reviewing 2008- embracing 2009.

o boy..im friggin' tired now. i thought since my arms are aching...why not go cycle. haa... so off i went on my trek. wonder how much distance i covered jus now....wonder how long it'll take to cover 40km on a bike uh.... hmm. anyway im rather psyched abt the ocbc cycle..wonder what the jersey looks like. hee..

tonight is one of those nights. rather tired and sleepy now, but i just dun wanna tuck into bed. spent some time alone outside, enjoying the quiet night, the occasional breeze, music from my iphone, and the joy of finding peace in my heart. winding down, flashes of 2008 came to mind. Take a step back, relook, review and question. what's all these buzz about in my life? its certainly all about love. tonight, im overwhelmed with love, and i feel strangely secure and happy alone. maybe cos im feeling rich in my spirit. maybe cos i feel content. maybe cos i've learnt and am embracing and cherishing what i have. maybe cos i have forgiveness in my heart. maybe just maybe. 2008 had been a fast year, i've lost some, but gained so much more. life, whether we like it or not, is pretty messy and stuffed up at times, and it seems any attempts to simplify it can be rather frustrating. the shades of grey challenges the black and white approaches. on the other hand, life can be really colourful too. full of warmth, passion, zest, and hope. the sky's the limit. the point is i guess, not to get deluded at the extremes..learning to strike a balance, which requires alot of wisdom, and awareness of self and the people around you. being true to oneself, and getting reminded that happiness is not something one can achieve alone. mind's rather saturated. feeling apprehensive yet hopeful, excited and liberated when i think about what 2009 will bring.

there are certainly a few areas where i wanna better myself in the year 2009. and i'll work towards the targets that i've set for myself. i wanna live fruitfully and meaningfully, with hope and, bringing hope :)

with doubt i seek, with courage i believe...i believe and therefore speak.

*contemplative

baking spree !

see the choc oozing out from centre? HAHA..i baked 2 la..actually its the same recipe...but forgot to add boiling water the first try... although both came out decent. no butter needed, so its a low fat choc cake? heh...*shrugs... anyway cakes arent meant to be low fat la~ loL~ not shiok enuf. so wats bakin' next? hmmm..heh..

wahpiang, im old..liow. still aching from the badminton session. but feel quite shiok. anyway.. photos from new year's eve are up on FB. lazy upload to here again..haa. and im pretty upset my compact camera does not hav manual settings...sighs. check this baby out. heee *whistles*

2nd jan le~....hmm..quite abit of stuff to prepare uh...next week's gonna be pretty busy. *fingers and toes crossed* hope all goes well~ ! gonna enjoy this weekend before work starts !

smiley fries and smiley Jing ~

who has a brighter smile? HAHA okay~ stay smiley and sunshiny!

have a great weekend all ! :D

*sings fly to the moon and the sun, and lets go have some fun...its one two threee, my love is plain to seee............ lalala! K-TIME!

Happy new year all~! :D

wohh, its 7am.. and i don't really wanna go to sleep at this timing. went badminton on the last evening of 2008~ coool right! heh...getting old, wld prefer to spend time with close friends, AWAY from the crowd. after sweating it out for 2hrs, we went essential brews for supper and drinks.. and played like wat, no less than 30 rounds of Saboteur?....i cant believe im the miner for ALL the games loH! wat are the odds man....!? continued the games at those empty tables in HV food centre after EB closed, and finally got to be sabotuer during our last game...haa. but we lost. tsk. i suck at the game! i cant act. i cant contain a smile, can't hide the smirk on my face...gaH~ i jus gave it all away. haaha. need to learn a trick or two from the Queen. loL...u are damn powerrrr loH, very s c h e m i n g indeed! heh... then it seems we havent had enuf for the night.. so trooped down beauty world and had mac breakfast~ 1st meal of 2009 - BIG breakfast! haha. fuel myself for an exciting 2009! heh~ ....then we just laughed and crapped the whole morning away.. in my view, think that was a fun-filled, cosy and relaxing night....wat better way to spend this day with besties who've been there during the good and bad times with you throughout the year? :)

whichever way you chose to spend it though, i hope each of you had fun! crossing into the new year does not mean instantaneously cutting away what has happened in the year b4, but i think its always good (and essential) to spend some time reflecting the good and the bad that has happened, and more imptly, to gain insights, grow and learn.. hope we're all geared up to take on and face both old and new challenges.

haa.. think im kinda going into hibernation mode liow. cant think, cant write properly. tired to proof read what i wrote also..loL..excuse me if there're any typo errors.. Anyway, HAPPY NEW YEAR again all~! Have a good rest today~ chill ! im gonna ehmz......stop now. haha... ok la..i'll write more again when i hav enough rest...shun bian post up photos.

how apt to chance upon this quote..something i've always believed in, and live by.

"True friendship can afford true knowledge. It does not depend on darkness and ignorance." -Henry David Thoreau

so anyway..heres a few more to end the day....

"An age is called Dark, not because the light fails to shine, but because people refuse to see it."
"A long habit of not thinking a thing wrong gives it a superficial appearance of being right."
"To be ignorant of one's ignorance is the malady of the ignorant."

wah, hungry. i feel hunger again. amazing.
ate seafood tomyum noodle soup for dinner just now.. and i actually finished it. cant recall when was the last time i finished a bowl/plate of anything whenever i eat outside liow. either i had no appetite..or i jus share and nibble something. im craving for muffins now~ again again again..... love the blueberry muffins from starbucks~ okay, shall stop thinking abt food liao.. gonna watch drama, and be one with my bed.

just got home. damn tired. dunno why. oh yah..think didnt sleep too well last night, plus i woke rather early today.

went PS to watch Yes Man starring Jim Carrey. used to be my favourite place to catch movies. its been awhile since i stepped into theatres also. and wahliews...155pm, din noe will hav so much ppl... shld hav did internet booking. but heng still can get 4th row to the front la..not too bad. and anyway, wat an apt timing to catch this show. sighs. tsk.. a n y w a y, slapstick comedy, enjoyed it... rather hilarious, good one. quite in a shopping mood of late too, got myself a pair of shoes from DMK, and a gift for my mum. a random gift..not exactly a belated bday gift, maybe jus sthg to surprise her, and to kickstart a good year for her. then saw this fossil watch that i really like also..but hmm...$124 after discount..din feel rich enuf to geddit. owells.

wat else... actually by now, i think u can realise (or not) from my tone that...im jus really tired, i dun feel like moving....and im procrastinating stepping into the bath room.

finally visited my ex-colleague and her baby~ so cute. i want one too.. two..three..... haha. the baby's rather big for a near 2mth old baby. hope he grows up healthy and be a sensible nice young man. haa. and quite nice catching up with my 2 ex-colleagues also. oh how time flies..haa. can still vividly recall when they interviewed me for my job at DAS.

*yawns* aish.............i shld go bathe. loL.. boo.

no more mind games.

just wanna let out a big S I G H.

somehow sad, because there is no point in feeling sad anymore. becos, i am not sad anymore.

it saddens to know and expose. but there's no point in that facade.
deep down, i'd like to believe in you, and think otherwise about what has happened since day o n e. but i'm really not sure anymore. anything, that is built on (or, using) deception, is bound to go into ruins.

sorry you insisted on that path, rather than salvaging something genuine and whole, and what i once thought worthwhile.

somehow, this quote came to mind:
"in death, we live behind everything we have, but we take with us everything that we are"

love, and peace out.

OMGOSH !!

I AM REALLY REALLY REALLY HAPPY TODAY! *happy tears*
feel like screaming ~!

i cant share WHY here, sorry! but, share my joy will u? loL..

December's a really good month~ lets hope its a foretaste of wat 2009's gonna be! wheeeeeeee!!

glorious foooD~

does half a day of blading (and screaming and siam-ing) do any justice? loL...someone do the math. i know i JUST recovered...wahahaha. MUST try the salted vege and duck soup from ECP hawker centre. DAMN SHIOK !! good recommendation! *pat on the back* or does food naturally taste better with good company? :p

niteyz nites. i am bushed!

Chiqui says...

hokay~ stay tuned for more peeks~

really gotta go~ ciaoz!

peek-a-boos~

wat i got from gift exchange, hahah! according to sugardaddy, these from VS cost $80+.. loL~ okla, solli for suan-ing u kob this from hotel toilet~ loL, oh hoho i've another voucher from the cocoa tree. muahaha.

:D

Christmas tree and big screen! sets the mood right !

happy with gifts? heh

US! :)

sunshine !

nice cloudy afternoon. hehe.. hmm, but im feeling sunshiny~ :p (as u can see from the rather random blog title...HAHA)

first thing's first, mummy's bday today~~ hee, no, mummy does not check my blog..loL~ mummy's my hero~ i love my mummyy!! heh~ okay.. she seems rather chirpy today also. good good, my prayer is that she stay healthy and happy, free from all physical and emotional stress and pain. anyone reading this, please pray along with me for her today on her special day yeah ? thank u thank u :p

and also, my misery has ended, wahaha. my voice is back! *RAWRRS* hehhe.. guai guai de finish my medication le. so i can be rewarded with abit of choc and ice-cream le *GRINS*~ weee~ yes? no? keke... i can end this year with a healthy and sound body. 3 cheers! hehe~

im getting excited abt the upcoming year! gonna see many changes~ heh, and i received my long-awaited letter!! boo to *ahems* efficiency level...but yays to finally receiving it ! haha! i think some of u will laugh until peng when i tell u abt the contents of THE letter. yes, effect has been tried and tested. so who's in a down mood, want to laugh? giv me a call. HAhaha..

okay okay~ share more in person~ no time to sit infront n blog today. keke! byeeeeeeee all!

Life is Wonderful

by Jason Mraz

It takes a thought to make a word

And it takes some words to make an action

And it takes some work to make it work

It takes some good to make it hurt

It takes some bad for satisfaction

Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful

Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle

Ah la la la la life is wonderful

Ah la la la la la

It takes a night to make it dawn

And it takes a day to make you yawn brother

And it takes some old to make you young

It takes some cold to know the sun

It takes the one to have the other

And it takes no time to fall in love

But it takes you years to know what love is

And it takes some fears to make you trust

It takes some tears to make it rust

It takes the rust to have it polished

Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful

Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle

Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful

Ah la la la la

It takes some silence to make sound

And it takes a loss before you found it

And it takes a road to go nowhere

It takes a toll to make you care

It takes a hole to make a mountain

dreadfully sick during the supposedly best week of the year? who'd expect~ haven't fell sick for quite sometime le, seems like my body's signalling that i should slow down slow down...take year end slow. on hindsight, a recurring theme for me in 2008 seems to be 'fast-in-fast-out' in virtually all aspects imaginable.... definitely, not one of my favourites. thats some tough shit.

i've much to say, but i just cant get my thoughts organised now. think im running a fever, my throat's super inflammed, my phelm's seems thick enough to stack a brick wall, theres blood in my spit- no wait, my spit IS blood, my head and back and shoulders hurt, my nose is blocked, and theres this occasional ringing in my ear. gah. i cant even utter a single word. its painful to even swallow my saliva.. i get the idea, i get the idea..i need to visit a doc. its 6am now, great..how long more do i hafta wait. the worst part is, i cant drink coffee while waiting! ~ ahhhhh... sians !

crawling back to bed.

WAHAHA!

lOL~ my first attempt! I DON'T CARE- better support! finish the crumbs, i can handle the strawberries! haha! :p

i think the lack of whipped cream makes it look kinda weird uh?? goin' healthy! gaH! haha~

Wishing all an early Merry Christmas !! Happy hols ! *skippy skips* :D

saw this at tang's in vivo jus now! super duper wanna get it~ the cow design one so cute right right right !? then then then...makes 2 cuppa~ jus niceee!! shld i shld i shld i !? haha...cappucino maker~~ ooH lovely~ boo hoo !! i shld go back vivo again sometime soon ............... sighs !! not cheap ! cost abt $100++ ~ evil!! but one look at it, and u noe its Jing's kinda thing u noe~ its a cow design too!! heh.. :s then i wanna get my french press also havent get~ tsk !

hee i got myself a mini piggy frying pan. lOL....gonna try and fry a pig-headed sunny side up. heh..and also some cute stirrers. gaH~! my mukka express............. craveeeeeeee !

ooH realise i havent been shopping for quite sometime le..saw some really cooL and funkeh stuffs jus now.. then theres this cool national geographic shop that jus opened at vivo! first thing we saw once we went up the escalator~ loveee it~ lotsa photos~ i can only dream someday, my shots will be placed along those in the gallery. keke.

hmm, heh...so today, i've got 4 russell peter video clips! im gonna enjoy one now. haa... ! thankies doodleyy dooo!

narcissistic moment.

attempting a shot with my ever playful chiqui.

more ai swee than her owner !!

BUAY TAHAN AH!

i loveee her to bits !! haha !

ok poks, i really shouldnt be infront of this screen at this hour when im not feeling very well..byebye...i go be infront of the other screen now. HAHA

大家晚安

still cant get those chords and strumming right. so awkward when i change the chords, and the timing all went haywire when i try to sing and strum at the same time. loL~ poo-ey~ practice practice practice~ need alot of self-discipline, patience, practice and perseverance. no wonder theres a positive correlation between music participation and academic achievement. im guessing its not just the result of one's musical and intellectual capacities, but also an interplay of those traits that endures. of cos, in everything that one does..lets not forget about the intrinsic motivation that does wonders. heh..interest and passion ! though it gets a lil frustrating at times trying to get those chords right, and on time, im definitely enjoying the process. therapeutic i'd say. heh. its guitar for now, but i'd wanna pickup piano after i start receiving a steady income.

there're so many things i wanna learn and do !!!!!

wanderlust-ing

yumms! (:

quite a number of frens went Japan this year uh~ whens my turn!!? hee..but i obviously havent missed out on the goodies..keke... been wanting to re-visit Hokkaido and other parts as well~ owell~! lets hope i can plan one soon. wonder if its feasible to go next year. hmmm..

travel travel travel~~ thats wat i love to do! uh-huh uh-huhh. loL :P

靖生病了 :(

sigh

乖乖去休息了

boo !

all i want for christmas is .......................................