besties at gastrobar~ ! (:

not complete though ):

will plan one sooOOnish :D

heh..check yr inbox regularly for updates on Operation Geek PArtayyy..amidst a G12 classified email... *whistles*

hello sugardaddy! loL

finally smiling; happy with her iphone.

desperado, caught in the act.

lets jus say..she was under influence of alcohol. haha.

constipated peek before i sign off !

cheers !! let the good times roll~!

:D

tickets!

talk abt randomness~ :D excellent alternative to the usual chillout at some coffee joint post-dinner. 2nd trip to night safari..technically would count it as the 1st la. cos i din actually do a proper tour the 1st time round- too damn tired after a whole nite of cycling. ooH, that being said, both times that i went, was absolutely unplanned and random! iloverandomness! what prompted this again? i cant remember, very pleasantly surprising suggestion..heh, always feels good to be close to nature. i've been wanting to go to the zoo again woh..hmm, might do it sometime soon eh...a planned trip this time round..hee, wanna see if i can take some decent shots. loL.. anyway, thanks for the lovely company, the dinner, the night safari outing, and how u insisted on getting the insanely overpriced photo~ i know u jus got ur bonus today...but... loL....thanks anyway! :p i was complaining how short the trail was jus now uh, but rather surprised im kinda bushed now. heh... think might be cos i ate too much the whole day...darn. all the energy channeled to my tumms for digestion~ okay~ GOODNIGHT all!

For some reasons that im not quite sure of, im always excited when i hear the word 'tickets!' This word, must always be followed by an exclamation mark..like TICKETS!! heehe.. hmm i feel like gg for JJ's concert eh, i likey him and his songs.. anyone interested? lets get tickets!! loL... then there's this breakout korean b-boys thingamajig, that im interested in also, hohoho.... we'll see...oh and its been quite sometime since i've been to a musical, any nice ones lately, or comin' up? hmm...budget budget horr, we'll seeeeeeeeeeeeeee. then the ocbc cycle also not cheap! then theres the viet trip~~ hoho... ok la......thoughts and ideas all over the place. bubbye.

just a girl: the last chapter.

dun feel as though i can eat anymore today :s early mac breakfast, followed by lunch with my ex-colleagues at botak jones. im a b s o l u t e l y stuffed. the plan was muthu's curry for dinner? boo. strike that off. actually wanted to giv lunch a miss, but i thought meetup with the psychs would be good, and it was. nice short catch up~ dohz, i left my car key lying ard again...and these cheeky gals had to play a prank on poor me. loL.. they're moving to JP next week..which means everyone's really near to each other now! wooH~

all these aside, the other part of the meetup that i wasnt too keen on, didnt go too badly, well, in my view, it was bad, but it was just as expected. wats new? can never fathom. then again, from the way he ran away from proper closure what more can i expect right? fine, if he cld not muster up enuf courage or had that sense of responsibility in him...but still vaguely recalling how rudely and ungentlemanly-ish he retorted on the last few times we conversed, found it utterly distasteful and was super turned off. don't know wat are my thoughts abt all these now. i bothered too much, why should i bother anymore abt someone who cant be bothered? i mean it didnt help when i was gg thru the rough patch at home right after that.. and foolishly hoping he wld render an outstretch arm when im cooped up and stucked in my hard outer shell, i got a few kicks from him instead, that sent me deeper into hell. not sure if its pure bochupness now or mixed with lil remnants of anger in me. what's a girl supposed to do? seriously? tsk. from the way he chose to deal with things, im not even sure how we're to even meet as friends in future. totally uncool. if there was even a slight attempt to close properly, or to talk things through, wldnt even have been the way it is now. 1 freaking sms to put an end to everything? no matter how forgiving or bochup i can be.. there are just some things a girl can never, and will not tolerate. wadever ler, he has moved on, im on my way too. lets put it this way, i dun hate anymore, neither am i happy or unhappy with whats going on (or not) anymore. jus the way things are in this particular chapter of my life. they say, time heals all wounds, i'd say thats a load of crap. time is but a medium for the wound to heal, time makes u forget but the problem is still there. time would not heal anything- if it didnt force u to go thru a certain process. whether one wants to walk thru the process or not, is a matter of choice, up to the individual. anyway, on my part, i've learnt a few pricey lessons through this. thats abt all that im glad of. nthg more, nthg less.

I'm sure we all have some sense, some kind of definition from past experiences, from the people around, from the novels, from the drama serials, from our hopes and dreams, needs, disappointments and ultimate fears. Love is probably different for all of us, we all should have our unique concept and ideas about this feeling, about this relationship, about this entire notion. So, if everyone has their own ideas, how can two ever get together and fit perfectly, is it possible to have two seeing the same, emphasizing the same, sharing one love? No wonder that one person is... The One. How do you know if he is the one? When do you hold on and when do you loosen your hand for both to go ahead and seek the true one? Will we ever know what's the right thing to do? Haha..anyway, im sure we'll find our 伯樂 soon enough :p

so moving on.. im really lagging behind in my guitar practice this 2 weeks.. im not especially looking fwd to the next lesson cos of that~ :s heh.. i like to go to my lesson ready and prepared to learn new stuffs. its getting tougher with slightly complex strumming n changing of chords. kinda difficult to practice after i get home lately. and now uh...im v sleepy leh. haa..ok no more excuses. think i'll go practice for awhile now.

"愛你的那一個　
傷你的那一個
誰才是你愛情中的伯樂
放棄了這一個　
然後等待著下一個
一個個過客　過得快不快樂
(別太多過客　祝你早日快樂)
離開時別忘了　看看眼前的人"

im rather excited. hee. theres sthg i wanna share badly..but i think its not the right time yet. *inner struggle* heh....okay, cut the dramatic crap. loL.. heeheh...anyway its not concrete yet..so i shall keep u guys in suspense for now :p

yipppeee yay! things seem to be lightening up~~ cheeryy jing!

the other day darling was saying "wah, really very long nv see u so siao and upbeat liow".. i was like "yeah uh..." 迷迷糊糊的 so much has happened, and 不知不觉 i been down for quite a long time. i miss myself too. hehe. hello my lovelies, JING IS BACK!!

festive seasons round the corner~ i can hear the bells jingling, and crackers goin off~ keke... thank you ALL my loveliess for pulling me backkk. muacks.

hokay~ i wanna tuck into me bed now :D

Reyes and Reyanne

sis's mother-in-law, godsister, reyanne and me :)

The War Zone..

Reyanne

Reyes

cute !!!

my nephew and niece's combined bday celebration at toa payoh safra~ total warzone in kids adventure. kids, super cutee and fun to be with.. heh...kinda lazy to blog much these few days..let da pictures do the talking yea..haaha

thankewt ting zehzeh and kai gorgor~ loL

Presenting..... Le Grand Chef and her best assistant !

not jus looks. 色香味俱全!! ohman, although i can whip up a few dishes myself... i am truly,

i m p r e s s e d !!

how many of us, can single-handedly (okay kai gorgor helped in preparation and abit of chopping and stuffs..heh) whip up 9 amazing dishes (while wearing a dress), entertain a bunch of rascals, serve 上等铁观音, periodically top up hot water, show wedding album, talk, chat, joke...kena bullied, and still look so composed at the same time?? loL...

ting zeh zeh 太厉害了！*clap clap clap*

quick one.

woh...jus got home. so i'll jus drop a few words while waiting for the heater to heat up... :p
early start today again..had wedding lunch...which was okay. then highlight of the day is of cos bear's belated birthday dinner. meetup with the gals are always good. i dunno how we do it, or rather how i do it with them, but there was non-stop chatting since we met up at 630pm....then alllllllllllll the way till 230am when we parted. goodtimesss definitely. what do we talk abt ? hmm, almost anything under the sun..from friends..work..lifestyle..travel plans...health...yoga yoga....more yoga...taichi...yoga instructor...full body massages...foot accupuncture...haa. i dunno. just abt anything. oh, and for the first time in OUR life..we got stopped by traffic police loh! anything can happen to us when we're together. tsk.. loL...road block at holland village, and amongst the many cars that passed by, those TPs wld rather ask 5 innocent girls to pull by, and have our ICs checked!? HAHAH... anyway we din even smell of liquor, and they din even ask us to take the breath analyzer... maybe we look too young and innocent to be out at 2am?? loL.. but anyway while they were slowly at work...us 5 cld still stand by the road and chat and laugh non-stop. hmm, quite a feat. loL... nv knew what it means to 'run out of topic' with these gals. anyway..ok, photos at Ting's place not up on blog yet...most on FB already, check those out 1st ah...im a tiredy bee now. haa...here's a few from tonight. need to bathe, and sleeeeeep.

bear the birthday gal enjoying her..ehmz...was that ice mint mocha

us at nectarie ! yumms! one of my fav place for desserts and non-alcoholic drinks

dinner at tampopo

yiling, peiquan, zee

suping and me


ops..realise the photos are in reverse chronological order. loL... nairmind la uh. goo-nigh. actually...i dunno wat public hols tmr is leh...haha. who cares right. okay~ everyone, have a good break, enjoy !!

stay tuned for more... :D

food for thought

"...because unless we stand for something, we shall fall for anything."
so what do you stand for ?

"I don't care a damn for your loyal service when you think I am right; when I really want it most is when you think I am wrong."
and how loyal and committed are you in the things you stand for ?

"If you aren't going all the way, why go at all?"
"Either do not attempt at all, or go through with it."
how far are you willing to go ?


and for he who has no idea, is neutral, and sits on the fence:

"Show me a person who is not an extremist about some things, who is a 'middle-of-the-roader' in everything, and I will show you someone who is insecure."

"We know what happens to people who stay in the middle of the road. They get run over."

not difficult to find a central theme amongst these quotes right ? no prizes for right answer... :p

wahpiang, super tired today. slept rather late last night, woke so early this morleng... (btw, yea i still have those weird dreams everynight.) shall leave the details of what i did today out lerrrrr..............but someone jolly well remember!! "很生气 leh!!" lOL...still dare say. i then 生气 can~ full of nonsense...heh..zzz.

anyway uh, jus came back from kopi with a very dear friend.. it was nice, but cant help feeling bit of a shame on some stuffs. ah well... the quality and way in which we interact has changed quite alot. Depending on how one sees it.. personally, i felt it was for the better.. 一言难尽... whatever it was, somethings can never be forgotten, and you've already secured a very special place in my heart :) ganbatte in ur thesis! so lazy to straighten out my thoughts these days.. previously, been super maxed out emotionally, mentally and physically....at the moment, i guess...hmm...dunno la. haha...i only know, i wanna rest, read...and make myself sleep before 1am tonight. the one thing i can nv stop wishing/praying/ask for- more wisdom more wisdom!! the more u learn, the more u realise u do not know...dunno why sometimes i feel i get stupid-er as i grow older. human interactions get more complex as we grow older too. so tiring. i just want to be simple. simply love, and to love simply. but not everyone can be honest in their communication with another...acquiantances i dun mind, they dun bother me. its ppl who are supposedly close to u..tsk. i just dunno why, and find it hard to understand also. and i never build on relationships lacking in sincerity, honesty, and a willingness to communicate. i hate it when ppl act as if nothing has happened when sthg obviously has. and i hate it when i feel my committment has been made a mockery of. i get upset, very upset. sad, very sad. disappointment and anger. and then, i move on. period.

anyway, learning is no doubt fun, but its also a tiring process, and it's so very essential if we are to live a meaningful and fruitful life. jiayou ah jing ! hmm, i realise my thoughts are all over the place...and has somehow translated into a very unorganised entry...haa...watever la. make do with watever u can understand then. loL...its MY outlet anyway :p bleah. heh..

rock climbing tmr ~ yeeeeeeehar! chao-tar day again~ :s

me and my crappy hairstyle with Jiawen

James, Huat and me

where do i start..wow we go way back. had a good catching up session with these tkd mates jus awhile ago. and with these guys, crap-o-meter continues to stay on an all time high. and it seemed just like yesterday when we were training our arse off like nobody's biz.. totally missed those days.

this past week or so, i did take sometime to quieten the heart.. and think through some stuffs thats been weighing my heart and mind down, then shun bian did abit of mental state 'spring cleaning'... but im rather bushed now.. so i'll probably leave penning those thoughts down when im more awake, and when i have the time. the week ahead seems pretty set and packed, for a few good causes.. haaha... one of which, im really looking forward.

ahh, although i hav quite abit of stuffs here and there that i wanna get off my chest.. i think the idea of relaxing and continuing with my book before sleep seems like a much preferred option now. ooh, sthg random.. i don't have any difficulty falling asleep lately.. but, i've been having nightmares and dreams everyday !! maybe not nightmares...but more of weird dreams everyday, and rather vivid ones too... tsk. loL..not that im complaining, or that im abt to become my own psychoanalyst... but this hasnt happened for quite sometime liao..and im rather amused. wonder wat i'll dream of tonight........heh.....zzz

oh and this weekend is the sc marathon again uh.. even tho i use to run almost everyday in perth...and even tho i can easily run an hour plus or two then without stopping..the idea of completing a marathon has never ever crossed my mind. most definitely not now.. i wldnt do it even if u told me takeshi kaneshiro's waiting for me with open arms at the finishing line, oh wait a sec..hmmm..maybe..heh... max i did was a half with frens and that was fun, but anything more than that is insanity. i meant for me la. haha. i hav utmost respect for those who actually train/jog faithfully (coupled with disciplined/healthy diet).. and i set these disciplined ones apart from those who start conditioning themselves only abt 1 or 2 mths before the actual marathon.. i cannot stress enough how much, doing sports the improper way does more harm than not doing it at all. sighs. think those ah cek i use to spot every evening at woodlands stadium beat the crap out of these ppl anytime. heh. but anyway, i've quite a long checklist of 'Must-do' before i die activities, from adrenaline pumping skydiving...to hot air balloon rides...and what have you.. but completing a marathon was never one of them, and never will be. its just not my cup of tea i guess, i'll probably like to challenge myself..test my limits in other ways... like ehmz, ehmz ehmmmmm....okay nevermind that. im happy as it is now. loL.. and to think i very nearly almost agreed on taking over wy's place this sunday. hey, actually i agreed, but automatically withdrew due to circumstances. wat more can i say? whatever it was, love makes one do crazy things. :s darling, even though i love u, dun suggest this ever again ok. haha.

but im very very de interested in the 40km ocbc cycle thingamajig..and im signing up for it soon ! anymore takers? :p

the equation that sums me up right now (:

its pouring now ! excellent timing !
btw, i love the smell of rain...hee~

great book + coffee in hand = absolute bliss !

day uno of the last month of 2OO8

however we measure it, time remains constant.

aint it amazing how time seems to speed up as you get older?
or, is my brain just working slower?

anyhoos, i seem to be in a jumpy mood today. cant sit my butt down and blog. bleahz !

another escapade, underway..

"i think a 3 days in HCM, 2 days Hue, 2 days Hoi An, 3 days Hanoi, 2 days Halong bay is good!"

but, i'd rather do a place more indepth, rather than 'touch and go'. im more of the take my time and appreciate the scenery, the people, the culture and the feel of the place kind of person leh. especially when it comes to photography, cannot rush! and also, this time round.. i really do wanna catch a breather. sloooooooooooow down mate !! but hmm, all's good.. i think i've found a win-win solution to this.. heh. hopefully !!

anyone who's been to those places mentioned? advices and suggestions !? msg me !
research research first...how long it takes to travel from one place to another- jotted down in my to-do list. loL....*yawns*..for now..i really jus need to sleep. oh wait, hair still wet.. so i HAVE to finish up another episode of fantasy couple loh..haa.. i loveeeeeeeee the soundtrack. too cute.

while waiting..

this entry actually signifies impending ice-cream treat *rawr*

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iPhone! and it continues to rock my sox !

Have a great weekend ahead all!

peace out ! :D

beautiful excerpt.

"...Years may wrinkle the skin, but to give up enthusiasm wrinkles the soul. Worry, fear, self-distrust bows the heart and turns the spirit back to dust. Whether sixty or sixteen, there is in every human being's heart the lure of wonder, the unfailing child-like appetite of what's next, and the joy of the game of living. In the center of your heart and my heart there is a wireless station; so long as it receives messages of beauty, hope, cheer, courage and power from men and from the Infinite, so long are you young..." -Samuel Ullman

let not our souls wrinkle~ but even if it should, may it merely be the indication of where smiles had been. lets all remember to slap on a healthy dose of 'anti-wrinkle cream' at least twice daily~ ! call me if u ran out of stock! keep a lookout, cos im distributing some free samples soon. satisfaction guaranteed. heh :p

check out the time.

to go along at this hour, 我一定是疯了我~ ! im black :( and peeling (jus a little).

heh... daijyoubu~ i love madness anyway.

hmm, feels like a sunday today..very leisurely..and without a worry suddenly. cant remember when was the last time i went for a MIDafternoon (i think nv at this time leh, seriously. tsk) swim, followed by a light lunch and catching up on a weekday... its always much nicer going out on a weekday yea...feeling very relaxed. maybe too relaxed, cos im kinda sleepy now. but i guess i'll 忍abit..

ok, 星期五，再来一次！

thats all for now, a
weird
random
tuesday
afternoon
entry

:)

"at the heart of all matters, is a matter of the heart"

take a break.

i can hardly feel the tip of my fingers as i type. well, after a few eventful days, i've finally let the ball down today. as its always been said, 休息是为了走更长远的路! ahh..cliche~ yikes.. anyway, i reckon if i didn't rest today, i'll have muscle spasms or something. but i'll not rest for too long as to be labelled sedentary. More badminton, tennis, swimming and soccer sessions coming up (shan't detail the makan sessions la huh *cough* lets just pretend i've been living a really healthy lifestyle)... however, no more of ALL these over a short span of 2-3 days :s Although, just for this time, i seriously needed that :) was super concussed last night.. i couldn't even hear the incoming sms~! ok ok, i know, call me a pig. im normally a light sleeper kay.. oh and, my last post, which was initially meant to be a personal outlet to vent my pent-up emotions (yea..u can almost call me power pressure cooker).. somehow doubled to be an SOS signal. haa..no wonder i've a pretty packed week after that ;) or isit jus coincidences? loL, anyhoooos! now i know who reads my blog, or rather..who cares. heh.... arigatou arigatou. i feel loved!

so whatsup on this restful day.. other than blogging this very moment...heh..i didn't exactly do-nothing today- went for a 1-on-1 guitar lesson, really very the not bad! the instructor's rather cool for one..hehe (..he looks kinda familiar leh...hmm, anyway, eh thats not my pick up line!) also, i was rather surprised the first song i got to learn was Hoobastank's The Reason. Damn cool right!? actually its just the G, Em, C and D Chords. probably the simplied version for this song la..haa, good enough tho! still not smooth when i change chords, obviously la..that needs ALOT of practice. but i can strum rather decently, and in tempo now. weeeee! then he said i can bring my stash of mp3s the next lesson, and we can choose some of my favourite (and manageble) songs to learn. heh..i'll probably pick some of jay chou's. hmm. then i went and re-string my ovation today. the string snapped as i was trying to tune...should have expected it ler, its been quite awhile. but anyway, its all good now, my ovation's finally out of the 'cold palace'.

this is a happy entry! yay! i wouldnt say im completely alright... but im on my way :) i've learnt quite alot abt myself over this past month..won't state them all here (for one, i dun feel secure enough to share EVERYthing on my blog, im not even sure who else reads these *shrugs*, the other reason ...if u wanna know more, buy me coffee first! :p ). anyway, one thing for sure, is- to acknowledge how i truly feel. im talking more abt self-acknowledgment..its scary how sometimes im honest abt every other thing, and to others...but i lie to myself on how i feel abt stuffs, and the saddest part is, i actually succeed in fooling myself for a period of time.. not very long though, cos lies don't last! which implies, im taking a detour, a much longer route everytime i lie to myself. everytime i evade something that is real. ....what im trying to say is, if im not alright, i am not. and its okay to be so- life is never a bed of roses. the only way to solve a problem, is to acknowledge that the problem(s) exist, it bugs and saddens.. then find the remedy. if theres no remedy, then learn how to cope with it in a healthy manner. i mean, u cant solve a 'problem' if u deny its existence right? makes sense? anyway..that makes perfect sense to me. ok, so same thing for an emotion- if im upset, wldnt help if i wear a smile everyday, and then act as if nothing happened. have a 'mourning period' than, watever one wld call it.. cry it out, pick myself up. and move on. ok, this sounds easier said than done, it is an arduous process. pick myself up this minute, fall down again the next, pick myself up today, fall down again the next day... what do i do? stand up again la! the crux is, deal with situations the proper way, give it due recognition, not just shove it under the carpet, or burying it somewhere..cos someday it'll jus come up and haunt you, maybe in a different form. or worse yet, not learn anything from the experience, which is a terrible thing i'd feel. sometimes, its a matter of courage or cowardice..i dunno, the latter makes me boil! but anyway, im not saying wear a bitter/sad/sour face the whole day.. just be true to myself thats all. hanging out with friends who understand really helps, alot. these treasured ones, listened to not just what i hafta say, most imptly, they listened to how i feel, the unsaid. i remain thankful/grateful to you guys & gals (you know who you are! :p )...for your willingness (read: trust in me) to open up your raw selves, in sharing your own experiences and perceptions.. and i treasure every bit of it.

anyway uhhh- as i was blogging the above..came another impromptu visit- suddenly popped out of my big treasure chest. :p so eh, train of thoughts broken, no complains! but i'll stop here for now... bottomline is.. no matter how big the blow, or wadever's happened... i've learnt, and am still learning to pick myself up and face the challenges for each day. ahh, C'est la vie~

ps: im watching Fantasy Couple now~ didnt even realise i have this. mini surprise!! who did i kob this from? i don't remember leh.. or, who left it in my hdd??? mystery~ but very cute and light-hearted show. whoever it was, xiexie ni. heh.. O_o ...onto episode 9 now!

I thought maybe it would go away. That I would get over it.