(life is) a series of small moments

今天的心情突然平复很多。。 虽然许多事的确不如意，而且令人非常痛心。。 但其中也有很多‘不幸中的大幸’。

things could have been alot worse. good news is, dad's recovering steadily..both physically and mentally..seemed okay. back to his usual self when i visited him today. somehow..i guess thats good. bills arent as exorbitant as we thought it'd be.. so that's one load off. but there are other considerations as well.... trying not to complicate my own perception of this whole matter, my emotions and thoughts with what really needs attention now. one step at a time then.

i realise on some matters.. there's just no choice. there's no right or wrong, it doesn't matter if you agree or not. and it certainly does not matter how i feel. what needs to be done.....has to be done. i dunno how healthy that is mentally.. denying one's feelings and values... and then going ahead to just get things done. doesnt matter if what i say makes no sense to u..

i just pray that mum and me can both get a good night's rest today. she's been extremely tired since all these happened. the last thing i want is for her health to further deteriorate. as for me..i wake up every morning feeling really lethargic too.

do keep us in prayers. thanks all.

weekends are here..suddenly feel like bball again. wanna breakout in abit of sweat.. but im pretty sick of running. anyone on?

goodnight for now