i got a helmet for this event~ feel so pro today. haha. fully geared, well almost la. heh.. :D but do hav to admit though, 40km feels further than i expected... fun ride in all~ !! im charred. zzz. got shocked by the bayee in the mirror jus now~ :s in other news, im kinda regretting signing up for sundown marathon now.. :( i'll be happy to cover 80km on bike.. but running uh......40km + 2.195km......~ O_O i suddenly feel sick.. hahaa heck~ train as much as i can now, im getting the finisher medal even if i hafta crawwwl to the finishing line. *pssst i hope i dun eat my words*

okay la..im bushed. wanted to write more, post more photos.... but these will do for now. im sure i missed out sthg i wanna say... loL~ oh yeah~ time to countdown~ wahaha~

did i just walk a thousand miles today..oh man, i think im old. im tired. :s
then again, it might just be that i've been out almost everyday, till kinda late~ im not complaining though, especially when theres good company(s) ;) ... can't bear to stay home.. 家..sighs. lets not go there. im tired. like really. i've not regressed to the delinquent stage, nope. don't get me wrong. i dunno, can someone, teach me what to do. is there a better way of handling? don't patronise me with textbook answers though. then again, maybe, just a shoulder at this point in time will do ... a big fat sturdy one ;)

hokay~ my first tuition today~ i dunno abt the boy, but the mum liked me. haha. so shes asking for 2 sessions next week, before i head to vietnam for 10days~ the boy's ok...typical smartass boy with abit of an attitude~ not interested in his studies~ at least he'll do what i ask of him though, but rather reluctantly~ sheesh...ima try be firmer next time round.. 'bribed' him with a ben10 pen before i leave today, hopefully he'll do his homework!....loL~ tsk...kids will just be kids. he's already scoring within the 80 ranges. abit stressed huh, its either i maintain his grades, or i push it up further~ we'll see. try my best! then after the mum asked me tons of stuffs abt psych...dyslexia and stuffs...loL~ shld charge consultation fee man...haha $_$ felt like i was back at the DAS~ but it feels good being able to help, or at least shed some light on how to help a child learn effectively~

then its abit of trotting ard marina and collection of cycle packs...sheesh...organisers damn cork up~ but im not gonna bore u with details abt wat happened la..haha. or rather, im just tooo friggin tired to stay infront of compt anymore..haha. maybe tmr try on the jersey...first glance..like not v nice. *shrugs*

adious amigos

靖は今とてもstressedいますね〜 :/
yoshhhhhhhhhh!!

がんばってよ！！！:D
heehe~ best advice of the day.. look confident! loL~ aye aye!

post edit: gah, i dun like this ! :(

Carpe diem, quam minimum credula postero.

A recent conversation with an old friend kinda spurned some thoughts.. Hmm, where do i start. Breaking up is hard. Okay..I know thats not the most profound statement in the world and its obvious to anyone, but its difficult to believe just how hard it is until it happens.. Sometimes, I find myself confused as to whether I should be happy that I could experience such close and wonderful moments with someone whom I care deeply for. Or whether I should be sad because I will never experience those moments ever again. I know that (and people often say that) I will find love and be happy with another person who loves me back just as much, or maybe even more. This doesn't help, and that is not my point now either. What I'm trying to say is, everytime a person experiences love, it is different. That is not to say it is better or worse. Just different. There's no basis for comparison~ What moments you share with someone and the things you feel can never be replicated with anyone else. There is always an element of sadness to know that those times you held so dear are now lost forever, only remaining in your memory. Don't get me wrong though, im not referring to anyone in particular now.. its just that I was slightly irked, and disagreed on certain stuffs my friend brought up during that particular conversation. i guess to me, everyone that is/was important to me...is unique. and with regards to my last relationship...its definitely been a rocky past few months. I tell myself that it is time to move on and get on with my life. although life does go on, that does not always help.. him leaving in such a manner (and at such a timing), left me feeling that my trust has been betrayed, and my decision to finally commit has been made a mockery of. because, this time round, it took me so much to take that step of faith. this episode made me question myself alot.. but also solidified my views on some relationship issues. somethings, are just not meant to be compromised. not even on the outset. so there.

i shall end the day with a reminder from a dear friend today...Carpe diem. haha.. with emphasis on making the most of current opportunities because life is short, time is fleeting, and sometimes opportunities only knock on your door once.. 把握现在，创造未来！

post edit: psst...not yet 创造未来already gonna fall sick...i finished more than half a tin of vanhouten chocs with almond nuts while at this post... im gonna fall sick im gonna fall sick.. sheeesh... maybe subconsiously i jus wanna fall sick uh... then i can hav a mighty good rest.

today i washed my own car. is this my first time washing my own car in Singapore? can't recall...but used to always do it in perth. perthies named my car...the noodlelator~ so cheesy..haa.... and btw, that was because they nicknamed me noodle. for reasons that im not quite sure of...even till now~ and some of them still call me by that nickname~ weird, cant seem to find any pictures of her now... my trustworthy toyota corolla 1.8L hatchback! power engine, fuel efficient~ manual transmission ! :D ferried me to and fro home and library on many a cold winter nights.. countless groceries shopping trips...food escapades...downsouth..upnorth~ 都靠她! anyway weird, cant seem to find any decent pictures of her. the only one i have here was taken when i drove upnorth to yanchep stables... hmm. probably more of her in the other laptop...let u all admire her sexy butt loh~ chio hor? feel like pinching not? haha dunno her new owner 有没有温柔的对待她..heh

carwashing is damn tiring~ sheesh~ but i enjoy it, theres this weird mini sense of satisfaction that comes along after. that being said, suddenly miss washing my car whilst admiring perth's sunset~ i need that kind of tranquility, now. ohh..and today, i witnessed the weirdest way one can wash a car..hmm yah, weird, and ineffective! (psst, are u reading this? your car is still very dirty loh) fail. fail. fail. lOL~ i wished i videotaped the process~ dunno how to describe sia..haha.

today i had the yummy orh-nee again. today today today....finally got one piece of good news...i received my first ever tuition assignment!! *clap clap clap* more to come, more to come :) btw, know of anyones kids needing tuition? loL~ call 我 call 我!! Primary 1 to 6~ English, Math, Science. free meal per successful referral. waahhaaha~ restaurant of ur choice (capped at $20...i hope u cant read this..loL)

wah tireeeed. ok...i wanna pop over popular, and browse through some assessment books now. P6 vocab, wahh....quite cheem leh i realised. loL~ kids nowadays..they're learning too much. too fast. too smart for their own good. haha. jking la..heh.. but on a serious note, character building more impt. tio boh? i say tio~ instil the right values, strong character, resiliency...able to withstand failure and 自己爬起来~ haha ~ no point being too grade oriented...but parents dun buy that kinda shit..haa...maybe they'll nod their head in agreement, and go like "yeah that shld be the way", but "applies to your kid, not mine" kinda thing.... then go down hard on their kid when they see a less than Band 1 grade...or whatever their own threshold, sheesh..

jaded.

aizai 有一点累了..
借个肩膀靠一靠吧....

then again my bed's probably more reliable. goodnight world.

opened the browser and meant to put in an entry.. but got distracted even before i started! sheesh~ talk abt short attention span... anyway, forgot wat i wanted to blog abt liow.... *brain claps* loL...insider joke. no offence if u dun get it~ :p good as well, cos i think i intended for another emo post.. loL~ lost that 'feeling' liow..

now seriously.......i cant rem wat i wanted to say. :s anyway... menopause musical, thank goodness i cant identify with what was happening on stage :p haha..but still it was a good 1.5hrs of entertainment and laughter. and i cant believe we went nectarie after that, and i forgot to try that double choc cake~ right infront of me somemore~! tsk :( had to come home for my big bowl of hot cereals, and biscuits. :(( ok la..yet another senseless post..btw, i think i jus discovered the orbidest carpark in SG....instead of the normal barriers that goes up... this winner has big fat metallic grill gates that swings towards the car...then hits the wall n rebounds~ quite an eye opener. forgot to snap pictures of it~ but even if i did..lazy to upload at the moment also la. ok..thats abt all the crap i have for today. Buenas noches mi amigos~

breakout was excellent! the esplanade theatre was full~! very entertaining throughout~ the music, lightings, choreography, comedy element and all... very original and well executed. most parts were rather upbeat, and they really managed to psyche up the audiences, me included :p ~ quite impressed and we had a very good laugh. tonight was their last show, so if ever they're here again... u guys might wanna check it out. :) next up is menopause! collected the tickets today~ hope its just as good~ or maybe even better~ nice day out today, sat outdoors before the show..the weather was a lil to the warm side at first, but it got quite breezy and comfy.. very relaxing.. chilling, listening to the music..b r e a t h i n g (its a luxury, and quite an art, i realise)~ and catching up~ :)

so that aside, actually today my heart felt kinda burdened. now that im back, it isnt as bad as earlier in the day.. probably cos of the nightmare last night, i felt really really disturbed. got shocked out of sleep at abt 5am+ methinks.. :( think lately im just quite stressed...i dunno til wat extent though. there are just times when im not even sure abt the condition of my heart and mind. so its on and off..peaks..dips...and plateaus....but im still rather onthego if you know what i mean, dunno how else to put it now...my heavy heart has weighed down my lips quite abit i guess..tho not my hands, apparently.. im writing alot more to help sort my own thoughts. some of which i blog....and some of which are written in my journal (btw, realise my handwriting's getting from bad to absolutely ghastly. sheesh).

suddenly feel like stopping. tired liao.. tmr going to ask more abt the masters course~ im quite half-hearted at the moment.. dun really feel like sharing here and now. think thats it for today~

so anyway, very briefly and vaguely, what ran thru my mind-
1) freedom is a fallacy- much to elaborate on this. next time round maybe..
2) indeed it is harder to resurrect a friendship than it is to maintain, therefore, do cherish the one(s) beside you now.
3) relationships are dynamic, not static. without change and progress, you'll not learn anything or experience a deeper connection and you're probably only in it for the security of it- true for both friendships and dating relationships. if its the latter, i suggest, stay platonic.
3) do not underestimate the redemptive power of love- that transcends all understandings.

oh, and i can't help it..i've to show u guys before i go..haa...this other gadget itch..check this out~ lovelyyy~!! its ok if u dun share my love, but i'll definitely love u if u wanna get this for me. haha :p

peace out~

most physically challenging vday ever..seriously. loL~...zoo photography is tough !! damn tough~ cldnt get much decent shots (if any).. :( tiredybees~

and i'd like to mini complain how i was super irritated by most of the other visitors~ wahliews...shriek and scream and talk so loudly..... i understand its a happyday happy outing thingamajig...but u dun do all those in a nature/wildlife park...wahh can observe some respect for the animals and nature lovers boh. ppl need to learn how to do the right thing, at the right time, and at the right place. u say tio boh!? i dun mind all the screaming at universal studios la~ i'll probably add on to the decibel level myself there.... ANYWAY, ignorance is not a bliss- please do not buy (or sell) this bullshit (think along the line of the ostrich burying its head underground...so..pls dun be a bird brain). its absolutely tragic, its just a blind phrase for ppl who like to shirk responsibilities and indulge in escapism, for ppl who are lazy and somehow afraid to do the right thing, afraid to think... so, for watever situations or watever places u go to...jus be responsible and at least mini read up on 'What to' and 'What not to'.....and observe those rules ya?? and it irks me ALOT ALOT when they use direct flash right in the animal's face loh!! super terrible... sheeesh~ and im not complaining just for the sake of complaining, to all dear readers of my blog, i beseech u, not to ever do these kinda things, please! at least not when ur out with me at these kinda places! will surely get it from me (then again, im pretty sure all you dearies who are reading this and are close to me, are highly sensible and responsible individuals... birds of a feather flock together mah! HAHAH!!). but really don't la...the animals dun like it- most of them are very sensitive to flash especially at night, it'll frighten and temporarily blind them. RESPECT NATURE, put the subjects, not your photographs first. use minimal flash output when really necessary.. but im guessing most of u wld be using compacts without much controls for the flash... then just dun use it. u'll likely hav better chances of getting good images IF u dun use flash and scare them away~ okay? be guai

oh the photos i took today..haha. upload some other day la... today tired, and tmr is breakout day! yeaps! :) ok...rest rest rest...im sticky and smelly now. haha. Happy Valentine's day all.. feel the love? share the love! :D niteynites~

knowing and understanding an individual's behaviour, only helps us understand the individual better (and probably facilitate empathy).. but that understanding does not absolve his/her responsibility from the misdeed.

i love the excitement and anticipation when i pick up a new book. bought a few (hopefully good reads!) with my kino vouchers recently. today im starting on 'The Lucifer Effect' by Philip Zimbardo- a renowned social psychologist who initiated and oversaw the SPE... seems really interesting, and surprisingly of relevance to my childhood dream of being a law enforcer. haha... how apt to pickup this book at this timing~ just before i flipped open the book... i was seriously considering (and am still) the prospects of a career as a SPO. haha...options are open.....we shall see... :p

Dearest Qi~

Happy Birthday !!

You were always an inspiration. You are, still. In so many occasions, I witnessed how you rised up above challenges, and faced them head on. You were always resilient and emotionally strong, you who, no matter what, never allowed your private emotions to cloud your judgement. I've learnt much from you. I miss you and the days we hanged out so often!

Thank you for the fun-loving person that you are, for all the smiles, the laughter, your thoughts, times spent together, endless talks about anything and everything, food escapades, for being the best travel & adventures companion. for always looking forward to me coming home during my days in Perth.

Happy birthday my dear friend. I hope you'll have a good celebration, filled with lots of love and the appreciation you deserve! Have a good one!

Love u lots, forever and a day!

see u very very soon! (:

Love, Jing

米虫万岁！！！

be warned! this post is FULL of complains! gaH! i got REJECTED- AGAIN!!! wahliews, 滋味真不好受！its the AGAIN that is so deadly~ again and again and again. but, 失败是成功的妈妈 (im trying to be optimistic...help me out here! ) its not like end of the world...but still~ sighsighsigh! 靖，打起精神来!! fighting!! choocheeyana! *ties red band round forehead* its its this phase of my life now that entails alot alot alot of waiting! 好无奈~ not that im not doing stuff la~ not that i hang my head low everyday~ but its the 前途茫茫的感觉that is so freaking irky~ haiz......!

luckily had impromptu meetup with lumix boy and xin today. kept me sane with ur lameness. lOL~ and thankew for that chicky meal~i really dun wanna growup leh.. lOL :( much appreciated. :p then 化悲愤为力量, went swim.. din do too much laps~sighs! turned more into 食量...then..dinner with darling at pastamania and ice-cream at swensons~ bad influence...see la, im starting to eat full blown meals even when im not hungry! but..okla, 心甘情愿. mini unloaded some pent up feelings- therapeutic. a few nods of affirmation and agreement- therapeutic. a treat of chocolate crunch and stickychewychoc- ultimate therapy! haha.. :) with awesome frens like these..... 心情也坏不到那里啦.....

this post is going no where. i just need to get things off my chest. i jus need to rant.

hmm......lets talk abt happy things now. mood not bad now la...WHY!? becos in full aizai 米虫 spirit~ i just confirmed tickets to VIETNAM (dont ask me to get stuff! tigerairways, 15KG baggage allowance oniii!! ahaha :p) Whoopeee dooOo! enjoy 1st...then see how la. haha. yays~! 10days of pure leisure, joy...away from this 伤心地 wah...ok la...the drama queen in me surfacing. hmm....i've nthg in my mind now, except...vietnam coffee, snap lotsa photos, vietnam food, more vietnam coffeee, maybe tailor a cheongsam there... haha. and ehhhhhh........dunno. joyjoyjoy. aish, also nthg to be upset abt la, honestly..as long as i know im doing my best within all these constraints~ :p but check in with me again hmm...after i come back from viet. hahah. OoOh, and since its nearing march/april...might as well hor, who wants to go JAPAN ah!? haha. call 我 call 我!! don waste la~ jus whack and play till shiok~ japan japan anyone!???

donch wanna think now liow, decide again after i come back form Viet la~ want to be 米虫 also must be a happy one. not much chances to be 米虫....err, right? once in a lifetime thing la- I hope. O_O HAHA. tsk. okay bye. deeweedee time.

ohh..this post not too bad right, not say ALOT of complains. heh.. bearable hor? cannot bear, also must bear. i know u guys love me. wahaha. ok. 爱你们 also la~ lOL~ happy vday/frenship day in advance :p goo-da-bye for now

turned out i took a long time to finish the BIG cup of milk..heh..and i got distracted while at it :p
played ard with photoshop again...but not ready to have those published yet. boo. keke.. decided to end the day on a happier note. why not right..tsk. so....heres more pictures from the trip :D

warm and friendly hosts, ever ready and eager to greet us :s

yummy so very~ uncle substituted oysters with lala~ i prefer our oyster version though..but it was a FRESH (pun intended) change.. trying out sthg new. good stuff. heh...

cute..loL

all-time favourite~ ahh, the simple pleasures of life :)

not greasy at all! welldone goodjob!

fun with panning~ :p

i love the skies~ purplish blue-ish shade..tonal distribution and all. captured the moon in this picture, actually the sun was visible at the same time too. tried to use the stitch function...but wat a lousy 180degrees attempt. heh...din bring my tripod la...next time round..shall do a 360degrees :p

can forgiveness occur without an apology?

i realise now, the answer is a resounding no. genuine forgiveness and reconciliation are two-person transactions that are enabled by apologies. expressing a heart of compassion/willingness to forgive is DIFFERENT from forgiveness which comes after acknowledment of wrongdoings and sincere apology by the offender. forgiveness without an apology, is often encouraged for the benefit of the forgiver, rather than the benefit of the offender. such forgiveness DOES NOT lead to reconciliation. go figure. and digest.

love often means saying you're sorry, and real love will include apologies by the offender and forgiveness by the offended. i guess some just need to go back to kindergarten and re-learn what our teachers have taught us- "say you're sorry when u've hurt somebody!" the very first things we learn in life, are quite rightly what is fundamental (i.e., important, essential) to life, and to building good relationships. what is one to expect? a flourishing relationship or a beautiful life, when the foundations and fundamentals arent even grasped and ingrained ?

"..you can look yourself in the mirror, and you can look the other person in their eyes, not because you are perfect but because you have been willing to take responsibility for your failure."

obviously pissed. roused. upset. wadever. 'nuff said for the day. im drinking my big glass of milk and heading off to bed.

屋漏偏逢连夜雨-

it's a tough battle. i've only lived about a little past quarter of a century, but i've already had a few taste, and experienced some of these times. in some sense, the challenges and setbacks in life never end. in some sense, within some aspects of my life, i am constantly experiencing the doldrums.. dun try and tie what im saying here to a specific event in my life right now....cos im referring to an eeeeviiil synergistic effect of a few matter.

whatever it is, at the bottom of the pit, the only view is that of the dawning sky right up above..
btw, hAo is right! haha..okla, u dun have to know me OVER again, smartass. :)

:(((

hAo says:
its one of those days huh?
when everything dat could go wrong. went wrong?
AI ZAI is depressed says:
yah~ i hope its just ONE of those days. i get a shitte feeling its gonna last for sometime
hAo says:
don't worry la
knowing u, will blow over in no time
AI ZAI is depressed says:
try getting to know me OVER again :(

bear with me.

i finally understand the rationale for the way i feel/felt.

lotsa good stuff (and crap) out there, who says there's nothing to do? - read (with discernment) !!

preview

good stuff no bluff :p

夕阳无限好，只是近黄昏

and im starting to miss my Chiqui liowwww.
few days without her~ :'( poorthing's gonna miss me tooOo~ boohoo
我的 Chiqui 太可爱了！i bought her on 30th November 2007....so its been.. 1year 2months and 5 days since i've had her! :D

crisis.

headache.

烦死人了 ！！！！！！！！

i need to talk.

then again...lemme enjoy this minigetaway first.

post edit: actually...after letting off some steam, 也不是很烦啦！wahaha~ :p yays! retail therapy soon!!!!!!!!!!

new favourite chillout place ♥

good food, good ambience, good people.

then after....

it was meetup with 老大 at the airport ! :D

lookie what she brought back from taiwan ! yumms !

yays ! 3 cheers !!

Perthies minireunion~ :D

Congrats again Dr. Lin~! hav a safe trip back ! and may we meetup again soon! Lotsa Love~

Good day in all (discounting all the junk and sinful stuff i ate today :p ) ~ it was only yesterday when i planned to start my marathon training, but i think need to push back the schedule a lil..haha.. will be outta town coming fri morn to mon night~ random trip~ whoOopee doo~ hope i dun eat too much~if nt even more difficult to train with big tums :s

*checks time* cut the long story short.

Themes that surfaced today (of which i wld love/need to bear in mind :) ) -->

1) 忍无可忍，还是要忍 !! 真是的... -_-"
2) "there is no need for fear!" :D I say AYE!
3) start training for sundown- 才不会死得太难看 ! *woOoT* 我一定是疯了(im guessing this is one of those once-in-a-lifetime thingamajig for me, but I'm rather psyched abt this spontaneous decision!!) wth! alltheway alltheway!! I'm fit kia ai zai !!
4) 遗失就遗失吧- 再也没什么好眷恋. 没什么好遗憾的.

what else... hmm, thats abt all, i guess.
not in the mood to upload peektures today, time to sleep! ooh..random tidbit of the day- of late, i have this habit of drinking a BIG cup of milk before i sleep everynight. dunno why leh...not that i cant sleep..but i just felt like it..i feel like it i feel like it~ loL~ random random~ my 2nd favourite drink after coffeee~

hokay~ enuf for today, off to dreamland!

希望在明天，但命运还是掌握在自己的手中.

如果因为一时受挫就轻易地退出，半途而废，到头来后悔的只能是自己。
如果总是因为害怕失败而丢掉前进的勇气，就永远追求不到到心中的梦想。
抱着“从哪里跌倒，就从哪里爬起来”的态度，我会勇敢地走向没有遗憾的未来。

*sings 阳光总在风雨后，请相信有彩虹..