Happy mummy's day!

love of my life.


my godma and me, during my baptism.

thank God alot for her, for it's her who first led me to God. and through my godma i learnt alot about faith and perseverance.

and to my spiritual mum back in sg, happy mummy's day~ *hugz* thank God for you, for ur encouragements, for keeping me in prayers, for never giving up on me. =)


my spiritual mum, lindee.


mira-bongbel. bongbongbong. haa =p

although not 'officially' my spiritual mum, but u're one i've always look up to, mighty woman of God. =p u've been there during one of my darkest momemnts spurring me on, never failed to point me to God when i got lost. your passion for God and His people has encouraged me a great deal. hugz.

last but not least, ps yueh ping. my network pastor, ever so loving and caring. beautiful woman of God! truly truly the best spiritual (grand) mummy one could have. hee.

wow...look at all the wonderful people God put into my life.
what more can i say?.. God is good! i truly am blessed! =)

Thank You Lord.

i love assignments. i love stats. i love writing lab reports.

ahhh! im so gonna kill myself~~ accidentally closed the SPSS browser, and i've yet to save the data. grrrr. now i have to go through the whole bloody process of generating the data FROM SCRATCH for it to confirm my hypothesis. great. just what i needed.

it probably isnt that big a deal, just time consuming. and i was very pleased with the sample i generated just now. ugh. careless careless, what was i doing!? probably a sign that i should just go sleep now. lol.

hmm, actually........im quite enjoying the fact that i've been doing work this whole day. haha. nerd power! glory to the geeks! yeeeeeeeeeharrrr!

alrighty, back to work.

bleugh.

'When a man sits with a pretty girl for an hour, it seems like a minute. But let him sit on a hot stove for a minute and it's longer than any hour. That's relativity.' - Albert Einstein.In my life right now I would liken the hot stove to being a prisoner in my room, sold as a slave to assignments, and the pretty girl, well to a pretty boy of course (takeshi kaneshiro! takeshi kaneshiro!!!). sorry i cldnt help it. haa.

nothing seems to ease the excruciating minute-counting, assignments-loaded, tests and exams round the corner period. i need an outlet, but i don't know what i can do to make me feel better now. i did a 7km run today, blasted my music, stoned. cooked. eat. breathe. shit. bathe. nothing seems to work. bleugh. so i should think positive. eto, time passing slowly means more time until the exams? heh. Well I must get back to my minute-counting-slavery-to-assignments-fun.

ps.if you are reading this on a study/assignment/work break it's obviously time to get back to work because an hour will have passed and you will have done nothing. =p

I WANNA GO OUT AND PLAY!!!!!!!!!

finally, im going to sleep now. before that..i need to fill up my word quota for the day. havent been talking much today, not even on msn. oh and i missed dinner at bobo's today..i wanna drink soupppppp. minestroneeeeeeee. today i've been eating alot of junk food, canned food, bread and blah..all those not very nutritious but highly fattening stuffs. lazy to cook today.

anyway, got quite abit of work done, but not exactly as much as i've planned to. not good. stats assignment due this friday, but there's gonna be equipping conference tomorrow and friday, jackie pullinger's gonna be the speaker. she'll be touching on 'Ministering with the poor' and 'Ministering with the Spirit'. though pressed for time and frankly very tired, but im still looking forward to that conference. will be a time of refreshing as i come before Him in worship. so anyway, leaving me not much time to do my work. im stucked on a few questions..but completed the bulk of it. so anyways...will leave those till tomorrow morning when i have a clearer mind. long day in Uni tomorrow. ahhh. chotomate. stop. nope. i shall not whine. i shall not be a whinger. im more than a conqueror thru Him! yesh! busy, busy...busy is goooooooooood..

*takes deep breath*

so after this stats assigment, i've a jap test next week, and another major assignment due. i'll think about the rest after completing this 2....so anyway.......life is still good for now. i've not gone crazy. yet. haa.

alright. gotta go. system auto shutdown.

lessons learnt.

This semester has taught me some valuable lessons. Wonder what else I'll learn before it's over...

Make sure that you hold on to your friends and especially your close friends. It's harder to resurrect a friendship than it is just to maintain it.

Vulnerability is necessary in order for a relationship to really deepen. Make no mistake that this vulnerability will at times be exploited.

Forgiveness is hard, but inevitable if you're gonna get over something.

No one can always be an angel. When things go wrong we see some bad.

Looking at love in a different light. Love is not meant to make people always feel good. Love is meant to help them grow.

Sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us.

Living for the future to breakaway from what's in the past.

You can be happy only when you allow yourself to be. No one's responsible for your happiness.

Investing in people's life, seeing them grow and thirst for Christ brings greatest satisfaction and joy. (check out Ee Jay's latest post to learn more on this =) )

Eat more ice-creams. It's therapeutic. (that is if you stay away from the weighing scale >_<)

There is always a reason to smile.

+God Bless

random. thought of the day.

What if we all had a word quota? What if you only had, say 500 words allotted to you to speak on a given day? What would you talk about? What would you no longer talk about? Would you stop to think before you talk?

winter prelude.

numnum. =D

my dinner today. lol. suddenly just felt like taking a photo of it (and since so many of you ask what i normally have over in perth...well there u are). thought its kinda weird, lol..but tasted nice though. hahahah i was lazy to fry the vege, so i just boiled it and piled some kimchi on top for taste. hiakz. hmm..then its rice and pork. check out the fats man. actually not very oily..they hav skinny pigs here in perth. hahahaa.

cook my meals here mostly, cos its pricey to eat out. ehh..around AUD$8 for a plate of fried rice/noodles..though its a very big portion. anyway have to save up la. so like probably..only dine out with my frenz once a week. or after church on sundays. when im lazy to cook or get too tied up with assignments, i probably eat sandwich the whole day. haaha. nice and easy.

i love cooking though. a form of destressing for me. anyway, how glum can u be when u're facing FOOOOD! heheh.. =p

Passion for life

fueled by purpose in Christ.

Lord, help me continue in Your 'way everlasting'.

then came more. hahaha. a sure sign when bobo's stressed. がんばて boboさん! =p

so i was seeking help from bobo regarding jap homework....then in the midst of our conversation, out popped this drawing which amused me for quite awhile. heh..おもしろいですね!

tkd

i found my favourite taekwondo video clip on youtube! lol. link's HERE!

use to have the file in my old laptop, but the hard disk crashed. so there goes. haa.
oh boy i hate to go again..but yeah, i miss those training days! though pretty much an individual sport, but there was an espirit de corps amongst all who trained together, which i really really love. the joy of training together, spurring each other on to push thru our physical limits, enduring the pain together and all. the thrill of being in the competition arena or even just cheering for friends...arr, those were the days.

don't think i can ever go back to serious training, maybe i could if i forced myself, but my leg injury yet to recover. after like 6years...it still hurts. i dont think there's anymore hope to that. leisure jog still can manage, but it'll hurt if i sprint. -shakeshead- and basically doctor advised me not to do anymore vigorous sport cos im quite prone to getting slip disc already. rarh. my passion...~ aiyah..can feel my heart sinking again...but no no no, gonna get a grip on myself. haha. more fun and meaningful stuffs to do out there. im gonna look on the bright side!

oh oh oh! guess what! today, i received an email notification stating that i've been ACCEPTED for the International Student Volunteer Program!! ellie got accepted too! yippeee yay! Costa Rica here we come!!!!!!!!!!

thinking on purpose.

so a friend said to me "...u think too much...".

well actually i don't think i think too much...if you'd ask me, i feel fact of the matter is that most of the time its not about excessive thinking. we work our brains too little in fact. haa. its more on the choices we make about what we're thinking, ie. choosing our thoughts. cos where the mind goes, the heart follows. and i guess we should really learn to 'think on purpose'. our thoughts can either make or break us, either depress ourselves with our thoughts or make ourselves happy. many a times, its just a thin line between being happy or sad, most of the problem we have somehow goes back to our thinking. i've heard and met so many who suffers (or claim to) from depression, be it chronic, periodic or even temporal...arent those times we were upset becos we opted to think negatively? for example one might choose to think "haiz, no one loves me, no one cares for me..im so alone..." and this negative thought leads to a series of other negative thoughts..and hence creating a downward spiral of emotions.....leading to 'depression' (a word so often loosely used). we can also choose to think in terms of "people around me are probably abit busy and the way they express love is just different from what our expectations of love is" so on and so forth.

well just a very random example, but the idea is we can choose to reject negative thoughts. to cast down all these 'wrong thoughts'. many a times people just get so disillusioned with what they think (which are mostly assumptions, or a part of whole), that they eventually believe what they think is real...and hence becoming a fact in their life. then this whole negative thing becomes a vicious cycle which eventually consumes our entire being. wears us down and stuffs. we become less happy and less productive. in short i guess..being negative just sucks life off everything. therefore it isnt really true that we're thinking too much right, haa..in fact we should agressively fill our mind and think positive thoughts, good thoughts..

of course its easy to say, but when crunch time comes..it really isnt easy at all. but havent we all realised that all these negative thoughts creeps in kinda when we have too much spare time on hand. an idle mind is the devil's workshop. so, make a choice to not only cast down wrong thoughts, but fill it in with the right thing so that there's no space for the wrong to get back in. and the only right thing to fill our mind with is to always renew our mind with the Word of God every single day (Roman 12:2 Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is - his good, pleasing and perfect will)...loving the Word and to do our part in guarding our own heart and mind. stand your ground, be proactive, so that the devil has no chance to fill our mind. where the mind goes, the man follows..where the mind goes the man follows. so choose to think on purpose, don't just sit and wait for things to fall in your head. makes sense? anyway talking about depression, loneliness and stuffs....amidst all the therapy and counselling that is available, the fastest and most effective way i feel is to actually get off your butt and start doing something! best thing to do is go out and be a blessing to someone else. stop looking inwardly into ourselves and our circumstance/problems..or stop looking at our problem through a magnifying glass.. go out and do something good, purposeful..u might just come back and feel 'hey that problem is not as big as i thought it was', or probably you would have adopted a new mindset to look at that problem or even to solve it.
*imagines everytime a person is upset, he/she goes out to bless someone..with an action/gift/act of kindness or anything...isnt this gonna be a more beautiful world. ahaha. everyone wld be so much happier.. then uh-ohh..its gonna be hard for me to find a job as psychologist in future. lol.

yesterday i was having a chat with my friend, and she popped the question about finding meaning and purpose in life.. i mean we might be living a not-so-boring life or even a very adventurous life..but end of the day, there's still something lacking.... personal experience tells me that the most rewarding and purposeful thing one could actually do is by adding value and investing into people's life. yeah..isnt this what life is about? God is all about love and relationship. being passionate about people.

i've always believed that living a life without passion is as good as not living at all. i've had many passions in life, netball and taekwondo were one of those few...netball ended soon after my secondary school days. then there was the passion for taekwondo, which practically consumed me. that would be the first thing on my mind after i wake up and last thing on my mind before i sleep. i would be thinking and fantasizing what kinda kicks i would perform to score against my opponent, what moves to enable a Knock Out, do my stretchings even while watching TV, or think about my trainings and what i can do to improve and more. i held on to this passion for about 10years, since primary six, then i injured myself badly and doctor advised me not to go ahead with this sport anymore..my world came crashing down ....

...finding a passion in life, but i realise passion alone is not enough..it has to be fueled with purpose..if not it'll just fade off in awhile, or have to come to a halt becos of unforeseen circumstances.

so have you thought about it?
what's gonna be your life long passion and purpose in life? =)

day uno.

first day of the week break, not very productive. haha. very bad right..still can laugh. so anyway it didnt really go as i've planned. mainly becos had a late start for today. last night suddenly got a call from marian to go for supper. wasnt that keen on the idea last night, but i changed and went anyway.all the way to Vic park(to marinate my jacket in the 'chilli musells + pizza +kebab' smell. i didnt eat tho, haha, just went for a chat with them, then see ben and clarence enjoy their yummilicious kebab supper). well, that wasnt the highlight of the night, haha. after that we proceeded back to uni. ben performed drifting and those handbrake turns and stuffs. lol. way coool man. that was a first for me, being in the passenger seat. haha. for a moment i felt like i was filming Initial D - smaller scale version (and the music that was on wasn't piao yi). haha. and except that we were at the gravel pit behind murdoch oval. wo de tian ah..ben drove the car like it was a jeep. swerved left swerved right, reversed and some brunches and leaves ruffled against the boot. if its my car, my heart wld have ached big time. lol. i kinda regret buying a first hand corolla hatchback (but still thankful tat its fuel efficient and its 1.8L, and i love hatchbacks =p). haa. if i cld choose again, might have gotten some cheap 2nd hand car and play around with it. clarence suggested sharing a $200-$300 car and whack it before he goes back sg. lol..hmm, sounds interesting. i wanna learn drifting. haha. looks easy enough. i think. on a sidenote, i kinda forgot when/why it was that i started hanging out with marian, melissa, clarence and ben. individually i can recall, but suddenly going out toge..hmm. strange. lol. but they rox sox baby~ really funny and cool individuals, when u put them together, they're a blast.

so anyway once again i've actually planned to wake up at 6am for a jog to start my day, but due to the really late night out..i cldnt wake at 6am of cos, haha, that'll be like only 2hrs of sleep. and its insane to deprive myself of sleep first day of the break. haha.

hmm, total work done today...equals to almost zilch. i feel like a person exerting energy on a wall (except that i din use full force), distance moved = 0, therefore work done = 0. some physics theory i vaguely recall from my secondary sch days (did i get tat wrong? anyway i hated physics la.). haaa. so anyway..i've been trying to do research for my PSY311 lab report. trying to get ideas and decide on a topic. im kinda like hoping this topic would be one that i'll be doing for my thesis next year (if i get into honours). im looking more into topics like personality dimenstions such as extroversion/introversion and its relationship with sustained attention (maybe some work are more suited for introverts and stuffs), or probably life satisfaction scale..or probably effects of positive and negative reinforcements with regards to personality dimensions..or probably whether negative/positive stimuli draws attention away/from introverts and extroverts.........so as u can see its all one big blur, very general ideas. glancing thru all those journal articles, i still have no idea as to what i really wanna do. too fickle minded i think. and i dont have access to some journals that caught my attention. need to pray for clarity of mind and wisdom from God to choose the topic~

thats abt all the work done today...one big blob of general and extremely vague ideas. not looking good, i think for tomorrow's first half of the day, i'll start practicing my stats then start on my stats assignment. haa. need to see some substantial work done to let myself feel better...before i brainstorm for my lab report again. ok. so thats the plan. i shall do it. yes i shall! oh and.. i shall attempt to start my day at 6am again for a nice jog. haha. this time....it shall be a successful attempt!

oh its starting to get really cold. *waves byebye to summer* sobs. oooh no..i hate the cold. anyway...i'll complain more about the weather when i start to wrap myself up like a dumpling.

+God bless.

few days back, i went for a international student volunteer meeting with ellie. quite excited at the idea that i might have the chance to go either states or costa rica for a mth during december. comprises of 2 weeks volunteer work followed by 2 weeks of adventures. i opted for costa rica. have actually submitted the form, so now im waiting to see if they'll accept my application. its kinda cool, like we have two options to choose from, either conservation work where we can work in areas such as flora and fauna conservation, or working with humpback whales(i hope i get this~!) or giant sea turtles. imagine working at close proximity with these awesome creatures. can't wait to feast my eyes on God's wonderful creation. then there's social aspect where we can opt to work with the locals, teach english or help them devise some campaigns or education frameworks and stuffs, which would be an equally rewarding and eye opening experience too. so anyway nothing has been confirmed about this, but i really hope i can get in. (and that ellie and debbie wld be able to come along toge too~ that wld be absolutely fantastic =p) *prays*

so anyway, if i do go, it would be during december. then hmm, i forgot if i've already mentioned this (cos this has been in my head for quite sometime, kinda in a state of mixing up facts with dreams. blah. do u all get this, or isit just me?)...but yeah for friends in sg, im not going back this june/july hols. gonna stay back in perth, torture myself with the extremely cold weather...lol. no lar, there's church camp and internship program during this 1mth break, so my time's gonna be relatively filled anyway. and somehow i've kinda sorted out my thoughts...wld be back in sg forever after i graduate anyway, so why not make the best of perth while im still here. enjoy the different aspects of it.
i've always loved travelling and stuffs, but lately i've this wanting to 'leave everything behind and travel the whole world by myself' kinda thought. i think i need a breather, a retreat, a time by myself and God, i need space. in the past, when im upset(and i mean really upset and helpless) i usually retreat into my own world and shut everyone off... i think overtime, i've evolved into this strange creature. constantly in this 2 states of wanting to be around people and wanting people to leave me alone (latter more actually). its difficult to explain, or rather im just not good at expressing myself well. and i dont like explaining stuffs. which is also why its tiring for me to be around ppl. to say im a person of few words, i think many ppl wld beg to differ..haa. but it is a fact though, that i really don't like to talk much, actually most of the time, i wld prefer to take a backseat and just let things slide. rather than airing my views or trying to let ppl see my point. most of the time, i also do not have much comments/interests on what people are talking about. hmm, don't get me wrong. lol. friends reading this. i love u guys. haha. (u see, at some point i have to assure ppl or do some explanation before someone gets the wrong idea. even if i don't talk, i might just offend poeple with my face. really. like when i dont smile, my face is black. well its naturally tanned, and there's nothing i can do about my face. if i don't smile..it does not mean that im pissed. ppl always ask why that straight face, well im born like that. its not a crime to be tanned u know. and i cant be smiling 24/7 for nothing.)

so anyway, most of the time even when i want to purposefully strike a conversation, say with a friend i meet on the street or accidentally bumped into friends at the supermarket .. im really stumped for words. i dunno why really. and its quite difficult for me, cos i feel awkward. maybe those were the times i've switched on the 'no-talking' mode in me..then when i see ppl.. i just cant churn out words. its exasperating sometimes. i just dont understand myself. like this kinda situation happens with ppl i dont often see, or even with ppl i see almost everyday and are comfortable with. more than often..i think it portrays a bad image of what ppl view me as..and i guess thats why i really just enjoy being by myself most of the time. socially inept? hmm i don't know. maybe just a person of limited interest. i love helping people, doing stuffs, seeing people around me happy and stuffs..but every other thing in between..i kinda find it pointless at times. i just cant find myeslf saying, "hey thats a nice bag u have, where did u get it." or "oh u had a haircut, thats nice"..or "the other day someone did this n that..."... im always amazed at how well people can hold conversations...i love being around these ppl. haha. *waves to geraldine* (and a few others, but somehow geraldine comes to mind at this juncture. lol..) i love hearing them talk..haha. i cant do the same maybe cos i just lack the skill and enthusiasm. maybe im just task-oriented and less relational kind of person? i dont know. haha. i prefer to sit back and observe whats going on. (i think that might be why one of my ambitions used to be being a zookeeper, other than love for animals, less complexity, less talking involved. haa.)

having said that, i really love observing people. really fascinates me why some people do and say the things they do.. thats what propelled me to take up psychology in the first place i guess. haa. first person i would really hope to understand is my dad. i think i get the weird character from him. haa. no lar... ok, said too much. signing off. byebye.

poll ppl poll!!

yippeee! my friend who is in states now is gonna get me my brugomug!! choose color choose color!! http://store.brugomug.com/brugomug.html
come ppl, poll poll...and let me know which are the top 3 fav colors. hehe. im spoilt for choice now. most of the color looks goood. with the exception of...'sunshine', 'slice' and 'seaglass'.

coffeee cofffeeee cofffeeee on the go!!

quite drained and tired now, these bouts of migraines just wont go away, been haunting me since the day i kena stomach flu (which was like wat...more than a week ago). just got a wee bit worse these few days cos its more frequent and prolonged. anyway..

was approached by my cell leader to facilitate by leading Word for today's cell. the topic was about endurance..which happens to be a topic that is so close to my (or rather for us all i suppose) heart. i mean..personally when i think about 'endurance'..so many things come to my mind, flashbacks of the past year, about my family, my life.....the pain and confusion, disappointments, then about God's faithfulness and how He has never ever failed to carry me through..at the point when i felt it was too too too much for me to bear, and as i finally allowed Him, HE took over..tears just well up as i reflect upon His goodness. although the process was painful..it allowed me to truly experience the character of God; His love, mercy and grace, to know firsthand His faithfulness and not just merely hearing testimonies from others. its always encouraging to hear testimonies of cos...but i mean to really taste of His goodness, its different, the heart literally gladdens. You know how it is always said that the The Word is life, i've always believed it, but i think i use to quite take it for granted, like ok, yea i know... however, recently when i read the bible, each word seem to 'jump out' at me, and i just come to a 'sudden realisation...hey! The Word IS life! this 'sudden realisation' thing i felt was kinda strange. cos i thought i always believe in it..i do...but now, its just different, i don't say it that 'flippantly' anymore, i say it with more conviction now.. thank God for that.. in a sense many a times when i get sucked dry by worldly affairs, i go back to the Source and find my hope in Him once again to run this race.....

much to say about the above.... but that whole chunk above is not really what i wanna pen down today.. what i actually wanted to convey was that most of the reflections, 'sudden realisation' thingy, and the drawing near to Him, happened when i actually took that step of faith, and availed myself to serve (in this case to take up the challenge from my leader to do Word) God and His people... before this i was actually kind of losing my focus again, almost wanted to tell my cell leader i don't wanna take this up anymore (ironically the topic is on endurance, cannot just give up like that right...haa. thank God i brushed off the idea of quitting).. so anyway, as i go thru the process of preparing for Word, i was kind of 'forced' to read and really meditate on the relevant scriptures. the intention might be wrong..but as i did and progressed thru all the preparation, praying about it...i was actually ministered to, what was bothering me before didnt seem to matter anymore, or rather God gave me a new mindset towards that particular issue and i was able to see it from another angle. then as i went further....i actually took joy in going thru the scriptures over and over again..praying and basically enjoying that intimate time with God.

we often think of wanting to be a blessing to others as we reach out to people, do missions, serving in wherever God calls us to...but i feel many a times as we do all these, the ones who are blessed and receive the most are ourselves. i really feel, although im the one serving, the one who is at the receiving end is still myself, i dont know how much the cell members have learnt about the topic just now, and whether it really spoke to them (i sure hope it did)..but anyway, i've defintely learnt alot thru all these...there really is much to learn, it never fails to amaze me how God works..

anyway im sorry if i dun sound coherent...trying to organise my thoughts and pen this all down before i forget tmr..haa. feels like the first draft for an essay..abit messy. don't know if it makes sense to u...but it sure does to me. haa. oh well..

thats abt all i can say for now...so tired i feel like im in a state of trance now, cant think anymore.
methinks cant wake up for market at 7am already. and im meeting cheryl and debbie 1030am at library to study.

ahhh. nitez ppl.

God Bless.

touch rugby

woohoo! finally i got out and did some exercise. haaha. went touch rugby today with marian, clarence and ben. jogged from my place to murdoch oval, then did 2 more rounds at the oval cos they were not there yet. was kinda tired by then (the oval was BIG okieeee =p), haa. stamina did drop. =( or maybe cos the weather was kinda cold today and it was rather windy, heheh.. ok, shall stop giving myself excuses.

anyway its my first time playing tough..i meant touch rugby at murdoch, first time playing with the aussies and more than 3/4 were guys. woah..these guys are FAST. the girls were really good too, think they're quite seasoned players already. really wasnt easy trying to tag them, with their footwork..dodging skills, side step and all.. my leg muscles are aching now la, so long nv sprint already. but still, its fun!! i love this kinda game (but none beats netball =p)im still quite blur about the rules and all, they were quite tolerant on the whole, hehe. more than tolerant, they actually included me (cos the game went really fast, then i was still like a sotong trying to figure out the rules and all) in the game and made effort to pass the ball to me, explained the rules as we're playing. think if im going next week (which i most probably would, marian's also quite enthu abt this..heehe. so i hav company!), i'll not be so ambitious as to jog before the game anymore. haha. gonna jus ask clarence to fetch me. save some energy for the game. lol.

ok, im off to massage my legs. haha. goodnight ppl.

God Bless.

something's amiss. but i just can't figure what it is now.

swan valley

went swan valley today, which is about 40min drive away. visited fruit farm, chocolate factory and wineries. was quite disappointed mangoes werent ripe yet~! weather was too cold. bleah, was looking forward to plucking mangoes and savouring them of cos. and the ice cream freezer at the choc factory broke down or something, then the ice-cream melted..so i can't get to try the super yummy ice cream that everyone has been talking about~ rarh. -_-"

but wasn't all bad, heh..got to sample juices, chocs (had lots of them. lol. yummy~), jams, wine and cheese. free of cos. haha. had an enjoyable time, my mum went with me, hehe. finally, successfully dragged her out of the room. she wasn't too keen to go out at first, especially with my group of friends, cos she thinks she'll feel out of place. but yeah, it all went well, she enjoyed herself too. and im glad. we went around took some photos, was very relaxing, had a great time. partially cos i didnt have to drive. muahaha. kinda random, but i miss my vespa~

anyway during that few hours trip to swan valley, i returned with, 2 bottles of grape juices (no added sugar and flavouring, but its super sweet and refreshing!), a packet of chocolate (thats for sure~), brinjal pickle (some kind of a dip, thats really nice too, trust me..im not a brinjal person, but i love this. goes well with salad and bread, even rice.), fig jam (but guess wat, when i got home i realised the person packed in the wrong bottle, sigh. i've got mango chutney instead. deb's favourite huh. goes well with papadum she says, so next trip to coles, papadum's gonna be on my groceries list. =p), got 2kg of seedless grapes. hmm, not too bad..i'll save a bottle of the Golden Muscatel(grape juice) to share with my non-alcohol drinking darling when im back in SG, lol..with rest of the gang of cos. ahaha. yeah yeah...TPS u wine lover..i've got dessert wine for u too. photos up soon.

tomorrow for church, going first service. haha. cos we're going dim sum after that. again. lol. this time for Cheryl who missed our last dimsum outing. hehe. ooh yeah. i get to eat my yummy egg tarts again, and i can have deb's share again, right debz right!?!?! hahaha. aiyahhhz. this girl, dunno wat she's missing out~ don't like egg tarts!? hehehe. thats always the first dish i attack!!

hmm, so i've checked, sunrises at 628am tomorrow. im intending to wake 6am for a jog before service. i hope im diciplined enough. haha. have not been jogging due to stomach flu previously, then after, laziness cos i lost the momentum. bleah. then my face bloated again, cos i've been having chocs practically everyday. if its not chocs, its nutella. haha. anyway i hope my stamina hasnt dropped too much.

there's intervarsity netball trials coming up soon, feel so tempted to go for it. attend training sessions and stuffs. and there's also social netball team for season at lakeside recreation centre..feel like joining also lei. but really not sure. hmm, by the time should be busy with my PSY311 assignment and some other tests.. though i think with abit of time management, its not gonna be a problem..but rarh. hmm. i miss those days on the courts. it was fun training with the team..and i've grown to love that game. guess its gonna be different even if i joined the social team now..but no harm trying yeah..heh...will see how.

ooh shucks, 1050pm already!? hmm, ciao, gonna bathe now. will try to update again soon. =p

God Bless.

What's your love language?

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Acts of Service.

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Quality Time:		10
Acts of Service:		7
Physical Touch:		5
Receiving Gifts:		4
Words of Affirmation:		4

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down with tummy flu. bleah. thought i almost died yesterday, haa. but i survived the pain, the puking and the giddiness.. feeling much better today. *im a sur-bi-bohr!* so much for our first cooking and movie session~ im sorry guys.. such a wet blanket. we'll do it again soon..maybe next time round, we'll just order pizza to save time, haaha.

so its the start of week 5 now, time just flies. woah..and it seemed as though i was just back in perth yesterday. must. stop dreaming. havent realy figured out what methods 3 is about till now, the lecturer just mumbles all the way. rarh. and i havent started researching on the assignment. must start must start must start. ooh. ok, i'll do it tmr.

its the asics bridges run this coming sunday, though its 10km, dont think i can join anymore. uh..think i be flying jon's and maryann's kite. but i think the state im in now, would probably faint before i reach the 5km mark. i feel tired climbing up the stairs to my room, barely have energy for anything. B2, i can join you in grazing now..haha. *moooooooooo*

ok lar, signing off now.

GodBless

Vibe Party

Freshies BBQ

sweet.

my best friend called and sms-ed me today! finally, like after so long, gosh..i missed her! but ok..what she sms-ed made up for MIA-ing for so long. *tears* hahhaha. anyway, its strange how it isnt a forte of my closest friends to keep in contact and stuffs. but all's good.. though not constantly in touch, i thank God for these strong friendships forged.

darling checked in the other day too, and that really made my day as well. sweet. really, she was jus checking if i still had problems with those creepy crawlies. haa.

i wasnt really feeling good these few days..but its jus these lil things in life that lifts my spirit up. yeah..frenz help to keep us sane. haa. jus as B2 said the other day. ooh i love u guys! -hugs-

Help me Lord, to find my place in You. Lord I come to You as who I really am and not what i pretend to be, Lord, You know me far better than i know myself...the truth is i often get so lost in a maze of choices, and i confess from the beginning that i am lost... take my hand Lord, and lead me.

Help me overcome challenges and live a lifestyle that is pleasing to You, until the day I see You face to face..

im trying to irritate the shit out of myself - playing minesweeper advanced when my eyes are almost closing. thought i had lots to say, but i guess probably not now, maybe never. some stuffs, are better left unsaid.

anyways, been a busy week. im just glad its the start of murdoch's week break. time for a good rest (hopefully), catch up on readings, prob gonna hang out with B2 n bobo for the most part, study, AND food and movie time! yeah baby!
tues gonna meet up with an ABC that i came to know from my tute; for movies n lunch i think. its like defintely a first la..after 2years..im going out with a friend i met in tute, apart from those in psych and churchmates that i always hang out with. wed, it'll be dinner with hazel at little creatures...ooh i've been so wanting to check that place out.

went for a jog with marian today, one of the freshies i got to know this sem. funny gal, absolutely crazy abt timtams..haa.
anyway..its been a great sem till now. finally, ...im starting to sink-in and really starting to enjoy what Perth has to offer. i mean its great back home in SG, missing my family, frens n stuffs...but i guess if im here i should learn to enjoy before i go back SG for good..then i'll start to miss perth. that'll be like.......stupid lar.

ok .. im like blogging such fragmented thoughts... think im gonna stop here. didnt even blog wat i most wanna say..

*takes a deep breath*

life's good. goodnight ppl. God bless.

"He is no fool who gives what he cannot keep to gain what he cannot lose."
-Jim Elliot

...how my soul longs for You..

How lovely is

Your dwelling place

Oh Lord Almighty,

For my soul longs

And even faints

For You

Oh, here my heart

Is satisfied

Within Your presence

I see beneath

The shadow of

Your wings

One thing I ask,

And I would seek,

To see Your beauty

To find You in

The place Your glory dwells

My heart and flesh cry out

For You, the Living God

Your Spirit's water to my soul

I've tasted, and I've seen

Come once again to me

I will draw near to You

I will draw near to You

To You

Better is one day in Your courts

Than thousands elsewhere...

(Chris Tomlin - Better is one day)

my dad's IT savvy! lOl

wah! im chatting on msn with my dad! way coool. yahhhhhhhh! sent him photos i took and sending him mp3s. haha. quite funny.

anyway thanks ahjie! =p

this is really a first man. heh...wonder how much blood u vomitted. lol

for no particular reason (i think..) ...
i jus feel like....
SIGHing

part II

so its, 1.11am now...

after all the cleaning..n disinfecting...n spraying..AND more cleaning n spraying.... and the whirl of phobic thoughts swirling in my head. im darn tired.

after all the hoo-haas right, stayed around for half an hour to look ard if there were any more crawlies..and i thought it was safe enough..so i went bathe. came out...n i saw 2 more! to more horror n disgust....~ sigh. slowly making their way up up up the wall.... anyway...it was bad la, like those on the ceilings ah..super buay steady crawlies la...dun noe why they hav to crawl up there, crawl abit, then half their body almost wanted to drop off from the ceiling a few times..then tried to get itself back into position again. dangerous lar! what if it falls on my head..falls on the carpet...sigh. haiyo. haiyo. i hope i dun feel stupid tmr, cos got one of those things fell onto my half loaf of bread (the outer plastic covering)..then i threw the whole thing away. so now, im officialy breakfast-less tmr.

and i got a feeling..i'll regret posting this and the previous entry. cos i told my cell leader on msn, and he was already laughing his head off. literally..i can visualize. *shakes fist* really scared wat...but anyway..after much spraying n ranting..and its been a few hrs already..so im quite drained n tired n quite cooled down now...tho a bit claustrophobic now cos i keep thinking there're so many alien creatures sharing this same room with me.

so now for a moment..i can truly emphatise with ppl suffering from OCD.

i shall kick away the thought of arming myself with insecticide as i proceed to my bed.. God help me fall asleep~ I know You love me!! get those bugs away from me!

.......

mark this date.

grossest day ever! ugh. thats wat i hate abt perth. so much darn creepy crawlies! i dunno why, it must be the weather or something; before i vacummed my room, it wasnt there; the next moment, after i went downstairs n kept the vacumm cleaner, walked into my room, and WHOALA! there it was. or rather, there THEY WERE!! sobs. dunno wat those things were...but there were at least a dozen of those white/transparent worm like creepy crawlies on my wall and ceiling. *shivers* stunned for a moment. probably for a minute, stood there frozen, din noe wat i shld do. jus stared at those wriggly little....ughhh. and those on the ceilings..almost dropped down onto the floor as they were crawling...*distressed* u have no idea how much phobia i have towards all these....sucks. i just shared abt this phobia in cell group last weeeeek!! arrghh! i really hated that. my mum always settle those stuffs for me....sobs. i remember when i was in sg...if there was a coakroach/bug/or the like in my room (the kind that flies)..i'll be scared stiff, dun even dare to run out of my room. then i'll jus wrap myself in blanket..n shout for my mum. thennnn she will come to my rescue. now....im like 10000 miles away from her la. boohoooooo. so anyway, i cldnt possibly let those creepy crawlies stay in my room, cos i can nv nv nv nv nv get to sleep if i noe i was in the same room with at least 10 other different species. in the end, toook a deep breath(and i meant REALLY REALLY DEEP BREATH) n squashed those wormies with bulletins/magazines...or watever i cld lay my hands on. ughhhh!!! wat an ordeal! after this hardest part...i almost went mad. RE-cleaned every nook and cranny, disinfected every corner AGAIN! grabbed all my anti-bacterial stuffs i have, cleaned!! clean clean clean! and RESPRAYED double amount of HIGH PERFORMANCE insecticide. creepy crawlies DIE! die they shall! they shall not invade my room! nonononononono!!!

sobs. i hope i don't get nightmare tonight.

shld i respray insecticide again...? sigh. i dont feel safe!!

I MISS THEM! boohoo

mummy and daddy onboard cruise virgo.

what i've been up to..

Hi all,

so i've been back for 2 days; was extremely busy being a Maria. basically, unpacked, changed bedsheets, wash bedsheets, vacumm room + passage way, clean the whole room - every nook n cranny of it (aust gets dusty veryyyyy easily), wash toilet, wash all my utensils AND disinfected every single of them with boiling water...open up the aircon vent n cleaned it, and the list goes on and on and on...topped everything up by spraying spider control n insect spray all around. anyway..im starting to think im a freak. i might be a tad bit messy at times..but totally obsessive with cleanliness.

well, today i realised my car died on me. yeah. it DIED! sigh, spent a bomb on that. my friend who was supposed to look after the car for me said it was alive and kicking 2 weeks ago though. hmm. anyway, my first desperate attempt to revive the car was to call ah goh, headed down to a petrol kiosk and bought the jumpstart wiring thingy.. then after he helped me jumpstart..but failed attempt. btw, the wires cost me $25. ok then..made a few calls..in the end sent for RAC roadside assistance. that came..help me jumped start the car...hooray....it started, cost me $168. so i left the car running for 45min before i off the engine. yeah guess wat...cant start again. then i called RAC again..and this time they suggest i change the battery, which i purchased from them. so the guy popped down, and installed the new batt..cost me another $110. *vomits blood*

ok, thats not the end. i realised had a speeding ticket when i got back. and i was above the speed limit by only 10km/hr. got slapped with $112 fine ($12 cos i paid the fine late, becos i was in SG obviously). too tired to appeal by then..so i jus paid for it anyway. if i wanna appeal..i've to either fax (i've got no fax machine!) all the documents or travel all the way down to eastperth. nah ahhh, forget it. im sure those people are gonna give me more problems. not gonna take chances.

so anyway briefly summed up this 2 days for me..the 'major' events that took place. haa.
tmr there's gonna be student helpers meeting. and thats abt it.

hmm, its starting to warm up here.. and thats a good sign that its really summer. haa. i love it. i just can't stand cold weathers. =( summer means beach outings!! winter = less jogs, more meals => roundish jing.

oooh yeah another thing before i end off, im thinking of getting an Independent Studies Contract. which is a one to one thingy with the lecturer. so im free to come up with any topic i want, then come to a consensus with the lecturer on how the course goes and how much course credit it'll carry. so if i got that, i wont need to take up any nonsense electives. instead with this ISC, i can fulfil my student visa requirements and at the same time do something that'll look good on my transcript. but the thing is, have to find a lecturer who is willing to do that..cos it only takes up their time and they're not paid for it. and it so happened i saw my favourite lecturer while i was doing groceries. he said he wld love to help, but tooooooo bad, he's retired! ugh! anyway he said wld help recommend some other lecturers to me. depends on how free they are though....so brothers and sisters, pls help me keep this in prayers. oh and also gotta pray i frame my mind back into mode academia and mode australia. haha. don't wanna still have that holiday mood and half my mind still in SG, not very the goooood ah. haha. thanks heaps. =)

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2 of my favourite people. i love this photo. haa.

wy and tps. bestest buddies from CSS.

bobo and me! at FCBC Youthnet's NY bash.

Stella and me. *hugz* love ya sis! =)

hello, anyone there? haaa.

alright ppl, its been a long while since i've last updated my blog. wonder who ever checks in now. anyway lots has happened..but nyeah..i'll jus post a few photos up. kinda lazy to organise my thoughts now. haha. cheers.

wow.

that 'wow' was for myself. whahaaha. i wasn't as tired as i thought i would be, after having less than 10hours of sleep for the past 4 days combined. could still push myself to work out at california fitness today with kelvin sir and james. hehe. it was fun! i tried the boxercising class or something like that, before that did my run on the treadmill, and some other conditioning exercise. ultimate work out day. wahh, now im thinking of getting that lifetime membership. the atmosphere inside seem to psyche me up. hehe. plus, the classes are fun. they have pilates, yoga, some dance class like hip hop and latino jazz..and lots more others. hehe..anyway i still have 1mth before the free pass expires. hmm, they hav branches in the states, and some other asia countries, but they just dun have it in perth!! ugh! will see how, think im gonna be quite busy this Dec. YCYP youthcamp, Big Move and taekwondo chalet coming up...'Magic of Love' during the xmas period, and FCBC's xmas bash. all exciting stuffs!

and yesh...meeting up with all of you guys! wonder if i still wanna work part time now..seem a lil packed..and i do want some time to just rest and relax, do my readings for next semester AND just some leisure reading...

*yawn* gonna rest now..maybe watch some anime before i sleep. haha. anyway hair's still wet. tomorrow, going pulau ubin for trial run of camp games and stuffs. gonna be HOT i think.

greetings - from land near the equator.

so im back for approximately 6 hours now. still able to adapt to the humidity, not too bad. after i set foot into my house for like an hour, friends from liquids (cafe where i use to work part time) jio-ed me to a bar at Club street. apparently today is the bar's opening day...think the owner is my cafe boss's friend. anyway i didnt drink, stayed for awhile and they decided to go kbox. good idea too, cos i wasn't very keen on staying at that place for long. seem a lil dodgy to me. so the whole lot trooped down to paradiz centre. i wasnt quite in the mood for ktv either. haa. wanted to have a chat with one or two of the friends from liq, but both places were too noisy to do any catching up. and while i was at ktv, kelvin called me...and scolded me, cos i didnt call him after i touched down. sigh, im starting to feel the hectic pace here in Singapore already. didnt even get to rest properly. in less than 4hrs time, i have to wake up, go sin ming road to get my bike's insurance and road tax and all (my dad...RARHH!! i dunno how he lost them...create more problems for me). ugh. so if i don't do them tomorrow...i can't ride my bike (cos then it'll be illegal). RARHH!! then after...kelvin wants me to go california fitness with him. i obliged, wondering though if i have the energy to even do a proper workout. after all those which i'll proceed to FCBC, yeah...i miss FCBC!! looking forward to that. can't wait to see all my dearie sis... think i'll be tired, but i guess i'll feel recharged once i step into the doors of FCBC! hehe.

sobs. less than 4hrs of sleep. goodbye for now.

darling! when are we meeting!? i miss you guys! for now though..me get my beauty sleep first.

rarh!

extremely hot day. i'd rather summer than winter though. can look forward to my jogs in the evenings at least. jogging jogging jogging.. arGh, my knees are starting to ache again. i feel like a 22year old cooped in an ah ma's body. all those sports injuries, and aching joints when it gets too cold..ugh! anyway, i think its just the weather making me all grouchy. rarrrrrrrhhhh. im gonna get some ice-cream now.

changed the layout of my blog. got this from www.blogskins.com you guys can go check it out..this site has blogskins for lots of different themes. didnt bother to surf at that site for long though, i thought this was pretty nice, so just adopted it and made some very minor changes. =)

nothing much to blog about these few days. most of my friends have sat for at least 1 or 2 of their papers, and im still waiting for my one and only paper on the 24th. not complaining about how that one paper has to fall on the 2nd last day of the exam period; still thankful for all that has happened this semester and how well things turned out to be in the end. can't help reiterating the fact - how great is our God, who always makes a way out for us no matter what crisis we meet with. as i've experienced personally many times this year, His timing was and is impeccable; never early never late, always showing up at the right moment, wanting only the BEST for us. He reveals His presence, love, strength and specific guidance, creating a path through the most painful wilderness.

Thank You Lord.

"The Lord is righteous in all his ways and loving toward all he has made. The Lord is near to all who call on him to all who call on him in truth. He fulfils the desires of those who fear him, he hears their cry and saves them. The Lord watches over all who love him but all the wicked he will destroy. My mouth will speak in praise of the Lord. Let every creature praise his holy name for ever and ever." -Psalm 145: 17-21

many reasons to praise Him [and be thankful]

Dear God, I have so many reasons to praise you. In the face of trial and hardship I have your promises to re-awaken my hope. In the moment of victory I have you to thank for my abilities. In the boredom of the routine, I have great joys in your surprises. Thank you God for being so great and for Your grace. Thank You for loving me, just as i am. In Jesus name. Amen.

shopping!

YEAH!!!

alright, yet another terrible collaging. but thats not the point here!!

i've finally got myself a coffee maker!! yiipppeeee doooooo! and it came with a blender! good stuff! cost me AUD$240. not too bad i would think. then after i had to go shop for 'accessories'. lOl. got 2 latte cups and a frothing jug. haa! oooh then i saw this cute coffee mug set and i got one of those too. it was actually tagged at $20, but when i paid for it, the lady said it was some x'mas box set and was on some sort of sale..so in the end paid only $14 for the set of 4 mugs.

hmm. then i got myself a pair Aasics! yay! yet another reason to force myself to be consistent in my runs. haha.

tomorrow, i shall try my first homemade cup of cappucino. mmmmmmmmm!!!!
coffee anyone!? lolz.

yeah bobo, i can almost see you jumping around, doing a lil dance waiting for your mocha! haa. come come, bring along your hersheys choc syrup and i'll make you a nice cuppa. *grins*

-bliss-

gadget itch, again.

1) Coffee maker/Expresso machine
2) HDD view cam
3) Heart rate monitor
4) Nokia 8800
5) External Hard disk drive

oooooh...I WANT I WANT I WANT I WANT!!
lustful creature i am.

FUN FUN FUN with photoshop!

i can almost visualize bobo shaking her head at this awful job done. lol. i'll try harder another day! stay tuned for more photos....and, hopefully better collaging.

my first try at collage! me with mei'en (left), cheryl (right).

madness!

Hello there my faithful readers! lol. so its about time i introduce to you guys a few of the frequently mentioned names in my blog.

first up - ellie - featuring as the running witch in this video.
taken during our mini halloween party [read: JUNK FOOD and horror movies night].

"mmmmm.. numnumnumnum" (Woodford, 2005).

im still alive.

classes have officially ended, so the mugging bug has come a-hopping along. this semester seems to fly by quite fast. 3 more weeks to the end. now that the dates are drawing near, im not so sure if im really looking forward to going back Singapore. haa. yeah -sweats- maybe its just the break i need, but i don't know what to expect when i return to SG. oh boy.

havent been exactly busy, just a case of bochupness. went a few places, met a few people .. and for the most part its just studying in the library with deb and ellie. anyway it's all good.

wish i have more to say. but thats all for now. just a short note to say, "yeah im still alive." =)

New Feature!

Haven't been posting for a few days. I've been studying. =) Honest!!
well.....not 24/7. BUT at least exam preparations are well underway.

Alright, so what's this NEW FEATURE about. may i please direct your attention, once again to the sidebar on your right [in case some of you dunno your left/right. Right is this way -> ]. thank you very much.

lolz, ok ok, dun bash me up when u see me. anyway i've been trying to find out how to put background music on my blog for quite sometime now. i still can't get it to autoplay, best I could do is to place a player on the sidebar..for you guys to click and listen. anyway i thought this is a pretty cool idea, rather than have the music on suddenly when the page loads, kinda irritating at times [I'm sure you all agree with me, right!?]. anyway, i don't care..you'll have to agree with me..it's my blog. lolz.

I will try to get the song changed, once every week [hence the header 'Pick of the Week'], that is if I don't get too lazy. haha.

[out of curiosity though, i stilll wanna know how to get music autoplay when page loads. so if any of you know, drop me a message. haha. thank you thank you.]

gotta thank Chee Chiu for introducing this castpost to me. but hey...i figured out how this work, got it on my blog, aligned it properly and stuffs... all by myself. *smug look*

alright...its not all perfect, my meropet header got mis-aligned in the process. and i can't figure out how to align it properly. actually wanted to pretend I didnt see it or that it was just supposed to be that way, but our dear bobo simply has to point that out to me. rarhhh! anyway...looks good mis-aligned also. err...right? we'll leave that for now. -_-" THANKS BOBO!

anyway.....

enjoy the music.

attack of the killer pets

ugh! i've received news that janeyz pet has grown as big as hachiko! oh no...! attacks of the killer big-feet-meropets.

need. to feed kon more!

so today i've handed in my last assignment for this sem! *WHOOOOOOOOOOPEEE DOOO*
then i went garbo with my mum to shop a lil and finally satisfy my craving for boost juice. haha. nice.

up next, print out all my stat notes. start studying tomorrow. rough draft of my timetable from now till semester ends, study and make time to jog at least thrice a week. i feel like a big blob of fats now. not too goood. -_-" other than that, its just that i really miss my runs. makes me feel good about myself. i think its that feeling of pushing your body to the limits, and that kinda triggers something in my brain. more than often it brings a whole new perspective to 'disturbing' situations that im facing and my life. well they did say that exercising makes a person happier. =)

done.

done with my research proposal, don't know why though, don't seem especially happy or excited. somehow not satisfied with the quality of this assignment. or maybe im just too tired today. well alright, thats the last for this semester. up next - devise a study plan for exam preparation. although there's only 1 paper to take, gotta make sure i cover every single concept there is to grasp.

few issues weighing on my mind, some of which needs immediate attention. but i just...don't wanna think about it right now. instead my mind's wandering off to somewhere it shouldnt be. need to re-align my focus again.

anyhow, i think i should sleep.

-out-

yet another rambling moment

-sleeeeeepy-

but still.......just can't resist an entry before i sleeep, so Kon will growww. and grow he shall......haaa. [ok, so i lied! main reason's cos hair is still wet...grrrrr, i have this bad habit of having to wash my hair everytime i bathe no matter how late it is. irritating.]

just came back from deb's place. i seem to be hanging out at her place and library very often these few days. and i reckon wld be so till this semester ends. then i'll be back back back to haunt most of you guys in SG. yippeee dooo~! start counting down. muahahaha.

my research proposal still needs abit of editing, i think i'll be able to complete by tomorrow evening, have it nicely printed out and stuff.. ~whoala~ that will then be the end of rushy assignment period for this semester~! *grins*

today's dinner was fantabulous, together with Su and Ellie, we whipped up a few dishes. [warning: wear a bib before reading on lest you drool onto ur shirt] so we had...chicken herbal soup, sweet and sour pooork (i have been ellie-fied, help!), brinjal (yucks to purple vege, but apparently they love it), and a dish of GREENS (thank God). oh alright, maybe the list/dishes wasn't enough to make you drool, but still, it was n i c e. =)

ooh yeah huh, yesterday cz (campus zone) murdoch & kardy combined to celebrate a few October babies's birthday. took quite a number of photos. wld try and post a few up soon. gotta get them from my friend. sadly, my sony T1 has been super duper under-utilised this semester. either i was lazy or i'd porrrget[compirmmed, ellie-piication complete.] to bring it out.

well...what to say, stressful period, but still managed to squeeze in fun and laughter. God's really been good, and i mean really goooooooooood. after all the downs and more downs this semester, everything just smoothed out in the end and i've finally made peace with my warped up inner being, all by God's grace. Praise God.

ooh, i can't resist this, but Ellie is porrr you. i think me and deb's should help u cure your case of fruit-o-phobia. haa. first off, before we use the desensitization technique, you'll have to want that phobia cured yourself. so, before you sleep ebrynight..will yourself using this -

repeat after me -

fruits are food.
fruits are good.
i love fruits.

fruits are food.
fruits are good.
i love fruits.

hmmmmmmmmmm. yumz. X10

oooh im so gonna get bashed~~ haa, no right ellie? -peace-

alright enough from me porrr the day. its getting kinda disturbing reading my entries isnt it.

goodnight everyone.

-bliss-

Everybody, meet Kon!

Ladies and gentlemen, I hereby introduce a newly added member of this site - Kon. hahaa. ok, in case most of you are still wondering who kon is; its a new blogpet that i've adopted (with the help of bobo *ops* i meant debbie). cos seriously, i know nuts about all those RSS feed thingy and certainly do not understand a word of Jap [from the signup process to the adding of friends and all those in between...its all in Jap!]. kinda sad cos i simply have no idea what the conversation is about. *dismayed look*

debbie i need a crash course in jap! haha. at least enough for me to understand what kon and hachiko's [deb's blogpet] crapping about.

ooh yea..anyway one might ask why i adopt a pet that speaks jap then..haa, cos apparently they don't have the english version for it, and im jus bored la [hey, im in perth ok], also, out of curiosity, im jus interested to see how big my pet can grow and what it'll turn out to be like.

so the more i blog, the bigger it'll grow. i have a feeling its gonna stay the same until my assignments are all over, or maybe not. haa.

well yeah, i'll try to figure it out myself when i have the time. next up, gonna try and add suli.

ooh yeah..i named my blogpet after Kon from Bleach! haa. just finished episode 52 at deb's place...so tomorrow after a hard day of work at the library[betting to complete my proposal], i can unwind with episode 53 [b4 i left deb's place jus now, was still in the process of downloading]. haa. hoooray to anime!

for now though, goodnight. =)

apt.

i think this new site name, fits me just fine. i really am dazed. to the extent that i am hurting myself - physically.

to start with, last night in the middle of sleep, i knocked my head against the wall. then this morning when i closed the bathroom door, i dunno how, but my toes went underneath the vent.
then after, i knocked my knee onto the wall and got bruised as a result. thennnn right about 5 minutes ago, i flipped my hands around to sort of stretch abit, the tip of my fingers hit my table lamp.

dazed, i am. blur. stressed. injury-prone day. [insert watever reason]

back to work it is.

Official Apology

SORRY peeps! haaha. anyway i got a few 'hum tums' from you guys already [first up was ah xin...lolz...small, cute....and fierce]. know that some of you linked me up to ur site. this IS gonna be the final change [i promise! well... at least for the near future] lOl.

oks doks, laters.

just a quick one

so what's this corny blog URL (for-the-benefit-of-ppl-in-sv.blogspot.com) about...one might wonder. well its dedicated specially to my dearest friends staying in Student Village, namely, SPSS Guru - Suli & Ellie - THE ONE to seek for all who wants their inner-pilipino unleashed.
well, cos the old blog url ended with 2 dash(jing--), and somehow school server forbidded viewing due to that, and obviously the corniness in me resurfaced after being in the company of these fine individuals, hence the present url.

yesh sireee, these guys are a crazy bunch. felt glooomy whole of today as i tried to do all my assignments. but things certainly turned for the better after i met up with ellie, suli and debbie in the compt lab to go over the SPSS exam questions. not only did i feel more confident of the lab test for this coming wed, totally enjoyed basking myself in the company of these people. u guys rawk! for a moment there, i wasn't fretting over deadlines and stuffs..

anyway for the rest of you guys, im sorry u'll have to bear with this url for a while. haa. i'll change it soon. maybe tomorrow. lol.

well now, its back to rushing my research proposal. =)

oh btw, SPSS = Statistical Package for Social Sciences

[quote]

The supreme happiness of life is the conviction that we are loved.

-Victor Hugo

God is good.

Everything just changes so fast. Only God is constant. He is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow. His love never fails.

God's been good. He's been with me. Even though i'm not faithful, He is. Even when i cant feel Him sometimes, He's here just by me.

*smiles

Why I'm still here at 5.37am...

progress too slow for my own liking. grrrr. work seems neverending. grrrrrrrrrrrrr....

argghhhhh.

enough said.

nothing more, nothing less. its just.......

S T R E S S

attitude with altitude!

i love this!

=]

FINALLY [i love caps, haa, so fun and useful. lol], my eye not hurting as much anymore. it still hurts occasionally and i still get that blurry vision, but its all good. i can start getting into full swing for my assignments. and its right about time..THANK GOD. Initially doc said need at least 2 weeks, so i guess i have to be really thankful i can stare at the screen for half a day now, look at my food without yelping in pain..and all.

so im in quite a good mood, for now. don't know how long this good mood is gonna last, maybe it will end tomorrow when reality smacks me right on the cheek. haa. ooohh that 60% assignment, I have to get at least a D for it. well..not just that assignment, I kinda expect this grade for all my work, ah well..

kinda excited about having to rush my assignments and mugging for exams, i don't know why though. i don't think i have been nerdified to that extent, might just be the sub-conscious thought of getting it all done and heading back to SG soon after.

sick of being sick!

this has had to be one of the most exasperating week[it has been THAT long] of my life. knowing i have loads of work to complete, yet i can do nothing but eat and sleep. argh! i can't even eat properly [cos even taking a look at the food makes me yelp in pain], and im so sick of being able to do nothing but sleep and sleep. and how can i sleep at ease when all those datelines are drawing so near.

my eye is not getting any better. today the pain in my eye gave me a terrible headache. worst off than migraine. i had throbbing pain at the temple and throbbing pain IN the eye.
oh gosh. i feel so........arghhhh!!! blarrdee.........

and i had a friend who commented that she couldnt feel my stress and wish instead that she was the one down with viral infection [so she neednt do any work]. gawd......come on man, there's nothing more to be thankful about than a healthy body. i love my work and im committed to give a hundred percent to my studies.

when is all these gonna end. i have no more time to lose!! oh man.....i can't afford to jus scrap through...i can't afford to fail! i can't. i dun want to. Lord help me.

You're all I need.

Thank You Father, for all that I'm going through now..I thank You for each and every challenge that is placed right before me. For it is with all these that I can experience Your love, Your mercy and Your grace, for it is through all these circumstance that I learn and I grow. I will embrace all; not by might nor power, but by Your Spirit..I shall overcome all obstacles, and may all glory go to You.

Lord You're all I need. Thank You for meeting me and giving me that special assurance.

drained.

Yay. Thank God I found a place to move out end of this semester. Deb's old place, but sadly she won't be my housemate; either she's moving out or returning to SG after graduation. Anyway, I wonder what my new housemates would be like, but anyone would be better than the present housemates, this I'm absolutely sure of.

Well, ok...tutor allowed extension of deadline for my research proposal. Thank God for that. Not that its anything worth being happy about, but sigh, better than nothing la. Hope I can do my research properly and *fingers crossed* still able to do some critical thinking and analysis.

So I'm about halfway through one of my assignments. 2 more to go.

I guess I won't be checking in for quite awhile now. Time to buckle up, it's gonna be mad rush for the rest of this week. Hopefully the next entry would be something like "Yay..I've completed my assignments..." something like that..ah well...

thats all for now folks.

arGh!

Just came back from the docs. [I'll spare you guys the agony of my rantings just on trying to see a doc, that in itself is a whole story to tell, and I don't have time for that]. Spent Aud$45.85...with no medication whatsoever. I was told that it was some kinda viral infection, plain unlucky..no medicine for this. So how? BE patient...in about 2 or 3 weeks time...I'll be ok.

*takes a deep breath*

arGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

insane....2 weeks!!!? this pain and discomfort...what about my assignments!? no doubt he gave me 2 weeks MC....but still..I have to complete my assignments somehow....and with exams round the corner.

*sobs*

God help me.

Feeling much better after popping 2 panadols...at least I can face the screen with both eyes open now. My left eye felt as though all the nerves ruptured or something just now, tears kept oozing out...arr..bloody. I felt like a vampire for a moment, totally dreaded light. I hope this doesnt happen again tomorrow when I wake. terrible.

Anyway I slept the whole day, and I think I'm going to sleep again soon...just felt bored, so I thought I'll crap a few words here. hmm, wanna thank ah goh and stef for dropping by and buying me fish porridge. thought i wanna blog about perth royal show too, but not quite in the mood now.

arGh....I've got SO MUCH to do during this 1 week break (3 assignments, 2 of them worth 30% each and another worth 60%...shucks), and its not helping that I started this hols by being sick. Things certainly don't look pretty at this point in time. Im scared. shitless. and there's nothing out there to hold on to. I guess thats what my faith is for.

ahhh crap....!!

I'm sick.

I've got sore eyes.

My [left] eye hurts.

My head hurts.

grrrr........!!!!

thats all for now. bye.

Our God is an awesome God

so...im not really in the best of mood now..due to certain reasons....
still, i just feel like saying..

I LOVE MY GOD!

my prayer for today.

Father, make in me a right heart that knows You then lives aright for You. Help me live the way You want, help me trust wholeheartedly in Your loving plans for me and let me understand the cost of obedience. Father enable me by Your Spirit to make choices which are wise and avoid sinning against You again. Amen.

not a bad day afterall

this afternoon when I came bac from school, kena headache again...dunno why keep getting these bouts of headaches recently.... went to take a nap and forced myself to wake up at around 3pm...cos I promised Kelvin sir that I wld go curtin find him, take some photos with him (convocation). Anyway...after I drove all the way to curtin, I couldnt find him, so in the end waited somewhere and read my notes.....1hr later he finally called me...and tat was after his photo taking session.....$%%^#$^%....shld hav continued with my nap. but ok, to make up for it, he did buy me a curtin uni t-shirt[and he did suggest to throw in another curtin uni jacket, or something like tat], red color somemore, my favourite color! hehe....but i told him, i don't even have any Murdoch Uni t-shirt, seemed strange for me to wear something with Curtin Uni printed on it...haa...but ok, I accepted the t shirt anyway..since it was red.....lets hope the wording will come off after I wash it or something....lolz...jus joking!!... [ok, not funny... come on...its 235am now, wat do u expect from me at tis kinda time huh].

...anyway..drove him bac to my place, cos i wanted to do my work, and he needed to study for his last paper... I shld have known...sigh, he NAGGED.. and we talked about taekwondo, club stuffs, abt people, abt everything under the sun 90% [conservative approximation] of the time we were at my place.....remaining 10% consisted of transition time for settling down to do work and err, finally abit of serious reading....therefore effective work done, was almost as good as ZERO.

hmm, although it sounds like im complaining....but actually no la..really enjoyed his company. missed those taekwondo training days. tough training, but i love it! he kept on yakking at it until i feel so motivated to go bac for training again...yeshhh...I feeeeel like im gonna make a comeback!! I WILL..haa..im not gonna let this passion of mine die off [plus, I miss those flat-tummy and not-so-chubby-face days]...think I've taken a long enough break. waahaha. but err...sigh, still gotta be stucked in perth for 2years....no chance to go for nationals until im settled back in Singapore. Hav to train consistently, get bac in shape and all first....anyway..national tourney always held during august - the time when im still rushing assignments like mad...tragic! Can only hear stories abt my frens training hard and improving each day, only me....growing fatter n fatter each day here. -_-" ....seems like its almost raining everyday again now...if not i actually feel quite motivated to do jogging n some circuit training on my own ~~ nvmind...where there's a will..there's gonna be a way. haa...maybe i can do some strengthening exercise in my room...control kicks n stuffs huh......hehe. well that was what i did last time when i was so mad abt tkd, trained everyday and every minute i could..did stretching while i was watching tv...haa..those were the days. I guess, i really love the feeling of being really passionate abt something...sort of gives more meaning to life. life without passion...hmm..unthinkable...sounds kinda sad to me, anyway i do believe passion drives one to great heights.

anyway.....even before i did all those training....brought kelvin sir out for supper again.
hmm, although i seem to hav lost interest in talking these days..and nv really hav much comments or views about anything anymore.....but while i was with kelvin sir jus now, seem to never run out of stuffs to tok abt...i guess when it comes to taekwondo, we jus have neverending stuffs to talk abt, and also cos he was so super crap la.....haa...for a moment there, i was happy. for a moment there, life was good, in perth. haa. =)

I know my way around!

yay! I succesfully drove myself to Acacia hotel at northbridge, then after I brought Kelvin sir and his frenz to city garden for dinner...then after drove them to King's park.....all these WITHOUT losing my way. Yeapz! proud of myself..wahaha. *kodak moment*

I know some (if not most) people are gonna have that 'what!?!' expression on their face after reading this, and I should sort of feel ashamed rather than proud (been here for more than a year)...haa, but ok..I admit im a loser with navigating around Perth and all...hey, at least I made improvement!

So dear friends in SG, don't have to worry...come come...haha..I will bring you all around when you're in Perth. quick come find me! I know my way now. =p

oh yeah, gotta give credits to ah goh..haa..I bombed his HP quite alot of times to ask the route and all before I set off...so errr..thanks dude. lolz

我要控制我自己，不会让谁看见我哭泣..
装作我不关心你， 不愿想起你...
心痛得无法呼吸....

.....就向流星许个心愿，让你知道我爱你

[no mood for title]

arr...I've got a bloody headache today..throbbing pain. It's been quite sometime since the last one, almost forgot wat a headache feels like, but after this, I think the sensation will remain in my memory for quite sometime.

anyway haven't been in the mood to blog for a long time..as u can see, lately my posts are jus some short notes....one or two pictures.......basically nothing interesting happened.. and my thoughts seem to be in a whirl again. Oh well... I've made it a point not to blog abt that particular issue again.

today was the footy finals (Sydney swans vs WCE)....never had an interest in it, but well, since its the finals jus curious who wld win the championship (tho i wldnt even find the slightest joy even if west coast eagles won... ). My alliance wld nv be with anything to do with West Aust...lolz...
anyway sydney won 58 - 54. *hooray* lolz...... caught a few glimpse of the match as I was reading my research materials, still feel that its jus a violent senseless sport. haaa....... but i guess if you don't do the sport urself, you'll never know the 'fun' or difficulty it entails.

well, as im typing now, my tkd instructor is on the way to airport..heading for perth in a few hours time. think if time permits, might meet him tmr for dinner or something. came at a rightly time too...perth royal show is on this week, can just bring him there. haa...I've been here for almost 2yrs...and I still don't know my way around perth... Eunice (my pri sch fren) would also be in perth this coming monday....she asked if i had a car, i said yes, but I 'forgot' to tell her i hav no sense of direction whatsoever..haaha. anyway doesnt matter i guess...her boyfren is studying here, so i reckon don't need me to bring her around..heheh. ooh yea..she asked me to go paintball with her on 1st Oct, i've been wanting to try it for quite sometime now. great opportunity, and i think it'll be great to see an old friend here...sigh, i miss my frens in SG so much. It so happened that FCC cell planned for a trip to Araleun on 1st Oct...hmm....too bad, thought it wld be a good oppotunity to do a little bonding with them, but neahh.....I wanna meet my pri sch fren.

havent been to cell/FCC for quite sometime already..feel like being a hermit. sigh.
ok la, tmr after service, i must come back and do work. i must i must i must...work is piling up so high i can't even see the tip of it......

new look

So I figured I have no color sense. For all who faithfully visits my blog, SORRY for torturing your eyes previously. Though I still feel........the colour combi was kinda cool..... *okok, I can hear ppl screaming already* bye for now =p

lost.....oblivious in life's bemusing mazes..

....

dilemna

if i don't have music playing, i get bored of my work.... if i have music playing, i can't concentrate on what i need to write... what's the middle ground for this for the optimal working environment???? u'd think after 16 years of schooling, i'd have figured this out by now...

Precious Lord, Take my hand.

through the storm
through the night
lead me on to the light...

I'm not back to 100% yet....but I'm on my way.

take my hand precious Lord..
Lead me home.

Lord please grant me....

LOST:

one brain, medium-sized, grayish-pink, wrinkled. Right hemisphere slightly more developed. Believed to have been lost 2 months back. Contains important information, like where my favourite red jacket is, where I last left my tungsten T3 (my artificial backup brain), how to spell words I normally could spell in my sleep, and most of my friends' birthdays. If found, please return immediately.

busy! stress!

It would be good if I was really busy, but ohh no, I've been busy feeling stressed that im not stressed -_-" if it makes any sense to u....but it does to me. haa.

this semester, I've got a feeling that I'm drifting off..way off...maybe worked too hard previous semesters, feeling sort of burnt out now, which is really bad, cos I've got 2years more ahead of me, and the coursework is not gonna get any easier, especially during 4th year (hopefully I'll be doing my honours program). *shivers* frankly, kind of afraid for what's coming up..wondering if im able to handle and all...or worse, wondering if im able to get there at all, what if I just trip and fall flat on my face, did badly for one of the units which is gonna affect entry into honours...or something like that... arrr..no no no...shall not think so negatively. gonna let tomorrow worry for itself. Having said that, I SHOULD really get a grip on myself and start studying really really really hard and consistently already. Lord please grant me the strength and perseverance to run this race!! Let me not just start off well then end poorly; Lord enable me by Your Spirit to end this particular race You have set for me with a big bang, an end that will glorify Your name.

There's a Postgrad info night coming up, 20th sept for Clinical Psych, 28th sept for Organizational psych. Personally im more interested in clinical...but well, will go take a look and see what Murdoch has to offer... Anyway, i dun think i wanna stay in murdoch/perth for another 4years doing masters & Phd together.....! 8years total in murdoch!?!?!?! THATS INSANE! and the thought of me studying non-stop........Jing the Geek/Nerd...don't sound appealing to me lei. Well well well...will see about that. See what God has in store for me..and I shall just trust in Him wholly.

B.O.R.E.D

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY
1) Nona
2) Jing
3) ah-ooooi (pronounced weeeeee)

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD
simi lai eh???

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE
1. Chinese
2. Peranakan
3. -

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU
1. Coakroaches that fly
2. Big black unleashed dogs
3. err..hmm......

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS
1. Food!!!
2. Bible
3. anything that can play music..my ipod/laptop....

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW
1. Striped t-shirt
2. checkered boxers
3. hairband (irritating..hair getting longer..feel like chopping them off)

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS

wahh...alot leii........

1. Christian artists like Hillsong, Planetshakers, Jars of Clay, Don Moen...
2. err..bands like err...U2.. Oasis..Greenday..Coldplay..matchbox twenty..bon jovi.. goo goo dolls...earth wind & fire..
3. err....david tao, jay chou, bryan adams, michael buble, john mayer, robbie williams....

dun ask me to name them all..haa....very long list....

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE SONGS (current faves)

hmm recently..been playing..

1. Bebe and Cece Winans - El Shaddai
2. Don Moen - God will make a way
3. Bryan White - God gave me you

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP
1. God-centered
2. Communication
3. don't like it dull...so err, FUN!?

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE
1. i like reading
2. i like sports
3. i like chatting on msn

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU
1. smile
2. eyes
3. of good height

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES
1. listening to music
2. watching movies/tv programs
3. doing some sports.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW
1. EAT!!!
2. go back to Singapore
3. do anything but my work!

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING/ HAVE CONSIDERED
1. Clinical Psychologist
2. Police Officer
3. Zoo Keeper (training animals, feeding..)

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION
1. United States
2. Many parts of Europe
3. any place with a nice beach and good seafood. haa.

THREE KIDS NAMES YOU LIKE
never thought of it.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. know God more
2. impact people's life...in a positive way of cos. and what better way than to bring them into His Kingdom =)
3. fall in love, get married, have kids =p

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY
1. When i wanna do something, i just do it. don't have to wait till someone accompanies me.
2. Decisive
3. Most of my likes/hobbies are quite boyish (love gadgets, sports, cars, bikes...)


THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL
1. emotional
2. likes romantic r/s
3. hmm, and maybe i cry quite easily

THREE FEMALE CELEBRITY CRUSHES
1. Sammi Cheng
2. Sammi Cheng
3. Sammi Cheng!!!

THREE MALE CELEBRITY CRUSHES
1. Takeshi Kaneshiro a.k.a Jin Cheng Wu
2. Brad Pitt (use to...not really now)
3. Johnny Depp (not much of a crush...jus well...find him quite cool)

THREE PEOPLE THAT I WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW
1. darling
2. axileon
3. mirabel

Captivated by You

How could I live without You..

Now I come right before You with my hands lifted up, and my heart humbly bowed at Your work on The Cross..

for Your love is higher than the heavens, its deeper than the sea..All I want is You in my life, no one else can satisfy my soul, only You Lord. Only You.

Lord, its all about you...You have captured my heart once again.

ehh!? photos!?

paiseh..dunno how this thing work...cant seem to upload the photos..hav i become an IT cuckoo~~?? ohhh no........will do it at a later time n date, lazy to figure it out now. heh..~ sorry folks~

back in perth!

hii guyz, im back in perth, and finally im blogging again. been a week since im back..and im missing SG again..missing my frenz, FCBC..dear sisters in FCBC....my room..ehh..everything la. haa...had a great time back, tho its a short 2 weeks, but had a really really great time. =)

tis 1 week, got so busy with admin stuffs, and jus cant help but to complain..aust admin really sucks big time~ bleaah. anyway ah, now i got to grad end of 2007 instead of 2006~ *SOBS* one more year here....~~ but aint tt pissed anymore, cos i guess God's asking me to work in a lower gear...shall jus savour every moment i have in perth than...not that its bad here, but i jus miss home~~~!! anyway im taking things fine now..actually...better than fine! ...hee..

today went FCC, had a good time worshipping, and fellowshipping as well...after lunch they had a cake to celebrate birthdays of all July babies, and Hazel got us a book each. i had one as well~ so sweet of her~ but ehh..no promise that i will read it anytime soon....heh... *ops*

hmm. these days stuffs dun seem to be gg especially smooth for me, esp knowing that i hav to grad 1 year later and all the admin problems i hav to settle in between. but still lots of stuffs to thank God for...especially witnessing how our awesome Father is working in a good fren's life right now....and i pray for lilian to hav a burning desire in her heart to know God more, and really settle down in either FCBC or any church that she feels comfortable in. In all things that we do, remember to seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all good things will be added onto you..take care dear fren, so proud of u, i see strength n resilence in u right now! will continue praying toge with u =)

hmm, funny eh, altho its onli a week..i feel as tho i've been back for abt half a semester or something..been flipping my txtbooks..reading n trying to start some research early...dunno if i shld even be so stressed..i guess i dunno how to pace myself lei...or i overly kancheong. anyway..with that said, jus wanna try as my best to do my work with a heart of excellence..

ooh okz la, end tis post with a few photos taken in sg..celebrated bday toge with lilian (our bdays are jus 3 days apart).....at one of the kopi tiam in jurong east (sg flavoured b'day celebration!?)...with darling and tps...with a mango strudel as replacement for cake, compliments of our dear fren tps who has been working part time at ritz for 5years. haaa! i jus cant stop making fun of her...lolz..